Submissions by diablia363 (Alisha Ranstrom)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
diablia363 aka alisha I've been to nowhere and everywhere at same time ,I've felt so lost and silent. Until someone gave me deep underground on which to purge my thoughts spewing them from the depths of my mind..laying them out for others like me to find.
SELF POEM
Published
26th Jul 2015 9:29pm
26th Jul 2015 9:29pm
Unwanted
Alone in a crowd
to quiet to be loud
stuck in my own mind
a prisoner I am i find
kept under lock and key
no one to speak to that could help
I'm forever mistaken
in my choices
wanted and wanting change but fear
keeps me here
locked in my self inflicted
prison I'm fuckkin screaming
God Damn it I must be dreaming
but alas it's real ,
nothing left to feel besides trapped
cornered and feeling like
I'm hunted a caged wild thing
my growth stunted
a complete mess unwanted
to quiet to be loud
stuck in my own mind
a prisoner I am i find
kept under lock and key
no one to speak to that could help
I'm forever mistaken
in my choices
wanted and wanting change but fear
keeps me here
locked in my self inflicted
prison I'm fuckkin screaming
God Damn it I must be dreaming
but alas it's real ,
nothing left to feel besides trapped
cornered and feeling like
I'm hunted a caged wild thing
my growth stunted
a complete mess unwanted
552 reads
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
13th Jul 2015 10:12am
13th Jul 2015 10:12am
That you would forget
Time ticks by life carries on
a chance gone to memories
only remembered dreams of you
us a ghost is it even true
I missed my chance or so it would seem
maybe I'll see you some other time
what can i say dare I say anything
I whisper to you my sleepy time lover
sweet abandon love's first kiss only a
springtime fairytail all desires
wishes hopes and prayers
all left to a list of what ifs
and maybe what could've been
even dare I say what should have been
a kindred spirit a sweet nothing
whispered...my love's
heart hear my call...
a chance gone to memories
only remembered dreams of you
us a ghost is it even true
I missed my chance or so it would seem
maybe I'll see you some other time
what can i say dare I say anything
I whisper to you my sleepy time lover
sweet abandon love's first kiss only a
springtime fairytail all desires
wishes hopes and prayers
all left to a list of what ifs
and maybe what could've been
even dare I say what should have been
a kindred spirit a sweet nothing
whispered...my love's
heart hear my call...
545 reads
1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
9th Mar 2015 3:04pm
9th Mar 2015 3:04pm
wolf in sheep's clothing
Oh my woeful little Heep's
Prancing through life my little wolves dressed as sheep
Out to cut down emos that weep
Ash my loveless little minions easily we hide
All dressed up in pride
We care not for anyone but ourselves but truth be told we dont even love ourselves
We dine on emotionally destitute
For our soulless shells that mirror our true loves pain
So that we may borrow from that well with disdain.
We laugh at all the hearts we break tallying up the broken little innocent hearts like points in a game
If I try really hard I can even remember one...
Prancing through life my little wolves dressed as sheep
Out to cut down emos that weep
Ash my loveless little minions easily we hide
All dressed up in pride
We care not for anyone but ourselves but truth be told we dont even love ourselves
We dine on emotionally destitute
For our soulless shells that mirror our true loves pain
So that we may borrow from that well with disdain.
We laugh at all the hearts we break tallying up the broken little innocent hearts like points in a game
If I try really hard I can even remember one...
825 reads
9 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
9th Mar 2015 11:34am
9th Mar 2015 11:34am
you and your little dogs too
I see our future in your eyes
I hope that it isn't a reflection of my vision
From the dreaming subconscious
I've said that I love you
When I truly believed I'd never love again
Or for that matter even try again
Being that the pain I sustained from my last relationship cut me so deep
It made a gapeing hole in my chest where my heart used to be and I really believed that no love could ever be that would or could heal it but
I saw something so beautiful and different in your face your dimpled smile and your shy masculine grace you were real honest and sweet you...
I hope that it isn't a reflection of my vision
From the dreaming subconscious
I've said that I love you
When I truly believed I'd never love again
Or for that matter even try again
Being that the pain I sustained from my last relationship cut me so deep
It made a gapeing hole in my chest where my heart used to be and I really believed that no love could ever be that would or could heal it but
I saw something so beautiful and different in your face your dimpled smile and your shy masculine grace you were real honest and sweet you...
690 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
13th Jan 2015 5:06am
13th Jan 2015 5:06am
every step
Learning to smile
When all I wanna do is cry
I feel defeated learning to walk
Incomplete spinal injury
After anger and disbelief
As I'm struggling I pray
I cry out please god
Where's my soldier
The inner strength
I preach to warrior :-) :-) stance
But I barely stand without
Loseing my balance
Wobbling like an infant
My mind sharp as a tack
But all it takes is to look
In an honest mirror to see
All I lack I work out
Everyday mind body
spirit I'm intending
To overcome to triumph
In this story gods plan for me...
When all I wanna do is cry
I feel defeated learning to walk
Incomplete spinal injury
After anger and disbelief
As I'm struggling I pray
I cry out please god
Where's my soldier
The inner strength
I preach to warrior :-) :-) stance
But I barely stand without
Loseing my balance
Wobbling like an infant
My mind sharp as a tack
But all it takes is to look
In an honest mirror to see
All I lack I work out
Everyday mind body
spirit I'm intending
To overcome to triumph
In this story gods plan for me...
868 reads
3 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
15th Nov 2014 1:46am
15th Nov 2014 1:46am
just for this sEcond
How is it that I'm here
Broken twisted torn
I have weakness
Again I'm finding humble born
Trying to just take baby steps
Not reliving the trauma that got me here
All the drug use and opiates kept.
The pain at bay withdrawals 21 days detox
I have to cypher this pain that dibilitates
And try to not to use its hard for me
The pain tends to make me weak
So far I'm at 37 days clean
I've been off opiates
and the steps begin to make a staircase
To heaven or to an escalator to hell
I am trying to establish myself again
I am new...
Broken twisted torn
I have weakness
Again I'm finding humble born
Trying to just take baby steps
Not reliving the trauma that got me here
All the drug use and opiates kept.
The pain at bay withdrawals 21 days detox
I have to cypher this pain that dibilitates
And try to not to use its hard for me
The pain tends to make me weak
So far I'm at 37 days clean
I've been off opiates
and the steps begin to make a staircase
To heaven or to an escalator to hell
I am trying to establish myself again
I am new...
716 reads
7 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
28th Sep 2014 8:50pm
28th Sep 2014 8:50pm
never again
cant understand just why
your so eager to believe
in a lie i cant believe shaking i cry
you were down i stayed loyal and good
taking care of my man as i should
best and with everything i could
but only two weeks and your gone
i waited faithfully for a year and a half
just at the end to be given the shaft
i cant believe after all ive done
you were never the one
you have yet again played me for a fool
yeah go brag it up it makes you cool
all these temporary people
your so fond of i hope yourwarm at night cause i am
i lay down with...
your so eager to believe
in a lie i cant believe shaking i cry
you were down i stayed loyal and good
taking care of my man as i should
best and with everything i could
but only two weeks and your gone
i waited faithfully for a year and a half
just at the end to be given the shaft
i cant believe after all ive done
you were never the one
you have yet again played me for a fool
yeah go brag it up it makes you cool
all these temporary people
your so fond of i hope yourwarm at night cause i am
i lay down with...
652 reads
2 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
8th Jul 2014 6:52am
8th Jul 2014 6:52am
warriors
I am alone but not lonely
I'm seeking others like me
Ones trying to do something more
I feel a vibration and a pull
much larger than myself
But myself and others like me are feeling it too
Like being called to consciencness
We are freeing from our binds of
radically unrestfull sleep
Running A muck
dazed and confused
Slipping in and out as I choose
I know this world labels me crazed
So my peers wont hear their birthrightful
Invitations to ascension
I'm sorry for this call you hear in your soul
On a purely amazinglight heal...
I'm seeking others like me
Ones trying to do something more
I feel a vibration and a pull
much larger than myself
But myself and others like me are feeling it too
Like being called to consciencness
We are freeing from our binds of
radically unrestfull sleep
Running A muck
dazed and confused
Slipping in and out as I choose
I know this world labels me crazed
So my peers wont hear their birthrightful
Invitations to ascension
I'm sorry for this call you hear in your soul
On a purely amazinglight heal...
752 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
26th Jun 2014 11:18am
26th Jun 2014 11:18am
the ugliest side of me
today you showed me you are the same
just better at manipulating me
seeing clearly through your open eyes
you think im still a fool
you use me today even act so cool
you pretend ..you wanna see me
but i defend you, you believe me
my mind verbally dismantled my self esteem
all because i thought you were my dream
you hurt me so bad why do you not love me
why cant i ever be good enough
i dont like to act too cool to care. too tough
to feel anything real too afraid to commit
too smart to forget try to be too high
above all this love ,,the...
just better at manipulating me
seeing clearly through your open eyes
you think im still a fool
you use me today even act so cool
you pretend ..you wanna see me
but i defend you, you believe me
my mind verbally dismantled my self esteem
all because i thought you were my dream
you hurt me so bad why do you not love me
why cant i ever be good enough
i dont like to act too cool to care. too tough
to feel anything real too afraid to commit
too smart to forget try to be too high
above all this love ,,the...
785 reads
6 Comments
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