Submissions by kristen_b

Feelings of disgust
Run through my head
Whispers and thoughts
Are always left unsaid

Thought to be strong
But I’m absolutely terrified
Constantly drawing you in
Just to run and hide

I’m sorry I’m this selfish
Warmth is so hard to fight
This abyss is pitch-black
I just need a little light

I really hate who I am
I know you have to as well
I don't show innocent love
Can't bring you into this hell

Have to distance myself
I’ll ruin your beautiful fate
I’m only trying to save you
From this ferocious...

I hate myself once again
Compared to her I’ll never win
Why compare myself at all
Next to anyone I’d always fall

Beauty comes from deep within      
If that’s true society is made of sin
Don’t try to convince me otherwise
You’re brainwashed by beautiful lies

Truth is, naturally I’m still lesser
God decided no don’t bless her
Forever worthless oh so cursed
Only be better when I’m hearsed

Buried in the ground my beauty can erupt
A flower may break free beautiful, abrupt
Fertilized by my cold, dead remains of ugly
It can...

The dark is calling
Your petty lover is falling
Pathetic, isn't she?
Want to set her free?

Ask reality if she can join in
If not, she'll never win
Funny how it works, isn't it?
Better hope she doesn't quit

She's getting farther away
Running from being prey
Better save her now
Or you'll never learn how

Can't find a way to help her, can you?
Then she'll have to stay on the menu
What happens when they eat her to the core?
Then shell be nevermore

Sad, isn't it?
She just wants to fit
Be good enough for her...

I wake up dead inside of course
You’d think it wouldn’t hit me with such force
But each morning the same episodes replay
You think they’d at least try to delay

It’s a constant battle but they never stop
You think I might be hitting a drop
Oh trust me it gets worse
You think it seems just like a curse

You don’t even slightly understand
You think I should take your hand
Wish I could grab it but I’m too far now
You wonder how..

It’s because I’m in too deep
I can see reality crumble at my feet
Not possible? Think again
I’m...