Submissions by hammind (sarahjean)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
toxic innovator.
Caligula (Rewrite)
unlucky in love
and I’m bleeding all over
never clicking and he says we never will
Rome wasn’t built in a day, after all
but Caligula, your time’s up
I’ve got the morning star
driving him to madness
my heels make me taller than him
see, I’m in control now
sexy, dark red, and soaked in blood
I am a giant
and I am not afraid to bounce back at Caligula
so I will knife out his eyes,
I will steal his wallet
as he has stolen my heart
The luckiest in love
and I will reverse our roles.
and I’m bleeding all over
never clicking and he says we never will
Rome wasn’t built in a day, after all
but Caligula, your time’s up
I’ve got the morning star
driving him to madness
my heels make me taller than him
see, I’m in control now
sexy, dark red, and soaked in blood
I am a giant
and I am not afraid to bounce back at Caligula
so I will knife out his eyes,
I will steal his wallet
as he has stolen my heart
The luckiest in love
and I will reverse our roles.
#love
#rejection
#hurt
228 reads
Schizophrenia
Unusual heavy machinery,
or anxiety that you cannot control
psychosis
psychosis
psychosis
Talk with the doctor,
Call the doctor right away
your family member lost touch with reality
You had unusual urges,
thoughts about suicide
What is this drug used for?
mental problems suicidal thoughts autism nervousness behavioral problems depression schizophrenia
Use this drug with care.
or anxiety that you cannot control
psychosis
psychosis
psychosis
Talk with the doctor,
Call the doctor right away
your family member lost touch with reality
You had unusual urges,
thoughts about suicide
What is this drug used for?
mental problems suicidal thoughts autism nervousness behavioral problems depression schizophrenia
Use this drug with care.
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#MentalHealth
#PTSD
410 reads
All You Ever Need
Every single day spent tirelessly
Creating the remarkable imitation of life itself
Take the blade and slash the skin, lightly
You’ll see styrofoam underneath
This is me, and that’s also me
I’m all you’ll ever need
Her hair is perfect, maybe it’s not real
With a sharp smile like razors on glass
Cocaine secrets disguised by red lipstick and nighttime drives.
Faithful like the drag of teeth pulling skin from the bone
She’s literally perfection
And maybe she’s all you’ll ever need
I know I said it wouldn’t happen again this...
Creating the remarkable imitation of life itself
Take the blade and slash the skin, lightly
You’ll see styrofoam underneath
This is me, and that’s also me
I’m all you’ll ever need
Her hair is perfect, maybe it’s not real
With a sharp smile like razors on glass
Cocaine secrets disguised by red lipstick and nighttime drives.
Faithful like the drag of teeth pulling skin from the bone
She’s literally perfection
And maybe she’s all you’ll ever need
I know I said it wouldn’t happen again this...
#anger
#jealousy
#hate #SelfHarm
#hate #SelfHarm
440 reads
jealous
You can’t stop me from being just a little bit jealous
Yeah, I know it’s hard to watch
I know it can be troubling
Seeing me drag the knife across my neck
But I want to separate this part from my heart
Cute girls in red dresses, pretty girls in red scarves
I’m going to decapitate that stupid bitch and use her face as a doormat
Don’t look at me,
I don’t want you to see me.
Don’t look at me because you won’t prefer me,
Yeah, I know I’m just a little bit jealous..
I can’t help that I’ve always been a little bit jealous, you know ...
Yeah, I know it’s hard to watch
I know it can be troubling
Seeing me drag the knife across my neck
But I want to separate this part from my heart
Cute girls in red dresses, pretty girls in red scarves
I’m going to decapitate that stupid bitch and use her face as a doormat
Don’t look at me,
I don’t want you to see me.
Don’t look at me because you won’t prefer me,
Yeah, I know I’m just a little bit jealous..
I can’t help that I’ve always been a little bit jealous, you know ...
#jealousy
#honesty
#frustration
#obsession
#fear
527 reads
No One For Me (Donna Michelle)
Is there no one for me?
I’ll give two for you,
Or we can play me for you.
But you want three for her
And I'm not her, nor will I ever BE her.
And if you ever needed to know,
I’m a bleeding nose at the top of the stairwell
I'm the reason they need a ghost light
I’m crying black tears at the entrance
And I’ve been waiting for you, here...
I’ll give two for you,
Or we can play me for you.
But you want three for her
And I'm not her, nor will I ever BE her.
And if you ever needed to know,
I’m a bleeding nose at the top of the stairwell
I'm the reason they need a ghost light
I’m crying black tears at the entrance
And I’ve been waiting for you, here...
#sadness
#love
#loneliness #relationships
#loneliness #relationships
722 reads
Pervert
You are the end,
or maybe you’re just at the end.
my head has always been in space
A head of long black hair and an innocent face.
In my world, I hate myself but you’re in love with me.
I change my clothes so often that you started to call me a pop star.
Didn’t I tell you I could be anything?
I’ve always been so different from other girls...
Forget.
I want to forget.
Stop trying to be my Dad
Stop trying now that you know that I’m sad
I’m madly, helplessly, obsessively, and forever maddeningly in...
or maybe you’re just at the end.
my head has always been in space
A head of long black hair and an innocent face.
In my world, I hate myself but you’re in love with me.
I change my clothes so often that you started to call me a pop star.
Didn’t I tell you I could be anything?
I’ve always been so different from other girls...
Forget.
I want to forget.
Stop trying to be my Dad
Stop trying now that you know that I’m sad
I’m madly, helplessly, obsessively, and forever maddeningly in...
#love
#lust
#aging
547 reads
The Veronica Paradox
Veronica
When I close my eyes, I see Veronica
In the middle of the night I close my eyes
and I dream about Veronica
My sweet Vero, my beloved Vero
the whirring of the fan in her bedroom
her kind and forgiving smile
that reminds me that it really is all good
She told me she’d invite me to every party,
and that my art will hang on her wall forever,
or at least until she moved into an apartment that didn’t have asbestos.
She and I named everything in her room,
and after class I’d stop by
the two of us sprawled on the...
When I close my eyes, I see Veronica
In the middle of the night I close my eyes
and I dream about Veronica
My sweet Vero, my beloved Vero
the whirring of the fan in her bedroom
her kind and forgiving smile
that reminds me that it really is all good
She told me she’d invite me to every party,
and that my art will hang on her wall forever,
or at least until she moved into an apartment that didn’t have asbestos.
She and I named everything in her room,
and after class I’d stop by
the two of us sprawled on the...
#love
#friendship
#LGBT #school
#LGBT #school
824 reads
Summer’s Superposition
I was once told to jump out of the black, and into the blue.
So I followed all the rules I knew
and I broke all of the rules I wanted to
I even sped my convertible naked and alone through Burbank.
It's my payroll, my body, my time, and my energy
It's my lifestyle, my sadness, my sexuality, my friends, and my family.
I was once told to look into someone's eyes when I am speaking to them.
So I fell in love with everyone I saw,
I fell in love with eyes, not people.
I licked the hot blacktop of southern California highways. ...
So I followed all the rules I knew
and I broke all of the rules I wanted to
I even sped my convertible naked and alone through Burbank.
It's my payroll, my body, my time, and my energy
It's my lifestyle, my sadness, my sexuality, my friends, and my family.
I was once told to look into someone's eyes when I am speaking to them.
So I fell in love with everyone I saw,
I fell in love with eyes, not people.
I licked the hot blacktop of southern California highways. ...
#PopCulture
1377 reads
Kayla Takeuchi
Have you ever been moved to tears by a piano composition, Kayla?
I once laid in bed at 4 am with one of my best friends
and she played me a song and told me,
"This song is what I imagine being in love is like."
And I couldn't agree more.
We shed tears under her string lights,
And I did not sleep at all that night
Tell me, Kayla, do you know what being in love is like?
I listened to this music when I was 16, when I cried after class on the days where the sky was the biggest and brightest
And the clouds seemed to bumble just too fast ...
I once laid in bed at 4 am with one of my best friends
and she played me a song and told me,
"This song is what I imagine being in love is like."
And I couldn't agree more.
We shed tears under her string lights,
And I did not sleep at all that night
Tell me, Kayla, do you know what being in love is like?
I listened to this music when I was 16, when I cried after class on the days where the sky was the biggest and brightest
And the clouds seemed to bumble just too fast ...
#depression
#fate
#Autism
997 reads
French airways
You can just shoot me in the head, I don't mind since I can't sleep anyway
And it's nice knowing that you have guaranteed sleep
And no leeway for depression and anxiety and personality disorders
The walls of my mind painted with blood is better than the cold white of mental hospital walls
But it's not nice because you don't get to enjoy the little pleasures of life
Like a French airways flight back to the US
Or the warmth of a fleece blanket...
Or the recovery of some stolen shit.
When will I have my sweet moment?
I am done with being romanticized and...
And it's nice knowing that you have guaranteed sleep
And no leeway for depression and anxiety and personality disorders
The walls of my mind painted with blood is better than the cold white of mental hospital walls
But it's not nice because you don't get to enjoy the little pleasures of life
Like a French airways flight back to the US
Or the warmth of a fleece blanket...
Or the recovery of some stolen shit.
When will I have my sweet moment?
I am done with being romanticized and...
663 reads
How to ruin a party you weren't invited to (Beauty of the Blitzkrieg)
Oh God, what a lecherous disaster
First with the stick shift
And now with some penny drift
You have flooded these thoughts to the borderline
Well, someone has to live up to their name
There are parties and discos, roller rinks and zoos
Hand in hand, red cup in hand in mouth in thought
Moonlight fills the two clashing galas, yet, nobody is even dancing here
But nobody even came
See, the book was studied, and there was no irrational checking of the doors and clocks at all
Not at all
You go back to your pretentious town to see your pretentious...
First with the stick shift
And now with some penny drift
You have flooded these thoughts to the borderline
Well, someone has to live up to their name
There are parties and discos, roller rinks and zoos
Hand in hand, red cup in hand in mouth in thought
Moonlight fills the two clashing galas, yet, nobody is even dancing here
But nobody even came
See, the book was studied, and there was no irrational checking of the doors and clocks at all
Not at all
You go back to your pretentious town to see your pretentious...
1051 reads
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Lip injections
The perfect girl drowned in bilirubin
Stinging, cold venom of a bee
The diet pills turning skin yellow
Yet this skin was birthed yellow
Men want a perfect yellow girl
My liver is failing me and the disease is spreading
Not this kind of yellow. The polite, quiet, submissive, brainless yellow..
The disease is spreading
I should go out into the sun. Should I?
The honey lemon tea will help drop the pounds
Liposuction here and there.
Bleaching the hair everywhere.
I need to fit into this pretty little thing.
But the sunshine is...
Stinging, cold venom of a bee
The diet pills turning skin yellow
Yet this skin was birthed yellow
Men want a perfect yellow girl
My liver is failing me and the disease is spreading
Not this kind of yellow. The polite, quiet, submissive, brainless yellow..
The disease is spreading
I should go out into the sun. Should I?
The honey lemon tea will help drop the pounds
Liposuction here and there.
Bleaching the hair everywhere.
I need to fit into this pretty little thing.
But the sunshine is...
#identity
#racism
#SelfWorth
660 reads
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