Submissions by diablia363 (Alisha Ranstrom)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
diablia363 aka alisha I've been to nowhere and everywhere at same time ,I've felt so lost and silent. Until someone gave me deep underground on which to purge my thoughts spewing them from the depths of my mind..laying them out for others like me to find.
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
23rd Aug 2013 10:58am
23rd Aug 2013 10:58am
regret
too late to say your sorry
ill never forgive you
it cant be undone
you broke my heart
completely shattered is my heart
you tore a hole no love can fill
and i tear up here cause i love you still
but im tired of being your for now and not forever
what is it i dont have that marks me as the one
i still am so hurt raw and sore
jagged bladeed toungue slithers with liews
woven so intricately even a spider would be jealous
ive given you to god now i realize you gotta save
yourself cause im scarcely saving myself
just remember when again you...
ill never forgive you
it cant be undone
you broke my heart
completely shattered is my heart
you tore a hole no love can fill
and i tear up here cause i love you still
but im tired of being your for now and not forever
what is it i dont have that marks me as the one
i still am so hurt raw and sore
jagged bladeed toungue slithers with liews
woven so intricately even a spider would be jealous
ive given you to god now i realize you gotta save
yourself cause im scarcely saving myself
just remember when again you...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
20th Aug 2013 10:21pm
20th Aug 2013 10:21pm
the long winding road
holding on in stasis to the past
why cant things and people that feel right
ever fucking last they are weak minded
i am strong willed hard headed
destined for nothing and no where really
i miss the laughter and the fun
when winter come i miss the sun
im cold inside deadened by harsh realities
if we could just survive the hard times
cause when theyre good theyre very good
but i never think what i should
but my gut never lies thats what we say
well my gut says youre my forever
no matter how bad it hurts
but my conscious mind
says...
why cant things and people that feel right
ever fucking last they are weak minded
i am strong willed hard headed
destined for nothing and no where really
i miss the laughter and the fun
when winter come i miss the sun
im cold inside deadened by harsh realities
if we could just survive the hard times
cause when theyre good theyre very good
but i never think what i should
but my gut never lies thats what we say
well my gut says youre my forever
no matter how bad it hurts
but my conscious mind
says...
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LOVE POEM
Published
14th Aug 2013 2:54am
14th Aug 2013 2:54am
forget me nots are forgotten
without you is heaven
if heaven is hell
i cant believe how much you lie
you think shits funny
but im not jokeing
life hurts and you are
the most hurtful part
i cant stop hurting and
im tired of trying
i have nothing in life
and i thought you were something
my head is splitting
and i keep forgeting
that you could care less
im sick of pain
and yet here i am again
you must find it funny
comical as hell when i cry
my eyes bloodshot all the time
you break my heart
trying not to claim me
treating me as an...
if heaven is hell
i cant believe how much you lie
you think shits funny
but im not jokeing
life hurts and you are
the most hurtful part
i cant stop hurting and
im tired of trying
i have nothing in life
and i thought you were something
my head is splitting
and i keep forgeting
that you could care less
im sick of pain
and yet here i am again
you must find it funny
comical as hell when i cry
my eyes bloodshot all the time
you break my heart
trying not to claim me
treating me as an...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
11th Aug 2013 2:18am
11th Aug 2013 2:18am
misery love poems
i tried to think i miss you
convincing me not too give up
then i see nothing in you
but a craving for the game
not a thug life a drug life
a not give a fuck about me
or yourself how could i have
been blinded by your light
you were my halleluiah
why it looks like this was your goal
even in your abcenses ive seen my self
manipulated with what you used
to get my trust rooted in my heart
until that day at vomit house
when my misery imploded
flying hot shards of shratnal
cutting my heart into
a million peices all destroyed
a...
convincing me not too give up
then i see nothing in you
but a craving for the game
not a thug life a drug life
a not give a fuck about me
or yourself how could i have
been blinded by your light
you were my halleluiah
why it looks like this was your goal
even in your abcenses ive seen my self
manipulated with what you used
to get my trust rooted in my heart
until that day at vomit house
when my misery imploded
flying hot shards of shratnal
cutting my heart into
a million peices all destroyed
a...
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LOVE POEM
Published
10th Aug 2013 12:23pm
10th Aug 2013 12:23pm
LESSONS LEARNED THE HARDEST WAY
ALL THIS BULLSHIT I PUT MYSELF THROUGH
NOBODY BUT ME IS TO BLAME I RUIN AND KILL
ANYONE WHO COULD LOVE ME I PUSH AND PUSH
AGAINST THAT LOVE UNTIL I KNOCK A HOLE IN
THIS PRESCIOUS BARRIER UNCONDITIONAL
EXCEPT IF IM EMOTIONAL OR IF I CANT ABIDE
ALL THE BULLSHIT YOU PRETENDED NOW CANT HIDE
SO NO QUESTIONS ATLEAST NO ANSWERS MORE
I GAVE UNTIL I WAS EMPTY NOW I DEPEND ON YOU
FOR MY WELL IM SICK AS FUCK
DESPERATE TO ACT CASUAL YOU WANT TO ACT LIKE WE NEVER
WERE AT ALL THATS WHAT BAFFLES MY MIND
I HAVE HAD MY DAYS BUT YOU PLAGUE MY NIGHTS
TRYING...
NOBODY BUT ME IS TO BLAME I RUIN AND KILL
ANYONE WHO COULD LOVE ME I PUSH AND PUSH
AGAINST THAT LOVE UNTIL I KNOCK A HOLE IN
THIS PRESCIOUS BARRIER UNCONDITIONAL
EXCEPT IF IM EMOTIONAL OR IF I CANT ABIDE
ALL THE BULLSHIT YOU PRETENDED NOW CANT HIDE
SO NO QUESTIONS ATLEAST NO ANSWERS MORE
I GAVE UNTIL I WAS EMPTY NOW I DEPEND ON YOU
FOR MY WELL IM SICK AS FUCK
DESPERATE TO ACT CASUAL YOU WANT TO ACT LIKE WE NEVER
WERE AT ALL THATS WHAT BAFFLES MY MIND
I HAVE HAD MY DAYS BUT YOU PLAGUE MY NIGHTS
TRYING...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
23rd Jul 2013 4:45am
23rd Jul 2013 4:45am
remember me and you
i try i scream
i love i dream
i cry and i hope
hope your heart remembers
who i am i beg god
to watch you cause i cant
i try to be patient
i scream i love you
i cry because time seperates
all these moments that are ours
i love you like no other
ever could unconditional
i dream that were fine and whole
i wake and i cry cause the bed
hasnt been disturbed next to me
and i hope that one day your heart
will remind you that im waiting
for you to return get nastalgic
for warmth and love i pray my god keep you
because i find...
i love i dream
i cry and i hope
hope your heart remembers
who i am i beg god
to watch you cause i cant
i try to be patient
i scream i love you
i cry because time seperates
all these moments that are ours
i love you like no other
ever could unconditional
i dream that were fine and whole
i wake and i cry cause the bed
hasnt been disturbed next to me
and i hope that one day your heart
will remind you that im waiting
for you to return get nastalgic
for warmth and love i pray my god keep you
because i find...
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LOVE POEM
Published
19th Jul 2013 2:59am
19th Jul 2013 2:59am
on second thought
its never too late to begin to care
but some people cant share anything
nothing real just the shallow surface
hurting isnt the worst of it
i feel so thats good sometimes
i long for the emotional flattening
so common with my mental disease
but it would be worse to have yours
a scociopath no feeling except yours
what a sad exsistence my friend
to never know sencerity to never feel anothers
warmth except when enclosed in their body
how shallow an exsistence you must find
relationship less than melancholy
does it all feel sad and...
but some people cant share anything
nothing real just the shallow surface
hurting isnt the worst of it
i feel so thats good sometimes
i long for the emotional flattening
so common with my mental disease
but it would be worse to have yours
a scociopath no feeling except yours
what a sad exsistence my friend
to never know sencerity to never feel anothers
warmth except when enclosed in their body
how shallow an exsistence you must find
relationship less than melancholy
does it all feel sad and...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
14th Jul 2013 2:25pm
14th Jul 2013 2:25pm
golden ring
the tenderness of opiateded bliss
comforted by your presence
the soft ragged breatheing beside me
i lay awake my head nestled in your arms
this is my place of favorites
it is the wholest ive felt in so long
i feel our bond strengthen
a ring of gold too strong
unbreakable ive gone and
fallen in love with you again
your smile sets my heart on fire
and your warmth beside me
there is no better place id wish to stay
i could pass many hours wasted here
in perfected togetherness
no arguement no screaming fights
just quiet peaceful...
comforted by your presence
the soft ragged breatheing beside me
i lay awake my head nestled in your arms
this is my place of favorites
it is the wholest ive felt in so long
i feel our bond strengthen
a ring of gold too strong
unbreakable ive gone and
fallen in love with you again
your smile sets my heart on fire
and your warmth beside me
there is no better place id wish to stay
i could pass many hours wasted here
in perfected togetherness
no arguement no screaming fights
just quiet peaceful...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
13th Jul 2013 7:13pm
13th Jul 2013 7:13pm
when i come knocking
i guess ill always let you in
never wont let you through the door
to my heart or to my home
ive loved you forever it seems
i said as long as you know me
theres always a place for you
one beside me with me wherever i go
just in case you didnt know
i guess you had to test that today
i always wanna say no turn you away
but i cant say no to you
i am weak for amber eyed babies
trapped in grown mans skin and clothes
ill always be home to you now nomatter what
and if thats all weve got than well say its alot
convincing ourselves thats...
never wont let you through the door
to my heart or to my home
ive loved you forever it seems
i said as long as you know me
theres always a place for you
one beside me with me wherever i go
just in case you didnt know
i guess you had to test that today
i always wanna say no turn you away
but i cant say no to you
i am weak for amber eyed babies
trapped in grown mans skin and clothes
ill always be home to you now nomatter what
and if thats all weve got than well say its alot
convincing ourselves thats...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
8th Jul 2013 2:05pm
8th Jul 2013 2:05pm
just friends
you are so close in the darkness i feel you
i hear you breathe heavily beside me
i know you want it as bad as i do
but were friends what should we do
roll over and kiss me grab me by the hair
when i protest say you dont care
im hungary for you and you for me
but in the light of day clearly i see
so as i get up and run away
i glance over my shoulder
but laying there still you stay
too scared to know if the outcome
will be another friend lost to me
i want to feel your body crush mine
i want to dance in and out of time
but i dont...
i hear you breathe heavily beside me
i know you want it as bad as i do
but were friends what should we do
roll over and kiss me grab me by the hair
when i protest say you dont care
im hungary for you and you for me
but in the light of day clearly i see
so as i get up and run away
i glance over my shoulder
but laying there still you stay
too scared to know if the outcome
will be another friend lost to me
i want to feel your body crush mine
i want to dance in and out of time
but i dont...
726 reads
2 Comments
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