Submissions by TarishaE

My chest is hurting
My palms are sweaty
My mind is racing
and my heart feels heavy.
My stomach is churning
My legs are twitching
I know this feeling all too well
I've got a case of addicts itching.

I spoon-fed my monster
until it grew bigger than me
Now it follows my every step
even watches me in my sleep.
I'm afraid to be alone
it likes to lurk in the shadows
it sneak attacks me from behind
and rapes me 'til I bellow.

Composure on the surface
a nuclear explosion in my head.
My soul is up for purchase
emotionally I'm dead.
Lost with no direction.
Stressed beyond my means.
Striving for perfection
that's unattainable it seems.

I sit here staring at you
as if i know you best.
Taunting you with misconceptions
that never let you rest.
I am your constant companion
an invasion of your privacy.
I disgust your better judgement
and still you sell yourself to me.
You rationalize and bargain with me
while you forget to feel.
You make me your business partner
and mask any emotion once real.
You've lost your grip on the reigns
while we've been fooling around.
Your cyclical behavior
forever has you bound.