Submissions by ScarletAshes
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I'm currently writing a story of sorts, to do with today's issues and to attempt a few stories within the story, not usually what I write, but the idea has been there for awhile now, so why not give it a shot! :) (as of 28-01-2017)
SELF POEM
Published
1st Nov 2011 1:56pm
1st Nov 2011 1:56pm
The Feeling Of Wanting To Cry
Six months
The time it has been since I last cut
Depression taking over once more
Affecting me so deep once again
So this is what it feels like
To hit lower than rock bottom
Unable to see the light
In this dark reality I live in
The feeling of being alone
is being felt constant
Anywhere I go, never anyone around
no matter how many people are around
Doomed to feel like this for the rest of my life
Not a soul in the world to care about mine
A feeling like this makes me wonder
Is it really worth going through all this for...
The time it has been since I last cut
Depression taking over once more
Affecting me so deep once again
So this is what it feels like
To hit lower than rock bottom
Unable to see the light
In this dark reality I live in
The feeling of being alone
is being felt constant
Anywhere I go, never anyone around
no matter how many people are around
Doomed to feel like this for the rest of my life
Not a soul in the world to care about mine
A feeling like this makes me wonder
Is it really worth going through all this for...
787 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
21st May 2011 3:05pm
21st May 2011 3:05pm
Waiting For Love
As I sit here
A pondering my brain goes
Images pop up in my thoughts
Always the same ones, though i can not complain
These images I see, day in day out
Make my heart beat that little bit faster
Make me cry tears of joy
And yet, tears of pain
These images are of the girl I like
A girl that means so much
To my soul, that is almost broken now
Almost broken to the point of giving up
Although I want to give up
My heart does not give in so easily
So instead it makes me suffer
Suffer... to a point of almost no return
...
A pondering my brain goes
Images pop up in my thoughts
Always the same ones, though i can not complain
These images I see, day in day out
Make my heart beat that little bit faster
Make me cry tears of joy
And yet, tears of pain
These images are of the girl I like
A girl that means so much
To my soul, that is almost broken now
Almost broken to the point of giving up
Although I want to give up
My heart does not give in so easily
So instead it makes me suffer
Suffer... to a point of almost no return
...
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3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
26th Apr 2011 5:33pm
26th Apr 2011 5:33pm
These Cuts (fixed)
For all the times of deep depression
A cut or more is what is left
All because there is no one to talk to
Not even my family i can talk to
Because they just won't understand
What makes it tougher is
That family is half he reason these cuts exist
When family pick on you because your different
There really is no where to turn to
Especially when your 'friends' don't care how you feel
I would be better if I just died
To teach them all a lesson
That someone's life is precious no matter what they do or what they look like
The only thing...
A cut or more is what is left
All because there is no one to talk to
Not even my family i can talk to
Because they just won't understand
What makes it tougher is
That family is half he reason these cuts exist
When family pick on you because your different
There really is no where to turn to
Especially when your 'friends' don't care how you feel
I would be better if I just died
To teach them all a lesson
That someone's life is precious no matter what they do or what they look like
The only thing...
934 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
13th Apr 2011 12:59pm
13th Apr 2011 12:59pm
An Unrequited Love
My love for one
One person on this Earth
Is a strong one
A strong one that will remain for a lifetime
I do not know if you feel the same
I really hope that you do
Even if it is a little bit
It would still count in my heart
I wonder a lot if you really know how I feel
I would tell you myself but I don't want to risk losing you as my friend
Not being able to tell you hurts
It hurts so much I'd rather kill myself than put up with the pain
The only thing stopping me
Is that I don't want to hurt any of my friends
Especially the...
One person on this Earth
Is a strong one
A strong one that will remain for a lifetime
I do not know if you feel the same
I really hope that you do
Even if it is a little bit
It would still count in my heart
I wonder a lot if you really know how I feel
I would tell you myself but I don't want to risk losing you as my friend
Not being able to tell you hurts
It hurts so much I'd rather kill myself than put up with the pain
The only thing stopping me
Is that I don't want to hurt any of my friends
Especially the...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
3rd Apr 2011 10:33am
3rd Apr 2011 10:33am
Clouds
The clouds, high above us
They break apart
They return together
Not having a care in the world
The clouds, white and fluffy
So pleasant in the blue sky above
Making all kinds of shapes and objects
Giving us fuel for our imaginations
The clouds, dark and stormy
They tell us its end of play time
To put our imaginations away
So we don't feel their wrath
They break apart
They return together
Not having a care in the world
The clouds, white and fluffy
So pleasant in the blue sky above
Making all kinds of shapes and objects
Giving us fuel for our imaginations
The clouds, dark and stormy
They tell us its end of play time
To put our imaginations away
So we don't feel their wrath
867 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
20th Mar 2011 11:21pm
20th Mar 2011 11:21pm
The Silence
As I sit here in the silence
I can not hear my thoughts clear
The noise is very loud loud, full of static
The silence for others, is not silence for me
The silence I sit in
The static getting louder and louder
The static now screaming in my mind
Its horrible sound driving me insane
The silence, now louder than ever
Starting to put thoughts into my head
Engraving its memory into my mind
A memory that continues to drive me insane
Never a silence in this mind of mine
The truth screaming to be let out
But it never gets the...
I can not hear my thoughts clear
The noise is very loud loud, full of static
The silence for others, is not silence for me
The silence I sit in
The static getting louder and louder
The static now screaming in my mind
Its horrible sound driving me insane
The silence, now louder than ever
Starting to put thoughts into my head
Engraving its memory into my mind
A memory that continues to drive me insane
Never a silence in this mind of mine
The truth screaming to be let out
But it never gets the...
948 reads
8 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
16th Mar 2011 2:19pm
16th Mar 2011 2:19pm
Writing This Poem...
The wanting of the blade
Is a strong feeling this time
Its one that almost takes all of me
So instead I write this poem
The blade I want
I want it to do no harm
As I just want everything to end
But instead I write this poem
Instead of living this dreadful life
I would rather bleed
Bleed until I can bleed no more
I find myself instead writing this poem
As I realise I'm writing this poem
I realise it keeps me alive
Something I'm not sure I want
So instead I bleed to death
Is a strong feeling this time
Its one that almost takes all of me
So instead I write this poem
The blade I want
I want it to do no harm
As I just want everything to end
But instead I write this poem
Instead of living this dreadful life
I would rather bleed
Bleed until I can bleed no more
I find myself instead writing this poem
As I realise I'm writing this poem
I realise it keeps me alive
Something I'm not sure I want
So instead I bleed to death
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SELF POEM
Published
15th Mar 2011 2:14pm
15th Mar 2011 2:14pm
Subsiding The Pain
As I sit here
Saying nothing
No one around
My heart in pain
I see an instrument
An instrument of destruction
I pick it up
It stares back at me
It puts me in a trance
I have no will of my own
I move it towards my arm
It tells me I am doing well
I press it against my skin
It tells me I am its best student
I stare back as it bathes in red
Still feeling the pain in my heart
It tells me it needs more
I move closer to my wrist
It tells me its a better spot
I do as I am told
It gets a shower of...
Saying nothing
No one around
My heart in pain
I see an instrument
An instrument of destruction
I pick it up
It stares back at me
It puts me in a trance
I have no will of my own
I move it towards my arm
It tells me I am doing well
I press it against my skin
It tells me I am its best student
I stare back as it bathes in red
Still feeling the pain in my heart
It tells me it needs more
I move closer to my wrist
It tells me its a better spot
I do as I am told
It gets a shower of...
766 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
9th Mar 2011 1:58pm
9th Mar 2011 1:58pm
Is it me? I think so...
Is it possible?
That maybe I have been wrong
All this time
Could it really be true?
I have fallen down
Fallen down hard this time
Finding it hard to get back on my feet
Is there anyone willing to give me a hand to get back up?
I am going to try my hardest
Try my hardest to listen to the truth
Because I don't want to fall again
It hurts too much to fall down...
That maybe I have been wrong
All this time
Could it really be true?
I have fallen down
Fallen down hard this time
Finding it hard to get back on my feet
Is there anyone willing to give me a hand to get back up?
I am going to try my hardest
Try my hardest to listen to the truth
Because I don't want to fall again
It hurts too much to fall down...
759 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
2nd Mar 2011 10:09am
2nd Mar 2011 10:09am
The Hate Of Me
Looking at the mirror
All I see is this disgusting piece of filth in it
I try to rub the filth off
And then I realise it is just me I see...
Walking down the street
Everyone staring at me like I'm some kind of monster
I try not to notice it
But all that happens is that I cry inside...
At the end of the street
I realise everyone wasn't looking at me
But looking right through me as though I wasn't there
Everyone not seeing the real me...
Sitting at home on the couch
Minding my own business listening to music or doing my homework...
All I see is this disgusting piece of filth in it
I try to rub the filth off
And then I realise it is just me I see...
Walking down the street
Everyone staring at me like I'm some kind of monster
I try not to notice it
But all that happens is that I cry inside...
At the end of the street
I realise everyone wasn't looking at me
But looking right through me as though I wasn't there
Everyone not seeing the real me...
Sitting at home on the couch
Minding my own business listening to music or doing my homework...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
2nd Feb 2011 2:21pm
2nd Feb 2011 2:21pm
Only Time Will Tell...
I can never seem to do anything right, perhaps deep down I don't want to feel the pain of a broken heart again
There is this one girl who means the world to me, who I love very much, the only problem is... that it isn't mutual, but yet we remain friends
Every night when I go to bed, this girl is the only thing on my mind, thus keeping me up until 3, sometimes 4 or even 5
Not knowing what to do, I try my chances with other girls, but something inside just wont give it 100%
Perhaps I am too shy, or just not confident enough, or I just don't know what I'm even...
There is this one girl who means the world to me, who I love very much, the only problem is... that it isn't mutual, but yet we remain friends
Every night when I go to bed, this girl is the only thing on my mind, thus keeping me up until 3, sometimes 4 or even 5
Not knowing what to do, I try my chances with other girls, but something inside just wont give it 100%
Perhaps I am too shy, or just not confident enough, or I just don't know what I'm even...
927 reads
2 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
2nd Feb 2011 2:20pm
2nd Feb 2011 2:20pm
A Struggle
I struggle to live my life, not being able to tell the one I love, how I feel about her
I talk to her everyday, hoping something amazing happens, but never does. I know I should give up my efforts on this girl... but though my head wants this, my heart does not want to give up.
I feel as if I do give up, I may lose a very valued friendship inside... and I don't want that to ever happen
Too much I find myself thinking about her...
Somehow, I need to train myself to stop thinking about her. If it ever happens I can start living a 'normal' life again... look...
I talk to her everyday, hoping something amazing happens, but never does. I know I should give up my efforts on this girl... but though my head wants this, my heart does not want to give up.
I feel as if I do give up, I may lose a very valued friendship inside... and I don't want that to ever happen
Too much I find myself thinking about her...
Somehow, I need to train myself to stop thinking about her. If it ever happens I can start living a 'normal' life again... look...
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