Submissions by SickSanityJenn (Esoteric)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
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This is a poem I made from a collaboration that was very short.... I'll show what they sent me prior to not being a member anymore, then I'll show what I ended up doing with it on my own...
"So, I've planted my freak flag here,
Let the cat out of the bag here,
All my scars ever revealed,
Is how far I am from healed,
Chained by a straightjacket fear.
And I've listened to their pleas,
To let go and drop to my knees,
Heard how I must be confused, ...
#sadness
383 reads
7 Comments
Another unfinished piece
#emptiness
215 reads
4 Comments
Oops, sorry! Thought I felt something other than boredom
I've been so long without you
Though I still feel the pain
My heart is scarred over
Forever engraved with your name
You hated all my friends
Forsaken all for your company
Sit ready at your command
Just to suffer all your misery
You ate up all my kindness
Desecrated all my dreams
Poked holes in every memory
Always pushed me to extremes
Now I'm sad and I'm hurting
I should be past this already
But I'm fucked up and high
And I'm thinking of you, quietly
I'm thinking of your wretchedness ...
Though I still feel the pain
My heart is scarred over
Forever engraved with your name
You hated all my friends
Forsaken all for your company
Sit ready at your command
Just to suffer all your misery
You ate up all my kindness
Desecrated all my dreams
Poked holes in every memory
Always pushed me to extremes
Now I'm sad and I'm hurting
I should be past this already
But I'm fucked up and high
And I'm thinking of you, quietly
I'm thinking of your wretchedness ...
#emotional
277 reads
3 Comments
Shame on me, a fool for you
You took my heart from me
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm wasting away
I can't sleep through the night
Oh, you sucked the joy out of me
When you said goodbye
You told me you loved me
Then baby, you did me wrong
First you say it's meant to be
Then you start singing a different song
Now, you have me wrapped up in agony
But you're already gone
Why must you hurt me?
Oh and toy with my mind?
What do you gain from my misery?
Is this all part of your design?
Come now boy, tell me your story ...
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm wasting away
I can't sleep through the night
Oh, you sucked the joy out of me
When you said goodbye
You told me you loved me
Then baby, you did me wrong
First you say it's meant to be
Then you start singing a different song
Now, you have me wrapped up in agony
But you're already gone
Why must you hurt me?
Oh and toy with my mind?
What do you gain from my misery?
Is this all part of your design?
Come now boy, tell me your story ...
#love
#breakup
#despair
333 reads
3 Comments
Red Flags Dressed up as Bows
Tear me away from all of this commotion
My heart is threatening to burst inside
You're holding all of my attention
Though, I'm fighting with my mind
Or maybe it's with my heart
I'm standing here wondering what should I do
All these feelings I can barely tell apart
I'm always running back to you
I'm folding in around the edges
Desire racks my self in two
I've held this match so long, my heart is ashes
Though, hot coals still burn for you
Don't breath or they might fade out
Or catch fire and burn me within
I've held my...
My heart is threatening to burst inside
You're holding all of my attention
Though, I'm fighting with my mind
Or maybe it's with my heart
I'm standing here wondering what should I do
All these feelings I can barely tell apart
I'm always running back to you
I'm folding in around the edges
Desire racks my self in two
I've held this match so long, my heart is ashes
Though, hot coals still burn for you
Don't breath or they might fade out
Or catch fire and burn me within
I've held my...
#love
#choices
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3 Comments
Hope the cancer eats you whole
I was always there for you
Anything you could ever need
Over backwards, I'd bend in two
Nothing was impossible for me
You have never returned the favor
Twisting feelings, breaking my heart
This one sided friendship I've fostered
It's about time I tore it apart
Fuck you for always hurting me
Fuck you for stealing my sanity
Fuck you for making me love you
Fuck you for all that you'd never do
You took my generous heart and squeezed
Time and money, you've taken a lot
I was so sure that you would help me
I hit...
Anything you could ever need
Over backwards, I'd bend in two
Nothing was impossible for me
You have never returned the favor
Twisting feelings, breaking my heart
This one sided friendship I've fostered
It's about time I tore it apart
Fuck you for always hurting me
Fuck you for stealing my sanity
Fuck you for making me love you
Fuck you for all that you'd never do
You took my generous heart and squeezed
Time and money, you've taken a lot
I was so sure that you would help me
I hit...
#anger
#love
#hurt
306 reads
3 Comments
Super short.....
She likes it when he takes it on Tuesday
Bites her lip when she thinks of him softly
Has he noticed her petals ripening?
Spring feels like blushing and blossoming
Can he sense her yearning with every glance?
She would have kissed him if given a chance
Bites her lip when she thinks of him softly
Has he noticed her petals ripening?
Spring feels like blushing and blossoming
Can he sense her yearning with every glance?
She would have kissed him if given a chance
#lust
#crush
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Indecent
We play a dangerous game, my dear
Whisper your sins into my ear
Lust tickles at my finger tips
I want a taste, I want to slip
Glide your hand up my eager thigh
I shiver at thoughts of you inside
The words I know I cannot say
Oh, this dangerous game we play
My dear, my love, my fucking grace
Take me down into a dirty place
Let me taste the wild in your kiss
I don't want the hand I want the fist
We play a dangerous game, my dear
I am the monster we all fear
Whisper your sins into my ear
Lust tickles at my finger tips
I want a taste, I want to slip
Glide your hand up my eager thigh
I shiver at thoughts of you inside
The words I know I cannot say
Oh, this dangerous game we play
My dear, my love, my fucking grace
Take me down into a dirty place
Let me taste the wild in your kiss
I don't want the hand I want the fist
We play a dangerous game, my dear
I am the monster we all fear
#lust
#crush
529 reads
3 Comments
Me meh
My dreams are all washed out
The girl I was is a ghost now
What's left of me is falling apart
Ricochetting bullets are the beat of my heart
I'm a collection of acquired tastes
No significance, an utter waste
I'm screaming inside for the silence
My blank stare's begging for violence
There's nothing left to control
Look in my eyes, you won't see a soul
The girl I was is a ghost now
What's left of me is falling apart
Ricochetting bullets are the beat of my heart
I'm a collection of acquired tastes
No significance, an utter waste
I'm screaming inside for the silence
My blank stare's begging for violence
There's nothing left to control
Look in my eyes, you won't see a soul
#anxiety
#depression
330 reads
1 Comment
Honestly, just listening to too much rap
#sex
#dirty
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2 Comments
Garbage
Here I am, broken and ashamed
Lonely and a little insane
I'm left without the ability to say
You hurt me and I'm in pain
Oh, I just watched you go
Leaving me here on my own
With a heart made of stone
And the ache of being alone
Look what you've done to me
Got me bleeding internally
But you don't really care
Because You're not here
You said we would be together
For all our lives, forever
Then you slap me with reality
You never wanted to be with me
Lonely and a little insane
I'm left without the ability to say
You hurt me and I'm in pain
Oh, I just watched you go
Leaving me here on my own
With a heart made of stone
And the ache of being alone
Look what you've done to me
Got me bleeding internally
But you don't really care
Because You're not here
You said we would be together
For all our lives, forever
Then you slap me with reality
You never wanted to be with me
#love
#heartbroken
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1 Comment
Unfinished piece*
Everything is out of place
Wandering, lost for found
Misery settles on my face
There is no hope in this town
The weight of my mentality
Cuts deep into my soul
Disgust at my own depravity
Nobody can ever know
Hahaha, go the hinges of my sanity
Banging in the wind of my internal screams
Hahaha, claps the monster inside me
Itching to escape my nocturnal dreams
Wandering, lost for found
Misery settles on my face
There is no hope in this town
The weight of my mentality
Cuts deep into my soul
Disgust at my own depravity
Nobody can ever know
Hahaha, go the hinges of my sanity
Banging in the wind of my internal screams
Hahaha, claps the monster inside me
Itching to escape my nocturnal dreams
#depression
#bipolar
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1 Comment
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