Submissions by lookingformngick (Taitum)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Terminal Duality but never Terminal Uniqueness.
LOVE POEM
Published
30th Aug 2023 7:03pm
30th Aug 2023 7:03pm
the ghost
It’s 5AM and sunlight is streaming through the windows of this borrowed room
While I lie awake in a new bed joined only by the ghost of us
And I am struck by the brutal truth that history always repeats itself
It was only a few years ago that I laid in another borrowed room, in another town, in another new bed
Accompanied by the ghost of a failed engagement
And a few years before that there was another room and bed and a much more brutal ghost
And now I lay here as this ghost runs it’s hand along my arm
Caressing my skin in a crude imitation of intimacy ...
While I lie awake in a new bed joined only by the ghost of us
And I am struck by the brutal truth that history always repeats itself
It was only a few years ago that I laid in another borrowed room, in another town, in another new bed
Accompanied by the ghost of a failed engagement
And a few years before that there was another room and bed and a much more brutal ghost
And now I lay here as this ghost runs it’s hand along my arm
Caressing my skin in a crude imitation of intimacy ...
#breakup
#MovingOn
#IMissYou #bittersweet
#IMissYou #bittersweet
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Jun 2023 4:21am
2nd Jun 2023 4:21am
I don’t even know
I drink too much
And hate myself for it
Why are you never home
When I need you?
And hate myself for it
Why are you never home
When I need you?
#sadness
#loneliness
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LOVE POEM
Published
22nd May 2023 10:04pm
22nd May 2023 10:04pm
The knowing
I don’t want to love you anymore
I don’t want to want you
It’s the ever growing struggle
It’s the knowing
Knowing that this probably isn’t it
Knowing I deserve more
I deserve someone willing to sacrifice
Everything I’ve sacrificed
I deserve someone willing to do
Everything I’ve done
I deserve to be loved
As I have loved
So why
Why can’t I stop loving you
You’re the match and I’m the gasoline
And baby when you strike me
You leave nothing left
Let me stop loving you
Before I let...
I don’t want to want you
It’s the ever growing struggle
It’s the knowing
Knowing that this probably isn’t it
Knowing I deserve more
I deserve someone willing to sacrifice
Everything I’ve sacrificed
I deserve someone willing to do
Everything I’ve done
I deserve to be loved
As I have loved
So why
Why can’t I stop loving you
You’re the match and I’m the gasoline
And baby when you strike me
You leave nothing left
Let me stop loving you
Before I let...
#confusion
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LOVE POEM
Published
22nd May 2023 1:42am
22nd May 2023 1:42am
Someday
Someday I will come home to peace
A quiet house and a quiet mind
A happy heart and a cozy bed
And you
You probably won’t be there
But I will
With a made bed and flowers on the table
Someday my heart won’t beat out of my chest
Just at the thought of it
It will be an oasis
It will be comfortable and loving and safe
Someday I’ll stop struggling to picture another at my table
Because I know
I know that while all I can see right now is you, you are not my forever
God do I wish you were
I want to spend the rest of my life...
A quiet house and a quiet mind
A happy heart and a cozy bed
And you
You probably won’t be there
But I will
With a made bed and flowers on the table
Someday my heart won’t beat out of my chest
Just at the thought of it
It will be an oasis
It will be comfortable and loving and safe
Someday I’ll stop struggling to picture another at my table
Because I know
I know that while all I can see right now is you, you are not my forever
God do I wish you were
I want to spend the rest of my life...
#sadness
#love
#bittersweet
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LOVE POEM
Published
19th May 2023 2:48am
19th May 2023 2:48am
showers
there’s a secret I’d like to share with you
it is mystical and magical and so very mundane all at once
the secret is showers are portals
portals to other worlds and times
to other places and people and lives
portals to other thoughts, dreams and realities
just step in and turn the water
allow the sound of droplets pounding your flesh
pounding the walls
pounding the curtain
to drown out the noise
lock the door
close your eyes
drift into another mind
showers are portals
they cancel out the yelling on the other side of...
it is mystical and magical and so very mundane all at once
the secret is showers are portals
portals to other worlds and times
to other places and people and lives
portals to other thoughts, dreams and realities
just step in and turn the water
allow the sound of droplets pounding your flesh
pounding the walls
pounding the curtain
to drown out the noise
lock the door
close your eyes
drift into another mind
showers are portals
they cancel out the yelling on the other side of...
#despair
#emptiness
#emotional #bittersweet
#emotional #bittersweet
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
1st Apr 2023 00:38am
1st Apr 2023 00:38am
The Hole
The realtor turns a plastic smile in your direction,
spreads her arms in a gesture of grandeur
‘Welcome to the Prophet’s cottage
as you can see the porch is a new addition; the previous owners were experienced carpenters
and the exterior was recently painted a lovely shade I fondly refer to as California Sky’
she reaches a perfectly manicured hand to open the door
her smile widens
her voice is saccharine
as she walks you through the most adorable house you’ve ever seen
granite counters and open flame range
inset lighting and hand carved...
spreads her arms in a gesture of grandeur
‘Welcome to the Prophet’s cottage
as you can see the porch is a new addition; the previous owners were experienced carpenters
and the exterior was recently painted a lovely shade I fondly refer to as California Sky’
she reaches a perfectly manicured hand to open the door
her smile widens
her voice is saccharine
as she walks you through the most adorable house you’ve ever seen
granite counters and open flame range
inset lighting and hand carved...
#addiction
#confusion
#philosophical #deception
#philosophical #deception
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
24th Mar 2023 1:48am
24th Mar 2023 1:48am
God
they tell me to pray
to get on my knees at my bedside
and weave words like spells
to invoke a God I am not sure I wish to know
a God that hides in overpriced church pews and stuffy robes,
entrenched in pointless formalities
an untouchable God without a face
or rather, with a face that too closely resembles the hubris of the men who wished Him into being
no, that is not my God
if I believed in God, I’d believe she was a woman
if we were created in her image it only makes sense
women are the makers
if I believed in God, I...
to get on my knees at my bedside
and weave words like spells
to invoke a God I am not sure I wish to know
a God that hides in overpriced church pews and stuffy robes,
entrenched in pointless formalities
an untouchable God without a face
or rather, with a face that too closely resembles the hubris of the men who wished Him into being
no, that is not my God
if I believed in God, I’d believe she was a woman
if we were created in her image it only makes sense
women are the makers
if I believed in God, I...
#faith
#spiritual
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LOVE POEM
Published
24th Mar 2023 1:18am
24th Mar 2023 1:18am
Hedonistic
I
am hedonistic in my pleasures
I
am greedy and needy
I
am a selfish lover
I
am a taker, not a maker
I
am a selfish woman
I give only the gift of giving
give me anything baby
and watch the smile light my face, eyes turned up at you
teeth sinking into my lip while I let loose
a cute lil thank you
I
am sin incarnate
tempting, tasty and goddamned terrifying
I
am not the woman you bring home to your mother
or your brother
I
am what every man craves but is too insecure...
am hedonistic in my pleasures
I
am greedy and needy
I
am a selfish lover
I
am a taker, not a maker
I
am a selfish woman
I give only the gift of giving
give me anything baby
and watch the smile light my face, eyes turned up at you
teeth sinking into my lip while I let loose
a cute lil thank you
I
am sin incarnate
tempting, tasty and goddamned terrifying
I
am not the woman you bring home to your mother
or your brother
I
am what every man craves but is too insecure...
#sex
#spiritual
#lover
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SELF POEM
Published
15th Feb 2023 1:34am
15th Feb 2023 1:34am
hunger
bloody steak and crisp asparagus
creamy potatoes and red wine
this is a fine meal
a hearty meal
a meal fit for a king
it is not that kind of hunger
the fridge is full, the cellar stocked
there is enough food in this house for a year
for a family
for a life
it is not my plate that is empty
the kitchen is beautiful
it is functional and full of capable hands
it is not my stomach that is quaking
we do not know hunger here
only warm plates and full bellies ...
creamy potatoes and red wine
this is a fine meal
a hearty meal
a meal fit for a king
it is not that kind of hunger
the fridge is full, the cellar stocked
there is enough food in this house for a year
for a family
for a life
it is not my plate that is empty
the kitchen is beautiful
it is functional and full of capable hands
it is not my stomach that is quaking
we do not know hunger here
only warm plates and full bellies ...
#disappointment
#emptiness
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SELF POEM
Published
13th Feb 2023 8:08pm
13th Feb 2023 8:08pm
War of Teeth
there is violence in my throat
a war of teeth in my mouth
hiding a savage tongue, wild and thirsty for blood
beastly sounds escape the cage of my cracked lips
there is violence in my throat
firing words like gunshots
this mouth, full of war
this mouth of cruel teeth and harsh tongue
teeth, these teeth, my teeth, like knives
a tongue, my tongue, that strikes like a whip, leaving carnage in its wake
my tongue, this tongue, licks the blood from bruised lips, these lips, my lips
as this mouth, my...
a war of teeth in my mouth
hiding a savage tongue, wild and thirsty for blood
beastly sounds escape the cage of my cracked lips
there is violence in my throat
firing words like gunshots
this mouth, full of war
this mouth of cruel teeth and harsh tongue
teeth, these teeth, my teeth, like knives
a tongue, my tongue, that strikes like a whip, leaving carnage in its wake
my tongue, this tongue, licks the blood from bruised lips, these lips, my lips
as this mouth, my...
#violence
#philosophical
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LOVE POEM
Published
5th Jan 2023 10:23pm
5th Jan 2023 10:23pm
Mantra
He’s not yours
He’s not yours
He’s not yours
He’s not yours. He’s not yours. He’s not yours. He’s not yours. He’s not yours. He’s not yours.
HesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyoursHesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyoursHesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyoursHesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyours
He
Is
Not
Yours
anymore
He’s not yours
He’s not yours
He’s not yours. He’s not yours. He’s not yours. He’s not yours. He’s not yours. He’s not yours.
HesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyoursHesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyoursHesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyoursHesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyourshesnotyours
He
Is
Not
Yours
anymore
#jealousy
#loneliness
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Jan 2023 10:31pm
2nd Jan 2023 10:31pm
Lonely
I think I’m lonely
I think the twist in my stomach, the weight on my chest; is the start of realization
The realization that I am wildly unrealistic
Unrealistic in my desire for connection, in my desire for comfort,in my desire for softness
Forget being soft; It’s a hard life I’ve chosen, a hard life I’ve been handed
I’ve spent too much time picking broken glass out of old wounds, ignoring the fact that the path I’m walking is lined with the shit
For every hole I patch I open six more; shredded skin, shredded clothes, shredded thoughts
I’m crumbling under...
I think the twist in my stomach, the weight on my chest; is the start of realization
The realization that I am wildly unrealistic
Unrealistic in my desire for connection, in my desire for comfort,in my desire for softness
Forget being soft; It’s a hard life I’ve chosen, a hard life I’ve been handed
I’ve spent too much time picking broken glass out of old wounds, ignoring the fact that the path I’m walking is lined with the shit
For every hole I patch I open six more; shredded skin, shredded clothes, shredded thoughts
I’m crumbling under...
#loneliness
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2 Comments
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