Submissions by UnknownToHumanity
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
In My HEAD.
SELF POEM
Published
11th Jan 2023 7:18pm
11th Jan 2023 7:18pm
Move Forward
I want to feel the pain in my heart, on my flesh,
I want to know that the scars can be real on this outer body of mine.
am I insane or just too fucking depressed.
coming close to the happy life,
and yet i'm reminded of how i'm not worthy of one.
what have i done? mistakes only led by the past.
move forward, i say.
but my mind tells me that there should just be an end.
so I recycle each accomplishment.
and now i feel like i am no where.
my mind tricks me into thinking i am deserving.
but it also tricks me into thinking i am...
I want to know that the scars can be real on this outer body of mine.
am I insane or just too fucking depressed.
coming close to the happy life,
and yet i'm reminded of how i'm not worthy of one.
what have i done? mistakes only led by the past.
move forward, i say.
but my mind tells me that there should just be an end.
so I recycle each accomplishment.
and now i feel like i am no where.
my mind tricks me into thinking i am deserving.
but it also tricks me into thinking i am...
#sadness
#depression
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
22nd Jun 2021 9:17pm
22nd Jun 2021 9:17pm
Faith
The days used to feel so long,
Waking up to never knowing what was wrong.
Many times I thought it was the past that would have me replay the same sad song.
When in reality it was the devil trying to get ahold of my soul.
Making me feel like I was worthless like everything bad that would happen was just my purpose.
I would sit and cry thinking that’s all I was ever going to do for the rest of my life.
Until I saw the light in the tunnel of my dream.
He had finally spoken to me.
“You’ve been going through the same lope in this roller coaster darling,...
Waking up to never knowing what was wrong.
Many times I thought it was the past that would have me replay the same sad song.
When in reality it was the devil trying to get ahold of my soul.
Making me feel like I was worthless like everything bad that would happen was just my purpose.
I would sit and cry thinking that’s all I was ever going to do for the rest of my life.
Until I saw the light in the tunnel of my dream.
He had finally spoken to me.
“You’ve been going through the same lope in this roller coaster darling,...
#religion
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DRUGS POEM
Published
3rd Mar 2021 00:16am
3rd Mar 2021 00:16am
Another conversation
I've had this conversation before...
A concerned mother talking to the new lover of her son,
"Do you know?"
A question I hate to answer,
"Of course, I know,"
The mother looks at me with guilt for creating this man that will most likely hurt me,
But all she could say is..
"Maybe you're the lucky one"
I know it hurts for her to say because she should've been his lucky one.
We are jumping to conclusions at this point,
5 seconds of faith is better than none.
My last response is...
"I'll talk to him again"
Because the...
A concerned mother talking to the new lover of her son,
"Do you know?"
A question I hate to answer,
"Of course, I know,"
The mother looks at me with guilt for creating this man that will most likely hurt me,
But all she could say is..
"Maybe you're the lucky one"
I know it hurts for her to say because she should've been his lucky one.
We are jumping to conclusions at this point,
5 seconds of faith is better than none.
My last response is...
"I'll talk to him again"
Because the...
#love
#drugs
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LOVE POEM
Published
4th Aug 2020 3:36pm
4th Aug 2020 3:36pm
I'm Sorry..
Tired of this bullshit,
Tired of not being able to do shit,
I'm tired of looking into my brothers eyes and seeing straight pureness.
Clean your fucken ears and listen to what the fuck everyones saying,
your time is ticking,
You won't always be lucky with keeping your kids..
I wish I can just step in without having to argue in front of him.
I wish I can go back in time and tell you to not have this kid.
As much as a blessing he is.. he's taring me apart.
I'm 21 years old I wanted to live my life instead of having to worry about my mothers kid. ...
Tired of not being able to do shit,
I'm tired of looking into my brothers eyes and seeing straight pureness.
Clean your fucken ears and listen to what the fuck everyones saying,
your time is ticking,
You won't always be lucky with keeping your kids..
I wish I can just step in without having to argue in front of him.
I wish I can go back in time and tell you to not have this kid.
As much as a blessing he is.. he's taring me apart.
I'm 21 years old I wanted to live my life instead of having to worry about my mothers kid. ...
#brother
#family
#hurt
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LOVE POEM
Published
31st Jan 2020 11:54am
31st Jan 2020 11:54am
Tell me why you want me to fall in love again.
We just want you to be happy Vada"
Something I hate hearing.
You think that someones love is going to bring me joy?
You think that ones company will change everything?
You are WRONG.
I can give you my all,
I can find someone within 3 seconds.
I am beautiful,
But I am damaged.
You think that when I find this "person" those nightmares will go away?
No, They never will.
I'll kiss them and remember the haunting memory of the man that kissed me before bedtime and left me for another.
Came back in the morning and lied about being faithful....
Something I hate hearing.
You think that someones love is going to bring me joy?
You think that ones company will change everything?
You are WRONG.
I can give you my all,
I can find someone within 3 seconds.
I am beautiful,
But I am damaged.
You think that when I find this "person" those nightmares will go away?
No, They never will.
I'll kiss them and remember the haunting memory of the man that kissed me before bedtime and left me for another.
Came back in the morning and lied about being faithful....
#heartbroken
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LOVE POEM
Published
30th Jan 2020 8:54am
30th Jan 2020 8:54am
Please Don't Make Me fall In Love Again.
I'm afraid,
Afraid of being in love.
When I was in love I gave them my all,
Like when I carried and bathed the man I loved because he had no strength to get up,
Like the time I stood by the door begging for my lover not to leave for his drug,
I let him choke me and hurt me and still I stood up so he wouldn't leave.
Like the time I gave my next lover my all,
I was broken and damaged,
I let him feel my body, I let him inside because I thought we were in love.
Like the time I stopped talking to my friend and family because she said that would prove...
Afraid of being in love.
When I was in love I gave them my all,
Like when I carried and bathed the man I loved because he had no strength to get up,
Like the time I stood by the door begging for my lover not to leave for his drug,
I let him choke me and hurt me and still I stood up so he wouldn't leave.
Like the time I gave my next lover my all,
I was broken and damaged,
I let him feel my body, I let him inside because I thought we were in love.
Like the time I stopped talking to my friend and family because she said that would prove...
#love
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STORY POEM
Published
30th Jan 2020 8:24am
30th Jan 2020 8:24am
Nineteen
Nineteen,
I was nineteen.
You were the friend of my lover,
You were the sober one with the kids and family.
You were supposed to be the normal one.
You invited us to a barbecue,
You offered steaks at your place,
You said your family would be there.
As soon as that front door closed and you came back to the house with me by myself I should have known not to trust you,
shouldn't have taken that ride to your house to wait for my lover to get there.
Because when I walked into the rv parked outside your house my body was...
I was nineteen.
You were the friend of my lover,
You were the sober one with the kids and family.
You were supposed to be the normal one.
You invited us to a barbecue,
You offered steaks at your place,
You said your family would be there.
As soon as that front door closed and you came back to the house with me by myself I should have known not to trust you,
shouldn't have taken that ride to your house to wait for my lover to get there.
Because when I walked into the rv parked outside your house my body was...
#heartbroken
#abuse
#LifeStruggles
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Jan 2020 4:00am
14th Jan 2020 4:00am
I'm a whore
I'm a whore,
I'm a girl whose been destroyed.
breaking hearts like if they were a slippery cup filled with water.
I'm sorry to my past and future lovers,
I'm someone whom I don't want to be,
I feel nothing for you,
I just want to be there until you fall in love.
it used to bother me but now it seems like a lifestyle.
meeting mothers is like making a black cup of coffee in the morning,
it's a routine to me.
My past is no excuse but i'd say it influenced me.
saying you're the only one and sending nudes is just another part-time job for...
I'm a girl whose been destroyed.
breaking hearts like if they were a slippery cup filled with water.
I'm sorry to my past and future lovers,
I'm someone whom I don't want to be,
I feel nothing for you,
I just want to be there until you fall in love.
it used to bother me but now it seems like a lifestyle.
meeting mothers is like making a black cup of coffee in the morning,
it's a routine to me.
My past is no excuse but i'd say it influenced me.
saying you're the only one and sending nudes is just another part-time job for...
#SelfReflection
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LOVE POEM
Published
24th Oct 2019 10:18am
24th Oct 2019 10:18am
Goodnight sweetie
We dated for nearly two weeks,
You held my hand and swept me off my feet,
you were sweet and I felt like you loved me for me.
I learned how to treat the wombs that would hurt me underneath.
We didn't last... I still think of us everyday of the week.
You loved another and didn't say a thing.
it's okay because you helped me become the greatest person I can ever be.
i'll miss the origami space ships you taught me how to make,
and screaming to track four on your favorite strokes cd.
Thank you for all those nights you had spent with me, ...
You held my hand and swept me off my feet,
you were sweet and I felt like you loved me for me.
I learned how to treat the wombs that would hurt me underneath.
We didn't last... I still think of us everyday of the week.
You loved another and didn't say a thing.
it's okay because you helped me become the greatest person I can ever be.
i'll miss the origami space ships you taught me how to make,
and screaming to track four on your favorite strokes cd.
Thank you for all those nights you had spent with me, ...
#love
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
19th Jul 2019 9:00am
19th Jul 2019 9:00am
I am the....
I am the bullet that one uses to kill another,
The man who pulls the trigger puts me in the position to kill,
I'm innocent till i'm set loose to ruin another.
I am the tire that flattens on the road,
No one pays attention till they can no longer drive to their destination,
you fill me up then go on till I have no more air once again.
I am the water that one drinks,
they pick me up when they have thirst,
then forget I was even there.
I am the girl one has abused,
I loved them till I saw no use,
they say it's my fault but now they are the...
The man who pulls the trigger puts me in the position to kill,
I'm innocent till i'm set loose to ruin another.
I am the tire that flattens on the road,
No one pays attention till they can no longer drive to their destination,
you fill me up then go on till I have no more air once again.
I am the water that one drinks,
they pick me up when they have thirst,
then forget I was even there.
I am the girl one has abused,
I loved them till I saw no use,
they say it's my fault but now they are the...
#abuse
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ANGER POEM
Published
4th Feb 2019 00:17am
4th Feb 2019 00:17am
Scum bag
I didn't want to believe,
believe that you would damage me again.
believe that you would cheat,
as if i didn't give you enough.
I tried,
I tried to make you see the love i gave was the real thing.
Wanting to marry you was our dream,
or was it mine?
I know it was probably my fault,
I blamed you from the very start of it,
we got back together but i was left with the past pain you presented to me,
I was so stupid to fall back.
An abortion you forced on me should have been enough to leave,
Why is it that i fell back? ...
believe that you would damage me again.
believe that you would cheat,
as if i didn't give you enough.
I tried,
I tried to make you see the love i gave was the real thing.
Wanting to marry you was our dream,
or was it mine?
I know it was probably my fault,
I blamed you from the very start of it,
we got back together but i was left with the past pain you presented to me,
I was so stupid to fall back.
An abortion you forced on me should have been enough to leave,
Why is it that i fell back? ...
#betrayal
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
2nd Feb 2019 10:26pm
2nd Feb 2019 10:26pm
The clock is ticking.
The sound of the water drips drive me insane,
every drop makes me worry,
where is my life going?
should i always believe that love is always the way out of things,
i've lived with my lovers since i was 16,
moving out of a foster home that mistreated me,
but every relationship has been the same,
was it better to live with a pervert than someone who uses me?
I do as you need to feel the love i never received.
Molestation and rape was a horror film for me,
as i grew older there was more,
no one believed,
except for me. ...
every drop makes me worry,
where is my life going?
should i always believe that love is always the way out of things,
i've lived with my lovers since i was 16,
moving out of a foster home that mistreated me,
but every relationship has been the same,
was it better to live with a pervert than someone who uses me?
I do as you need to feel the love i never received.
Molestation and rape was a horror film for me,
as i grew older there was more,
no one believed,
except for me. ...
#love
#loneliness
#abuse
#suicide
#drugs
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