Submissions by hammind (sarahjean)

You can just shoot me in the head, I don't mind since I can't sleep anyway
And it's nice knowing that you have guaranteed sleep
And no leeway for depression and anxiety and personality disorders
The walls of my mind painted with blood is better than the cold white of mental hospital walls
But it's not nice because you don't get to enjoy the little pleasures of life
Like a French airways flight back to the US
Or the warmth of a fleece blanket...
Or the recovery of some stolen shit.
When will I have my sweet moment?
I am done with being romanticized and...

Oh God, what a lecherous disaster
First with the stick shift 
And now with some penny drift
You have flooded these thoughts to the borderline 
Well, someone has to live up to their name
There are parties and discos, roller rinks and zoos
Hand in hand, red cup in hand in mouth in thought
Moonlight fills the two clashing galas, yet, nobody is even dancing here
But nobody even came
See, the book was studied, and there was no irrational checking of the doors and clocks at all 
Not at all
You go back to your pretentious town to see your pretentious...

The perfect girl drowned in bilirubin
Stinging, cold venom of a bee
The diet pills turning skin yellow
Yet this skin was birthed yellow
Men want a perfect yellow girl
My liver is failing me and the disease is spreading
Not this kind of yellow. The polite, quiet, submissive, brainless yellow..
The disease is spreading
I should go out into the sun. Should I?
The honey lemon tea will help drop the pounds
Liposuction here and there.
Bleaching the hair everywhere. 
I need to fit into this pretty little thing.
But the sunshine is...

She's on the prrrowl
Using those binoculars to find that poor stupid man
He's aging, he's annoyed,
He's cultured and bright
He's wearing business casual
And he's ruined every relationship he's ever had!!
"A single thirtysomething!" laughed the vacuous girl pipe dream, "... Pathetic!"
the prey wanders through San Francisco at night
and she follows him,
Though he did not want her to.
Through the alleys, through the woods, through the city, she stalks him.
And I watch her..

I want to be the savvy, the conniving ...