Submissions by StillisinInk

swore to myself
I won't fall for your pleadings
will ignore you when you cry for help
leave you there all alone
just how you did to me
but one glance at you
and my heart yearns to help you
even if it means
breaking myself again allover
you knew it,didn't you?
I cant leave you suffering
to fix pieces of me

so here i am again
going in circles
you hurt me
I fix you
My brain begs for mercy
my heart wishes for your well being
you knew it,didn't you?
I cant leave you suffering
to fix pieces...

Through the dumped imposition of expectation,
we stare at each other.
No words needed to slip into each other’s minds.
Is it finally getting us?
Maybe the Herculean Task wasn’t a good idea.

All those promises and wishes I made
to keep you safe —
shattering in front of my eyes.
And even after giving my best,
it’s futile.

Why is there no freedom for us,
if that’s the only thing we want?
Should I give in?
Will you give in?
Fight, flight, fallen —
I see no end.

Do you have some hope left?
I...

To my old self,
I apologize for turning out this way.
You held high hopes for the future —
I crushed them down,
all in vain.
one by one,
broke the promises we made,
lost your essence,
realized it too late.
Will I disappoint you,
if I became the adult we hated?

In moments of loneliness and despair,
I wish you were here,
to heal the wounds
with your love and care.
I tried to be
what we wished for,
but nothing ever seemed to work.
I brought more trouble.

I asked you to leave,
just to...