Submissions by crisstub (Cristin Stubbs)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
9th Jun 2012 4:51pm
9th Jun 2012 4:51pm
Find your Light
I will not continue to lie
May I seize to pretend
Not only are these tears from eyes
Preventing me to transcend
My fake smile
That I plaster on my face
Stretches to a mile
My walk unbalanced, no longer with grace
I’m sick of my continuous loathsome state
Dried up like a raisin in the sun
Tired of this heart filled with hate
Ready to embrace life’s warm conversation
So I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
And I fear no evil
Exploring truth in the depths
Of my soul waiting to reveal
Opening my...
May I seize to pretend
Not only are these tears from eyes
Preventing me to transcend
My fake smile
That I plaster on my face
Stretches to a mile
My walk unbalanced, no longer with grace
I’m sick of my continuous loathsome state
Dried up like a raisin in the sun
Tired of this heart filled with hate
Ready to embrace life’s warm conversation
So I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
And I fear no evil
Exploring truth in the depths
Of my soul waiting to reveal
Opening my...
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DARK POEM
Published
26th Mar 2012 4:05am
26th Mar 2012 4:05am
The Bridge
My comic relief is insanity
That’s the only release or it’s the death of me
Hysteria chilled in a bottle
The theory is what I call the Unbalanced Model
It’s a natural chemical reaction between survival and insecurity
A defense mechanism when bridges crumble- Insanity
Maniacal laughter when face to face with adversity
It continues to stab and break me
Yet I continue to laugh
Satan’s hand I grasp
As he whispers lies into my ears
I head his word- fears
Yet I laugh- tears
As the end of the black spiral nears
Feed me no more pain
Deceive...
That’s the only release or it’s the death of me
Hysteria chilled in a bottle
The theory is what I call the Unbalanced Model
It’s a natural chemical reaction between survival and insecurity
A defense mechanism when bridges crumble- Insanity
Maniacal laughter when face to face with adversity
It continues to stab and break me
Yet I continue to laugh
Satan’s hand I grasp
As he whispers lies into my ears
I head his word- fears
Yet I laugh- tears
As the end of the black spiral nears
Feed me no more pain
Deceive...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
28th Nov 2011 4:24am
28th Nov 2011 4:24am
Overcome my Brittle Bones
Unfortunately this task is a daily chore
Bending to sit on toilet bowl joints soar
Son helping father stand
Mind fast and wanting but body won't tend
Glistening eyes of need
For the life I once lived still jolting inside me
Bodily strength lessens, taking with it my desire
And replacing it with fear and desperate fire
Each day life drains from me
Dependent on those who were once mine to put to sleep
Living is a undesirable task
Simply because my mind disagrees with my body, that's a fact
Physical...
Bending to sit on toilet bowl joints soar
Son helping father stand
Mind fast and wanting but body won't tend
Glistening eyes of need
For the life I once lived still jolting inside me
Bodily strength lessens, taking with it my desire
And replacing it with fear and desperate fire
Each day life drains from me
Dependent on those who were once mine to put to sleep
Living is a undesirable task
Simply because my mind disagrees with my body, that's a fact
Physical...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
14th Nov 2011 1:17am
14th Nov 2011 1:17am
Aching
My brains willing to explode
Hoping for a gushing overload
Relief from the stressors I hold
And the swiveling quills I sold
Hoping for a gushing overload
Relief from the stressors I hold
And the swiveling quills I sold
730 reads
DRUGS POEM
Published
27th Sep 2011 9:03pm
27th Sep 2011 9:03pm
Drunk writing
This is the worst state I could ever imagine being in
Drunk and helpless
Who can help me in this state
My favorite artist sooths me as I wale over the complications of my life
I can’t let go of all that I have held in
Drunken sailor I sit and wish I had more
More support more than just myself
I can barely type these words
How pathetic
I used to think so highly of myself
Now I am barely hangin on sippin on bourbon
Texting everyone I know who has ever cheered me up in the past
I am running out of options
I wanna drink till I pass out
Or...
Drunk and helpless
Who can help me in this state
My favorite artist sooths me as I wale over the complications of my life
I can’t let go of all that I have held in
Drunken sailor I sit and wish I had more
More support more than just myself
I can barely type these words
How pathetic
I used to think so highly of myself
Now I am barely hangin on sippin on bourbon
Texting everyone I know who has ever cheered me up in the past
I am running out of options
I wanna drink till I pass out
Or...
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ANGER POEM
Published
27th Sep 2011 9:02pm
27th Sep 2011 9:02pm
Nobody understands
I hope you know I was being and ass hole
Rack ya skull dumb fuck while I school you on a broken soul
When I say im ok yea duh im lying
If you know it then help me stop this crying
I’m lonely yet you claim you’re there for me
Then show it cuz when you don’t the result is you freeze me
I close up shut tight don’t touch me
Won’t say a word and pretend I don’t see
I can’t see, the obstacles before me
Frightening, yet you’re nowhere when I scream
When I wail at night bottle in my right hand
I just wish one fuckin idiot would understand
The pain is...
Rack ya skull dumb fuck while I school you on a broken soul
When I say im ok yea duh im lying
If you know it then help me stop this crying
I’m lonely yet you claim you’re there for me
Then show it cuz when you don’t the result is you freeze me
I close up shut tight don’t touch me
Won’t say a word and pretend I don’t see
I can’t see, the obstacles before me
Frightening, yet you’re nowhere when I scream
When I wail at night bottle in my right hand
I just wish one fuckin idiot would understand
The pain is...
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Aug 2011 3:52pm
2nd Aug 2011 3:52pm
how thoughts wonder
I’m shaking heart breaking immortal sin
No explanations for the plight I’m in
Does God forsake me for the truth I bend?
Or does He forgive me for the test I’m failing in
Judge me not fellow men for my selfish inclinations
I’ve tried drowning out the flame but it ignites my sensations
On one knee I bow to those who resist temptations
Must the future hold such mystery, gaping holes imperfections
The what if and possibly override my mind
Am I blinded or seeing for the first time
I no longer rely on my suspected rationalities to show me the right...
No explanations for the plight I’m in
Does God forsake me for the truth I bend?
Or does He forgive me for the test I’m failing in
Judge me not fellow men for my selfish inclinations
I’ve tried drowning out the flame but it ignites my sensations
On one knee I bow to those who resist temptations
Must the future hold such mystery, gaping holes imperfections
The what if and possibly override my mind
Am I blinded or seeing for the first time
I no longer rely on my suspected rationalities to show me the right...
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ANGER POEM
Published
17th Apr 2011 6:19pm
17th Apr 2011 6:19pm
Thin ice
Yep you rightThin iceI love yo buttBut you fucked up My trust for you is dwindlinNo sparks for the kindlin I love you butIm tired of takin hits n shitAnd you have the nerve to be distant?!I fucked up too But its no way near compared to what you do I stick around for what? Shit probably so I won't turn into a slutHere I am trying hard for this relationship And you love sailing this ship But you get to see into heart Yet you won't even let me startLet me pick your brainI won't knock yo caneI'l be your crutch But you hiding shit is a bit much I have to hear from others about your dishonety When...
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ANGER POEM
Published
10th Mar 2011 5:33pm
10th Mar 2011 5:33pm
Open Flesh Wounds
There is a burn that yearns to be released
Your urge pushes that burn forward
So close to being released
You ache for misery
You must...
The sting of your whip
Drives agony throughout my body
My flesh wounds cry for sympathy
Know this lover
The more you torment me
The closer I get to resentment
I will burn you!
That is a guarantee
Manevolance excites me
Schemes drive me
I love getting cake
And especially eating it
So I beg you keep pushing
Add another scar
I Dare You
Your urge pushes that burn forward
So close to being released
You ache for misery
You must...
The sting of your whip
Drives agony throughout my body
My flesh wounds cry for sympathy
Know this lover
The more you torment me
The closer I get to resentment
I will burn you!
That is a guarantee
Manevolance excites me
Schemes drive me
I love getting cake
And especially eating it
So I beg you keep pushing
Add another scar
I Dare You
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Mar 2011 1:28am
7th Mar 2011 1:28am
Shribbled Reflection
Wearing away is my integrity
My decency disintegrating each step
I walk this path
Losing pieces of my virtue
The ground crumbles as I walk
Leaving dirt and grime
Where I once stood
As a proud and respectable figure
Beautiful and understanding
What do others see?
For when I latch onto
The eyes of my reflection
I see someone shribbled
Caught up in what makes her less
Why can't she fight it
Like the strong woman sh once was
Now deceiving
Not only herself but others
Others who care so much about her
She allows...
My decency disintegrating each step
I walk this path
Losing pieces of my virtue
The ground crumbles as I walk
Leaving dirt and grime
Where I once stood
As a proud and respectable figure
Beautiful and understanding
What do others see?
For when I latch onto
The eyes of my reflection
I see someone shribbled
Caught up in what makes her less
Why can't she fight it
Like the strong woman sh once was
Now deceiving
Not only herself but others
Others who care so much about her
She allows...
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DARK POEM
Published
7th Mar 2011 1:05am
7th Mar 2011 1:05am
Goddess of Hell
I feel likeair
Transparent but still needed to breathe
View me as smoke
Vapor, spores or leftover steam
No one looks me in the eyes
Touch me I'm real, if you prick me I'll bleed
Stab me in the heart
Swear to you my soul will be set free
Read between the lines
I'm not fully dead
My heart still beats with emotion
Forget what I said
I scream and I shout
But still end up alone in my bed
I'm dying as I'm still trying to live
Steady crying, regardless of the lies that I'm fed
Leave it up to me
To quote, "make things...
Transparent but still needed to breathe
View me as smoke
Vapor, spores or leftover steam
No one looks me in the eyes
Touch me I'm real, if you prick me I'll bleed
Stab me in the heart
Swear to you my soul will be set free
Read between the lines
I'm not fully dead
My heart still beats with emotion
Forget what I said
I scream and I shout
But still end up alone in my bed
I'm dying as I'm still trying to live
Steady crying, regardless of the lies that I'm fed
Leave it up to me
To quote, "make things...
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