Submissions by kmart2013 (K)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I hold my pain close to my heart, Because I don't want to be alone.
SELF POEM
Published
4th Nov 2016 4:40am
4th Nov 2016 4:40am
Cycle of life for me
When does it get better?
I guess all I can say is, never..
Seems people like me.. Stay this way
Forever
I guess all I can say is, never..
Seems people like me.. Stay this way
Forever
732 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
26th Oct 2016 3:40am
26th Oct 2016 3:40am
Insecurities
Demons crawl out to me
They beg to come home to me.
They feel safer inside of me, they will abide by the rules; they lie to me.
Demons will start to take hold of me
Creatures will take control of me.
Fear abides in me, they won't ever free me.
As I live and try to tell; no one believes in me.
Too many years alone, they comfort me.
Life spent running from the light, they understand me.
They smile with me
They know I'm okay
They won't leave me
They care for my existence, more than angels are allowed to..
...
They beg to come home to me.
They feel safer inside of me, they will abide by the rules; they lie to me.
Demons will start to take hold of me
Creatures will take control of me.
Fear abides in me, they won't ever free me.
As I live and try to tell; no one believes in me.
Too many years alone, they comfort me.
Life spent running from the light, they understand me.
They smile with me
They know I'm okay
They won't leave me
They care for my existence, more than angels are allowed to..
...
778 reads
8 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
26th Oct 2016 3:33am
26th Oct 2016 3:33am
Deeper in
You say you care
You say you love me;
why am I Alone?
The darkness holds,
The darkness needs me.
It shows me I am home.
I should run.
I should leave, away from everyone.
I know he's safe
I know he's loved
I know he's not alone.
.im sorry.
You say you love me;
why am I Alone?
The darkness holds,
The darkness needs me.
It shows me I am home.
I should run.
I should leave, away from everyone.
I know he's safe
I know he's loved
I know he's not alone.
.im sorry.
634 reads
2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
14th Aug 2016 7:58am
14th Aug 2016 7:58am
myPointless existence
I could sit all alone and pretend I've ever been able to write a poem
When in reality I was tweakin' lost in my fucking zone
No creativity here just illusions
Well, ok also some delusions .. Along side senseless conclusions, a beautiful profusion of toxic confusion
It could haunt me for the rest of existence but then i would be weak
Feelings of a fucked up relentless mis fit trying to feel better so I fuckin geek
When in reality I was tweakin' lost in my fucking zone
No creativity here just illusions
Well, ok also some delusions .. Along side senseless conclusions, a beautiful profusion of toxic confusion
It could haunt me for the rest of existence but then i would be weak
Feelings of a fucked up relentless mis fit trying to feel better so I fuckin geek
766 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
8th Aug 2016 00:23am
8th Aug 2016 00:23am
Suicide in mind
Contemplating suicide and the only thing I can't figure out is why don't I want to be alive?
I don't want to fight and survive, I cannot understand why but I don't want to be alive.
I don't want to open my eyes
I don't want to try
I can't even cry
I don't wan to tell anyone goodbye
I just want to fly in the sky and of course feel one last high
All I have is this urge to die
Maybe one day someone can understand why
why i think so much of suicide....
I don't want to fight and survive, I cannot understand why but I don't want to be alive.
I don't want to open my eyes
I don't want to try
I can't even cry
I don't wan to tell anyone goodbye
I just want to fly in the sky and of course feel one last high
All I have is this urge to die
Maybe one day someone can understand why
why i think so much of suicide....
753 reads
4 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
10th May 2016 4:35pm
10th May 2016 4:35pm
What the f**k
Needle staring up at me, asking me to release pressure for the both of us.
I can't remember what it feels like to live again.
I can't realize I'm acting weird again.
I can't seem to break this illusion of sanity again.
Everything goes black, as the heroin goddesses attack.
Couple of minutes pass by I guess
..……"mommy?! Mommy? Wake up mommy your bleeding!"
………"stay with us Kayla- we're doing our best!"
God I felt great
should've left me to sleep
before my drastic fate
4 years in prison-child...
I can't remember what it feels like to live again.
I can't realize I'm acting weird again.
I can't seem to break this illusion of sanity again.
Everything goes black, as the heroin goddesses attack.
Couple of minutes pass by I guess
..……"mommy?! Mommy? Wake up mommy your bleeding!"
………"stay with us Kayla- we're doing our best!"
God I felt great
should've left me to sleep
before my drastic fate
4 years in prison-child...
1051 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
16th Mar 2016 00:16am
16th Mar 2016 00:16am
I don't want to be like this
Lately I've been getting worse
No crystal chills or violent jerks
Spinning in circles all over the place
Today is the day I come face to face
Here's a FUCK YOU to feelings that are fake
I don't want to be like this! Crazy every fkin day
Mixed mania never goes away
Feeling manic feelings is always here to stay
But I think there is something I can do,
I hope there's someway I can prove..
This isn't me.. Well sometimes it is..
I REALLY DONT WANT TO BE LIKE THIS
what if I simply just don't react?
Or is that...
No crystal chills or violent jerks
Spinning in circles all over the place
Today is the day I come face to face
Here's a FUCK YOU to feelings that are fake
I don't want to be like this! Crazy every fkin day
Mixed mania never goes away
Feeling manic feelings is always here to stay
But I think there is something I can do,
I hope there's someway I can prove..
This isn't me.. Well sometimes it is..
I REALLY DONT WANT TO BE LIKE THIS
what if I simply just don't react?
Or is that...
721 reads
2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
20th Feb 2016 3:50am
20th Feb 2016 3:50am
I dont want to die, I just want to get high
I'm afraid I'm losing myself again.
I want to get high. I want to spend life twisted
Fuck it. My bipolar is winning with only 1 cure
So.. Hit up he dope man. 1 oz 100% pure.
I've "already relapsed" in my brain obviously
Although, in realty I'm a straight up pussy
Afraid to lose everything again
But ready to "speed up" everything Iv gained
Spending all day thinking of something to ingest
WTF I can't handle the crystal meth
But I don't want to fall asleep
I need something that won't push me to my peak..
Don't...
I want to get high. I want to spend life twisted
Fuck it. My bipolar is winning with only 1 cure
So.. Hit up he dope man. 1 oz 100% pure.
I've "already relapsed" in my brain obviously
Although, in realty I'm a straight up pussy
Afraid to lose everything again
But ready to "speed up" everything Iv gained
Spending all day thinking of something to ingest
WTF I can't handle the crystal meth
But I don't want to fall asleep
I need something that won't push me to my peak..
Don't...
1340 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
9th Feb 2016 11:52pm
9th Feb 2016 11:52pm
Doomed
In the same room
But miles apart
Begging to be my groom
But he doesn't have my heart
He took me from the darkness
I brought him to the Light
Loving me is the hardest,
I swear I'll never be "alright"
Id much rather be alone
Than keep breaking his heart
Who am I kidding? We were
Doomed from the start..
But miles apart
Begging to be my groom
But he doesn't have my heart
He took me from the darkness
I brought him to the Light
Loving me is the hardest,
I swear I'll never be "alright"
Id much rather be alone
Than keep breaking his heart
Who am I kidding? We were
Doomed from the start..
813 reads
3 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
6th Feb 2016 6:26pm
6th Feb 2016 6:26pm
light of my life
The sweetest boy I've ever seen,
To animals, to all human beings!
The beautiful glow in his innocent eyes,
...oooh just destroyed with "devastated" cries!
"Mom did I act like him?"
"HA HA good luck, he's your twin!"
That's okay, he's so fun and so curious,
But suddenly he's screaming, he's furious!
I keep my calm and parent the best I can,
Now and always I'm his number 1 fan.
He has a sweet soul and acts just like me,
Oh no that's not true... How bad can he be?
He has curly jet black hair;
gets the...
To animals, to all human beings!
The beautiful glow in his innocent eyes,
...oooh just destroyed with "devastated" cries!
"Mom did I act like him?"
"HA HA good luck, he's your twin!"
That's okay, he's so fun and so curious,
But suddenly he's screaming, he's furious!
I keep my calm and parent the best I can,
Now and always I'm his number 1 fan.
He has a sweet soul and acts just like me,
Oh no that's not true... How bad can he be?
He has curly jet black hair;
gets the...
923 reads
4 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
1st Feb 2016 6:12am
1st Feb 2016 6:12am
I'm going to win this battle..
Joseph I'm so sorry, your mothers a mess
See son I fight a battle with a monster named meth.... Since you've been born I left it behind, now everyday of my life I've lost myself trying.. she's calling me son, she wants me to leave.
Am I really thinking like this?! I cannot believe 😓
I might look happy on the outside and sad on DUP
But I can't figure who is the real me...
At age 11 I took my first hit,
At 13 I slamming heavy shit
At age 16 I over dosed and died
Age 17-18 rehab-meth fried..
I'm older now it's been a couple...
See son I fight a battle with a monster named meth.... Since you've been born I left it behind, now everyday of my life I've lost myself trying.. she's calling me son, she wants me to leave.
Am I really thinking like this?! I cannot believe 😓
I might look happy on the outside and sad on DUP
But I can't figure who is the real me...
At age 11 I took my first hit,
At 13 I slamming heavy shit
At age 16 I over dosed and died
Age 17-18 rehab-meth fried..
I'm older now it's been a couple...
955 reads
5 Comments
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