Submissions by XlovelessX

I curled up into a small tight ball. I knew I was alone. No one would even be home for another few hours. Curled up, I looked around the room from my corner. I hated being alone more then I hated anything since the day he had left me dieing inside... I let out a sharp breath, but not nearly as sharp as the pain that had caused it. Soon, I was crying painfully loud.
I sat there for hours crying and wishing I would just die. I never would be able to understand why I didn't just kill myself. All my pain would be releaved... My heart would no more feel the burning desire to be truely loved....

I stepped from the shadows, longing to embrace my love. As i took the first step twards him, he stiffened and looked up from his studies. His gaze captured me and locked me in my place. It had been so many years since the last night we had spent together...
The memory shook my soul and my being. All the hurt of his words and the sound of his desperate vioce pooled into my mind. I couldn't hold myself anymore... As i began to fall to my knees, still stareing into his sparkling eyes, strong arms caught me and held me tightly... He was remembering to.
I could feel how much his own...

I got a secret that no body knows,
Crashing down on me,
Pressing me up against the wall.
I fall to my knees,
Begging you please...
Ooops! Not another plea,
Now im gonna bleed...
Cover it all up,
Gotta keep my secret safe meanwhile it heals.
You wonder but you dont ask,
I smile but i dont laugh,
My secret remains,
Your lies stay hidden through these days.

Knives peirce metal,
Tobacco fulfills the left over wound,
Lips meet metal,
Fire explodes,
It burns...
Blow lightly,
Suck it all in,
Suck all the pain in.
Smoke erupts,
Feel better,
Feel calm.
I smoke this from the pipe of life after you,
I smoke my pain away,
I smoke this one for you.
I smoke away my last bit of life,
All thanks to you.