Submissions by abby-curry (bleeding heart)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
ANGER POEM
Published
4th Apr 2012 3:10am
4th Apr 2012 3:10am
i wish i could find her
Im sorry you cant find her,
the one your looking for.
Shes buried down deep inside,
Shes forever no more.
I hid her so good,
that she got stuck.
Never to return again.
People think they can save me,
and turn my life around.
Well think again!!!!!!
Ill kill myself before I ever let her go.
Im not ever goin to let her get hurt again.
Shes pure goodness,
couldnt ever harm anyone...
but they harmed her.
After that she was damaged so I hid her from the world,
so she would never be hurt again.
All her bad qualties...
the one your looking for.
Shes buried down deep inside,
Shes forever no more.
I hid her so good,
that she got stuck.
Never to return again.
People think they can save me,
and turn my life around.
Well think again!!!!!!
Ill kill myself before I ever let her go.
Im not ever goin to let her get hurt again.
Shes pure goodness,
couldnt ever harm anyone...
but they harmed her.
After that she was damaged so I hid her from the world,
so she would never be hurt again.
All her bad qualties...
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SELF POEM
Published
18th Feb 2012 6:40pm
18th Feb 2012 6:40pm
me myself and I
I wont talk to you.
If you dont talk to me,
thats the way I want it to be.
Me myself and I,
thats all I need to survive.
Other people just cause pain and anger,
something I have to much of inside.
My personalty keeps me,
from being the person I want to be.
Im a lonley sick indivaudual.
All I do is hurt the people that care.
I hurt them so much,
that theyre never there.
when I need them.
All I want is for them,
to not get mad at me.
When someone sets me off.
Man I just need to talk.
I walk with my head held...
If you dont talk to me,
thats the way I want it to be.
Me myself and I,
thats all I need to survive.
Other people just cause pain and anger,
something I have to much of inside.
My personalty keeps me,
from being the person I want to be.
Im a lonley sick indivaudual.
All I do is hurt the people that care.
I hurt them so much,
that theyre never there.
when I need them.
All I want is for them,
to not get mad at me.
When someone sets me off.
Man I just need to talk.
I walk with my head held...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
18th Feb 2012 6:21pm
18th Feb 2012 6:21pm
mary jane
I love her.
She feels so sweet.
She drives me crazy.
If I didnt have mary jane,
I would wanna be shot like kurt cobain.
I can be myself with her.
She makes me feel alive and free.
All I need is mary jane,
to evaporate the rain and get rid of the pain.
She makes me live on,
not regreting a day.
I hit her hard.
I breath her in softley and hold my breath.
I breath her out slowley,
makeing sure to savor every drop.
I crumble her softley,
roll her up tight.
Lick the tip.
Burn her down,
and live my fucking...
She feels so sweet.
She drives me crazy.
If I didnt have mary jane,
I would wanna be shot like kurt cobain.
I can be myself with her.
She makes me feel alive and free.
All I need is mary jane,
to evaporate the rain and get rid of the pain.
She makes me live on,
not regreting a day.
I hit her hard.
I breath her in softley and hold my breath.
I breath her out slowley,
makeing sure to savor every drop.
I crumble her softley,
roll her up tight.
Lick the tip.
Burn her down,
and live my fucking...
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ANGER POEM
Published
11th Feb 2012 4:57pm
11th Feb 2012 4:57pm
Insanty struck me hard
I wish I could die.
I just feel so alone inside.
Sending me away was suppose to fix me,
but I think you just killed my only chance.
Ill never feel happy again.
You sent me away from my family and freinds.
You made me leave the only people that kept me sane.
Im so filled with anger and hurt,
Im ready to burst.
Anytime,Anywhere,On anyone
Someone could piss me off,
and it would be the last day they fucking saw.
The pain is inert,
It makes it hurt so much worse.
I have no one.
No one to talk to.
No one to vent my anger too....
I just feel so alone inside.
Sending me away was suppose to fix me,
but I think you just killed my only chance.
Ill never feel happy again.
You sent me away from my family and freinds.
You made me leave the only people that kept me sane.
Im so filled with anger and hurt,
Im ready to burst.
Anytime,Anywhere,On anyone
Someone could piss me off,
and it would be the last day they fucking saw.
The pain is inert,
It makes it hurt so much worse.
I have no one.
No one to talk to.
No one to vent my anger too....
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Feb 2012 4:27pm
11th Feb 2012 4:27pm
pointless
Its a dailey struggle to keep myself sane.
I cant deal with all this hurt and pain.
I feel like everytime I step in a room,
all eyes are on me.
Telling me who I need to be.
I've never been a quiter,
dont get me wrong.
Damn im not this strong.
I cant stand myself.
Im always second geussing myself.
All these people try to box me in.
I just need some oxgen.
I dont want to be sheltered,
or have to hide my head under the covers.
Everytime I try and go to sleep,
I see you on top of me.
I want to be free of these chains,
and...
I cant deal with all this hurt and pain.
I feel like everytime I step in a room,
all eyes are on me.
Telling me who I need to be.
I've never been a quiter,
dont get me wrong.
Damn im not this strong.
I cant stand myself.
Im always second geussing myself.
All these people try to box me in.
I just need some oxgen.
I dont want to be sheltered,
or have to hide my head under the covers.
Everytime I try and go to sleep,
I see you on top of me.
I want to be free of these chains,
and...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
10th Jan 2012 9:47pm
10th Jan 2012 9:47pm
Following in your footsteps mom
Mom I love you.
You know I do,
but theres some things I need to get out.
When I saw you smokeing meth,
I lost all respect for you.
You would get high and hit me,
but I forgave you for the things you did.
The past is the past,
but when you tell me now.
Abby I know you seen things,
I didnt want you too see.
Oh like what mom?
Your boyfreind rapeing an beating me?
You know what mom love is a funny thing.
You seem to want too destroy the one,
You say you love the most.
how does that work?
You tell me this shit will...
You know I do,
but theres some things I need to get out.
When I saw you smokeing meth,
I lost all respect for you.
You would get high and hit me,
but I forgave you for the things you did.
The past is the past,
but when you tell me now.
Abby I know you seen things,
I didnt want you too see.
Oh like what mom?
Your boyfreind rapeing an beating me?
You know what mom love is a funny thing.
You seem to want too destroy the one,
You say you love the most.
how does that work?
You tell me this shit will...
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SELF POEM
Published
28th Nov 2011 00:25am
28th Nov 2011 00:25am
sweet release
I hurt inside the pain conflicts me.
I'm surrounded by the nothingness of my soul.
It speaks not words but growles,
wanting to release some of the pain,
the anger.
I just need to cry or die,
but I have to much pride.
My heart is shriveled and worn up inside.
I need to bleed out and release some of the tension.
My skin crawles with anguish and answers.
Should I leave today?
Drain my soul from my body and be free and just walk away,
or live in this eternal hell they call life.
one slip of the knife.
Thats all it...
I'm surrounded by the nothingness of my soul.
It speaks not words but growles,
wanting to release some of the pain,
the anger.
I just need to cry or die,
but I have to much pride.
My heart is shriveled and worn up inside.
I need to bleed out and release some of the tension.
My skin crawles with anguish and answers.
Should I leave today?
Drain my soul from my body and be free and just walk away,
or live in this eternal hell they call life.
one slip of the knife.
Thats all it...
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ANGER POEM
Published
28th Sep 2011 00:19am
28th Sep 2011 00:19am
yeah I made the change
I needed to make the change.
I changed it.
It changed me.
Now im someone I dont want to be.
Im a diffrent person.
Im sad and filled with anger.
The tears fill were laughter use to be.
Tears will never fill the void thats my heart.
30 days clean..
Is all this pain worth it?
It makes the pain grow stronger everyday.
I grow weaker.
Untill I fall into a darknes.
That i cant find my way out of.
My mind stays in a fog.
Before you judge me.
Ask yourself is this someone you want to be?
When I cant even stand...
I changed it.
It changed me.
Now im someone I dont want to be.
Im a diffrent person.
Im sad and filled with anger.
The tears fill were laughter use to be.
Tears will never fill the void thats my heart.
30 days clean..
Is all this pain worth it?
It makes the pain grow stronger everyday.
I grow weaker.
Untill I fall into a darknes.
That i cant find my way out of.
My mind stays in a fog.
Before you judge me.
Ask yourself is this someone you want to be?
When I cant even stand...
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DARK POEM
Published
20th Sep 2011 2:39am
20th Sep 2011 2:39am
You think you know me
I feel like im alone in the universe.
I'm cold and I dont care.
No one takes the time to ask me whats on my mind.
I need to unwind.
Smoke a dime.
To get this shit off my mind.
Sweet and innocent thats sure me.
Wait untill you find me hitting up in your bathroom,
then what will you think of me.
Insecurity thats me now.
Just struggling surviveing.
I promise I will perservere.
Its hard sometimes to relize my mistakes.
Trying to find out who i want to be.
This dont give a fuck act,
is just not me.
I wish someone would...
I'm cold and I dont care.
No one takes the time to ask me whats on my mind.
I need to unwind.
Smoke a dime.
To get this shit off my mind.
Sweet and innocent thats sure me.
Wait untill you find me hitting up in your bathroom,
then what will you think of me.
Insecurity thats me now.
Just struggling surviveing.
I promise I will perservere.
Its hard sometimes to relize my mistakes.
Trying to find out who i want to be.
This dont give a fuck act,
is just not me.
I wish someone would...
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LOVE POEM
Published
15th Sep 2011 10:11pm
15th Sep 2011 10:11pm
I want you!
I can't controle my afflictions.
So baby dont mind my addictions.
Pleaze look deep inside of me.
I hope you will find the real me.
I'm glad you dont mind.
If you cant figure me out.
Promise me you wont leave me behind,
even if takes you days and days.
Im sorry my mind is in a haze.
Baby stick with me.
I'll do anything to feel your needs.
I'll quit poppin pills and smoking weed.
I'll do anything for you to stay with me.
Your the one ive been searching for,
the one ive needed.
To come save me and to be my super man, ...
So baby dont mind my addictions.
Pleaze look deep inside of me.
I hope you will find the real me.
I'm glad you dont mind.
If you cant figure me out.
Promise me you wont leave me behind,
even if takes you days and days.
Im sorry my mind is in a haze.
Baby stick with me.
I'll do anything to feel your needs.
I'll quit poppin pills and smoking weed.
I'll do anything for you to stay with me.
Your the one ive been searching for,
the one ive needed.
To come save me and to be my super man, ...
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ANGER POEM
Published
10th Sep 2011 3:31pm
10th Sep 2011 3:31pm
Realizing shit doesnt always make you stronger!
I feel like i'm stuck in my mind.
I just hope the world wont leave me behind.
man I just need to unwind.
I've got to find myself,
because to live no longer means im alive.
These fucking walls must be talking becuase man I can hear them.
There saying yeah abby take another pill
God everyone knows you will.
You fake ass bitch,
ain't nothing about you real.
Then I start scream damn and I pop it.
booom! There I go of the wall agian,
is this fucking real or am I dreaming.
Someone help me!
My thoughts are dark.
My mind is...
I just hope the world wont leave me behind.
man I just need to unwind.
I've got to find myself,
because to live no longer means im alive.
These fucking walls must be talking becuase man I can hear them.
There saying yeah abby take another pill
God everyone knows you will.
You fake ass bitch,
ain't nothing about you real.
Then I start scream damn and I pop it.
booom! There I go of the wall agian,
is this fucking real or am I dreaming.
Someone help me!
My thoughts are dark.
My mind is...
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SELF POEM
Published
5th Sep 2011 9:30pm
5th Sep 2011 9:30pm
Drifting by
My life feels like a movie.
I'm not controlling it.
Just watching my path,
from the outside looking in.
I'm so lost.
Who am I?
How do I find myself?
I hit that point agian,
the point were life just doesn't feel like liveing.
My bodys reeling for me to do something.
My mind says no,
but my heart just says go.
It's not a specific directoin just those two letters,
that answer should be easy.
It's just confusing.
Were do I go?
What do I know?
I need to jump of a bridge,
and maybe the experience of death will...
I'm not controlling it.
Just watching my path,
from the outside looking in.
I'm so lost.
Who am I?
How do I find myself?
I hit that point agian,
the point were life just doesn't feel like liveing.
My bodys reeling for me to do something.
My mind says no,
but my heart just says go.
It's not a specific directoin just those two letters,
that answer should be easy.
It's just confusing.
Were do I go?
What do I know?
I need to jump of a bridge,
and maybe the experience of death will...
664 reads
2 Comments
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