Submissions by deathheadforlife (demon of mercy)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
once a man of hatred now a seeker of peace. may mercy reach those who deserve it
SELF POEM
Published
26th Feb 2016 4:05pm
26th Feb 2016 4:05pm
bleeding hearts
I was born with cuts on my heart
and unending emotions bleeding out of
them
I ask for help to close the wounds
but every day it tears more
slowly becoming hollow
people have tried to sew my wounds
but with each one fixed a new one bleeds
and my emotions become my downfall
I can't hide them no matter how much I try
I give my love to someone else
and don't know when to stop
they sew more closed
but they keep putting more cuts
my heart is my weakness
covered in stitches
but no matter what I do
it never stops bleeding
and unending emotions bleeding out of
them
I ask for help to close the wounds
but every day it tears more
slowly becoming hollow
people have tried to sew my wounds
but with each one fixed a new one bleeds
and my emotions become my downfall
I can't hide them no matter how much I try
I give my love to someone else
and don't know when to stop
they sew more closed
but they keep putting more cuts
my heart is my weakness
covered in stitches
but no matter what I do
it never stops bleeding
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Feb 2016 4:45pm
23rd Feb 2016 4:45pm
hidden pain
i used to feel joy
back when i wasn't alone
when i wasn't lost in the dark
but all of that has changed
i keep a fake smile on
because i never stop hurting
my pain isn't from abuse
but from being forgotten
all i can do is disappear
people talk to me
they get to know me
they enjoy the moment
then forget about me
act as if i was never there
i see people who feel love
get accepted like others
and it hurts me
more than any blade...
i keep my pain to myself
how can anyone accept me
how can anyone love me
they look...
back when i wasn't alone
when i wasn't lost in the dark
but all of that has changed
i keep a fake smile on
because i never stop hurting
my pain isn't from abuse
but from being forgotten
all i can do is disappear
people talk to me
they get to know me
they enjoy the moment
then forget about me
act as if i was never there
i see people who feel love
get accepted like others
and it hurts me
more than any blade...
i keep my pain to myself
how can anyone accept me
how can anyone love me
they look...
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LOVE POEM
Published
19th Feb 2016 8:59pm
19th Feb 2016 8:59pm
sideline
as each day passes
i feel like i lost someone
someone i love
but this battle
i coule never win…
i was meant to lose
it's my fate to lose
how could i ever win
all i am is left alone
i'm ignored
i look at her drift away
and return to the shadows
return to how i used to be
a broken person
a hollow man
a bystander
i gave it my all
only to be thrown away
i fought with everything
but i am doomed to fail
i just watch and vanish
no matter what i say
all i can do is watch from the sidelines
while this blade...
i feel like i lost someone
someone i love
but this battle
i coule never win…
i was meant to lose
it's my fate to lose
how could i ever win
all i am is left alone
i'm ignored
i look at her drift away
and return to the shadows
return to how i used to be
a broken person
a hollow man
a bystander
i gave it my all
only to be thrown away
i fought with everything
but i am doomed to fail
i just watch and vanish
no matter what i say
all i can do is watch from the sidelines
while this blade...
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SELF POEM
Published
18th Feb 2016 8:38pm
18th Feb 2016 8:38pm
guilt
i may be looked at as a killer
a blood thirsty monster
but i have a heart
i have a conscience
all they do is bring me down
they make me the wreck that i am
and fall prey to his wrath
the guilt i feel
is his weapon
to my destruction
“look at you
you confess to someone
and you feel bad for it
you spill out your feelings
and there's no consideration
you can't even ask her
and little hesitation to say no
your alone in this life
why not just vanish”
his worlds of evil
the evil...
a blood thirsty monster
but i have a heart
i have a conscience
all they do is bring me down
they make me the wreck that i am
and fall prey to his wrath
the guilt i feel
is his weapon
to my destruction
“look at you
you confess to someone
and you feel bad for it
you spill out your feelings
and there's no consideration
you can't even ask her
and little hesitation to say no
your alone in this life
why not just vanish”
his worlds of evil
the evil...
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LOVE POEM
Published
17th Feb 2016 4:44pm
17th Feb 2016 4:44pm
heartbreak
every year i live this day in agony
and hide my pain from the world
pain i can never get rid of
the pain of my glass heart
easily cracked and shattered
but still i hope can be repaired
i thought it would remain strong
but all it did was fall apart
and leave me empty
all i can do is remember
remember the hurt
remember the pain
remember the loss
because it's all I've got left
and this glass embedded in me
glass that used to be whole
now left in pieces
bleeding my emotions
i gave my emotions to another
but these shards...
and hide my pain from the world
pain i can never get rid of
the pain of my glass heart
easily cracked and shattered
but still i hope can be repaired
i thought it would remain strong
but all it did was fall apart
and leave me empty
all i can do is remember
remember the hurt
remember the pain
remember the loss
because it's all I've got left
and this glass embedded in me
glass that used to be whole
now left in pieces
bleeding my emotions
i gave my emotions to another
but these shards...
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DARK POEM
Published
12th Feb 2016 1:53pm
12th Feb 2016 1:53pm
broken neck
even after how much I cared
all I got was forgotten
and reminded why I stay hollow
with all my happiness taken
and the sorrow I never forgot
all I have is this neuse
and a final message
a message that can never be heard
even through every tears
and every yell in misery
all I can do is fall
waiting for the rope to suspend me
and everything to go dark
slowly fading away
every memory disappearing
but nobody can hear my neck snap
and see my body shake
all I am is meant to disappear
and be left in my shadows...
all I got was forgotten
and reminded why I stay hollow
with all my happiness taken
and the sorrow I never forgot
all I have is this neuse
and a final message
a message that can never be heard
even through every tears
and every yell in misery
all I can do is fall
waiting for the rope to suspend me
and everything to go dark
slowly fading away
every memory disappearing
but nobody can hear my neck snap
and see my body shake
all I am is meant to disappear
and be left in my shadows...
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Feb 2016 8:26pm
10th Feb 2016 8:26pm
the inner killer
no matter where i am
who i see
i can't help it
i picture them dying
brutally and painfully
seeing myself
with that evil smile
and the bloody knife
how could i stop it
or do i want to
it feels like it's not me
but that face is clear as day
it's the face of my other side
the monster i keep hidden
one half of blank person
the beast i hold away
but i can't be rid of him
one cannot exist without the other
but were in a constant battle
to erase him is to erase myself
and to say he isn't real
it says i don't exist...
who i see
i can't help it
i picture them dying
brutally and painfully
seeing myself
with that evil smile
and the bloody knife
how could i stop it
or do i want to
it feels like it's not me
but that face is clear as day
it's the face of my other side
the monster i keep hidden
one half of blank person
the beast i hold away
but i can't be rid of him
one cannot exist without the other
but were in a constant battle
to erase him is to erase myself
and to say he isn't real
it says i don't exist...
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SELF POEM
Published
8th Feb 2016 7:18pm
8th Feb 2016 7:18pm
the voices
i hate turning my music off
it's the only way i can silence them
i don't know how much more i can take
it gets worse every day
they never stop screaming at me
“how can you do anything right”
“as if you could feel love”
“you couldn't even pull the trigger”
“you're just another problem”
more and more i breakdown
and i beg for it to end
nobody else hears it
but i wish i could stop listening
“you're pathetic”
“you're useless”
“you couldn't even die the right way”
more and more i become a burden
and nobody believes me
they...
it's the only way i can silence them
i don't know how much more i can take
it gets worse every day
they never stop screaming at me
“how can you do anything right”
“as if you could feel love”
“you couldn't even pull the trigger”
“you're just another problem”
more and more i breakdown
and i beg for it to end
nobody else hears it
but i wish i could stop listening
“you're pathetic”
“you're useless”
“you couldn't even die the right way”
more and more i become a burden
and nobody believes me
they...
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LOVE POEM
Published
8th Feb 2016 4:24am
8th Feb 2016 4:24am
alone in the dark
i had a love
one i was ready to fight for
one i was ready to die for
but i was losing the battle
i could feel it every day
im losing her to another
the smile when she saw him
it was genuine
but when she saw me
her eyes went dead
as if me being there was a curse
but i couldn't help but love her
i wanted my deepest feelings to reach her
but they were never acknowledged
my heart still won't stop aching
each beat is another moment in agony
but no matter what i say
all i am is forgotten
she was kind to me ...
one i was ready to fight for
one i was ready to die for
but i was losing the battle
i could feel it every day
im losing her to another
the smile when she saw him
it was genuine
but when she saw me
her eyes went dead
as if me being there was a curse
but i couldn't help but love her
i wanted my deepest feelings to reach her
but they were never acknowledged
my heart still won't stop aching
each beat is another moment in agony
but no matter what i say
all i am is forgotten
she was kind to me ...
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Feb 2016 8:27pm
2nd Feb 2016 8:27pm
the heartless man
his life was only one way
twisted and demented
his words are meaningless
and there was a word unknown to him
bound by something he doesn't have
a love he has never known
and a heart he can never have
how many faces have left him in pain
how many people will abandon him
any promises of friendship and love
ended in blood and anger
and left as a shallow grave
his grave is full of regret
with a word so cruel
and so cold
a word supposed to save him
but left him to die
how can he says he feels love
when his cuts bleed out his...
twisted and demented
his words are meaningless
and there was a word unknown to him
bound by something he doesn't have
a love he has never known
and a heart he can never have
how many faces have left him in pain
how many people will abandon him
any promises of friendship and love
ended in blood and anger
and left as a shallow grave
his grave is full of regret
with a word so cruel
and so cold
a word supposed to save him
but left him to die
how can he says he feels love
when his cuts bleed out his...
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Jan 2016 4:55pm
27th Jan 2016 4:55pm
Forgiveness
Every person i've wronged
and all the pain i've bought
most say they forgive me
but i can never forgive myself
for every mistake i made it haunts me
for everyone ive hurt i add bruises to myself
let my scars be my reminder
and my words never be heard
the words of my guilt
how can i ever forgive myself
al i do is cause others to hurt
my forgiveness is this nuse
even in death i won't forgive myself
i don't deserve forgiveness
all i deserve in pain
i ask everyone this
why forgive someone like me?
and all the pain i've bought
most say they forgive me
but i can never forgive myself
for every mistake i made it haunts me
for everyone ive hurt i add bruises to myself
let my scars be my reminder
and my words never be heard
the words of my guilt
how can i ever forgive myself
al i do is cause others to hurt
my forgiveness is this nuse
even in death i won't forgive myself
i don't deserve forgiveness
all i deserve in pain
i ask everyone this
why forgive someone like me?
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Jan 2016 4:51pm
27th Jan 2016 4:51pm
vanish
with every passing breath i take
and every time i feel hollow
i slowly fade into nothing
i watch my body break to pieces
and try to say my final words
but every word is blank
and each breath is wasted
and my existence has no meaning
i am merely a bystander
i can do nothing to change it
i only live to disappear
nothing else...
ill spend days looking for a purpose
but there's nothing for someone like me
many like my know the feeling
like all you do is vanish….
and every time i feel hollow
i slowly fade into nothing
i watch my body break to pieces
and try to say my final words
but every word is blank
and each breath is wasted
and my existence has no meaning
i am merely a bystander
i can do nothing to change it
i only live to disappear
nothing else...
ill spend days looking for a purpose
but there's nothing for someone like me
many like my know the feeling
like all you do is vanish….
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