Submissions by Sad_Poet99 (E.Wesley)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
DARK POEM
Published
22nd Jan 2021 9:33am
22nd Jan 2021 9:33am
I'm Not Okay
Okay… I’m not okay
My mind won’t stop racing
My heartbeat won’t slow down
My tears won’t stop pouring
I feel like I’m going to drown
There’s too much going on
Inside of me and in the world
With my voice shaking
I’m begging and pleading
Everything… Please…
Just slow the fuck down
Let me take a breath
I feel like shutting down
I can’t deal with all of this
Not on my own
It’s all too much for me
I’m not okay… Okay?
My mind won’t stop racing
My heartbeat won’t slow down
My tears won’t stop pouring
I feel like I’m going to drown
There’s too much going on
Inside of me and in the world
With my voice shaking
I’m begging and pleading
Everything… Please…
Just slow the fuck down
Let me take a breath
I feel like shutting down
I can’t deal with all of this
Not on my own
It’s all too much for me
I’m not okay… Okay?
#sadness
#dark
#despair #emptiness
#despair #emptiness
1057 reads
3 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
8th May 2020 6:24am
8th May 2020 6:24am
"I've Wanted To Die"
This is my confession
Forget about discretion
I’ve suffered from depression
Gotten good at repression
Yeah, I’ve wanted to die
I’ve wanted to say goodbye
No, this ain’t a lie
You just haven’t seen me cry
This is my confession
Forget about discretion
I’ve suffered from depression
Gotten good at repression
You made the conclusion
Believing my illusion
Lost in the delusion
That I was doing just fine
Truth is; I wanted to die
I wanted to say goodbye
But I decided to lie ...
Forget about discretion
I’ve suffered from depression
Gotten good at repression
Yeah, I’ve wanted to die
I’ve wanted to say goodbye
No, this ain’t a lie
You just haven’t seen me cry
This is my confession
Forget about discretion
I’ve suffered from depression
Gotten good at repression
You made the conclusion
Believing my illusion
Lost in the delusion
That I was doing just fine
Truth is; I wanted to die
I wanted to say goodbye
But I decided to lie ...
#sadness
#dark
#frustration #despair
#frustration #despair
481 reads
9 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
2nd Apr 2020 7:24am
2nd Apr 2020 7:24am
"Hopes and Dreams"
I have hopes and dreams
That one day you will remember me
That you will remember us
I look up at the stars most nights
And wonder where your travels have taken you
I wish that one day they will lead you into my arms
That one day you will remember me
That you will remember us
I look up at the stars most nights
And wonder where your travels have taken you
I wish that one day they will lead you into my arms
#sadness
#hope
#friendship
#stars
#sky
487 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
24th Jan 2020 3:22pm
24th Jan 2020 3:22pm
"I'm Mad"
I’m mad at my brain
I’m mad at my heart
I’m mad at my soul
They’re all in love with you
I’m mad at my hopes
I’m mad at my dreams
I’m mad at everything in between
They wish you were in love with me too
I’m mad at my heart
I’m mad at my soul
They’re all in love with you
I’m mad at my hopes
I’m mad at my dreams
I’m mad at everything in between
They wish you were in love with me too
#sadness
#anger
#ILoveYou
#honesty
#UnrequitedLove
419 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
3rd Jan 2020 5:58am
3rd Jan 2020 5:58am
"Guitar Case Coffin"
#dark
#suicide
#despair
#emptiness
#hurt
418 reads
0 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
1st Jan 2020 4:29pm
1st Jan 2020 4:29pm
"12/22/19"
Curses and pounding fists
I quickly woke up to this
I learned what had happened
What you had done to yourself
I sat, and I shook, and I cried
I prayed for this to be a lie
Or some sick, stupid joke
But I knew you really died
I knew that you were gone
That I’d never get to say goodbye
But I couldn't just accept that
Not then, now, or ever
You were my family
You will be forever
I quickly woke up to this
I learned what had happened
What you had done to yourself
I sat, and I shook, and I cried
I prayed for this to be a lie
Or some sick, stupid joke
But I knew you really died
I knew that you were gone
That I’d never get to say goodbye
But I couldn't just accept that
Not then, now, or ever
You were my family
You will be forever
#sadness
#grief
#dark #heartbroken
#dark #heartbroken
423 reads
5 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
1st Jan 2020 12:10pm
1st Jan 2020 12:10pm
"Stages of Grief"
I am not shocked
But I am numb
I am hurting
But I feel no guilt
I am angry
But not with you
I am depressed
But I was before, too
I don’t know how to work through
But I will, if only for you
I will never accept this
But I wish you the best
But I am numb
I am hurting
But I feel no guilt
I am angry
But not with you
I am depressed
But I was before, too
I don’t know how to work through
But I will, if only for you
I will never accept this
But I wish you the best
#sadness
#dark
#heartbroken
#despair
#denial
368 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
28th Dec 2019 3:54am
28th Dec 2019 3:54am
"I Do Not Want To Be In Love"
I said I was in love with you
You said that it was just a phase
Eight months later, I told you again
You told me it was just your absence and my caring
I want to believe you, with every fiber of my being
I trick my mind most days, into believing your words
Most nights, I cannot fool myself with these tricks
But with every love song, sappy poem, and kissing scene
I am reminded of you
Of the way you laugh
Of the way you smile
Of the way you sing to me
I do not want to be in love
So I push my feelings aside
I lock my...
You said that it was just a phase
Eight months later, I told you again
You told me it was just your absence and my caring
I want to believe you, with every fiber of my being
I trick my mind most days, into believing your words
Most nights, I cannot fool myself with these tricks
But with every love song, sappy poem, and kissing scene
I am reminded of you
Of the way you laugh
Of the way you smile
Of the way you sing to me
I do not want to be in love
So I push my feelings aside
I lock my...
#sadness
#love
#loneliness #heartbroken
#loneliness #heartbroken
340 reads
1 Comment
ANGER POEM
Published
2nd Aug 2019 2:00am
2nd Aug 2019 2:00am
"Killer"
You killed me.
I trusted you more than anything.
Because you'd done so much,
In such little time.
You made me care again.
You kept me from giving up.
You had done more than anyone ever had.
But then you stopped caring.
You gave up on me, on us.
You are my killer...
I trusted you more than anything.
Because you'd done so much,
In such little time.
You made me care again.
You kept me from giving up.
You had done more than anyone ever had.
But then you stopped caring.
You gave up on me, on us.
You are my killer...
#anger
#heartbroken
#breakup
#lies
#disappointment
610 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
2nd Aug 2019 1:54am
2nd Aug 2019 1:54am
"Hero"
You saved me.
I trust you more than anything.
Because you've done so much,
In such little time.
You made me care again.
You kept me from giving up.
You have done more than anyone ever has.
You are my hero...
I trust you more than anything.
Because you've done so much,
In such little time.
You made me care again.
You kept me from giving up.
You have done more than anyone ever has.
You are my hero...
#boyfriend
#ILoveYou
#gratitude
#support
#FirstLove
676 reads
3 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
17th Jul 2019 9:43pm
17th Jul 2019 9:43pm
"You"
I promised I wouldn’t leave you
But after all the shit you’ve put me through
I don’t know what I should do
I could stay with you
Try to save you
Like I always do
Or I could leave you
Try to work through
My PTSD caused by you
No matter which I choose
I’ll spend my days worrying about you
Spend my nights dreaming of you
Spend the rest of my life caught between
Being grateful that I knew you
And wishing I had never met you
But after all the shit you’ve put me through
I don’t know what I should do
I could stay with you
Try to save you
Like I always do
Or I could leave you
Try to work through
My PTSD caused by you
No matter which I choose
I’ll spend my days worrying about you
Spend my nights dreaming of you
Spend the rest of my life caught between
Being grateful that I knew you
And wishing I had never met you
#sadness
#anger
#regret
#dark
#frustration
405 reads
1 Comment
ANGER POEM
Published
17th Jul 2019 9:39pm
17th Jul 2019 9:39pm
"I Don't Know"
I don’t know if I should stay
You say you want me to
Yet you push me away
You say you don’t want to hurt me
Yet you fuck me up
You say that you love me
Yet your actions don’t show it
Maybe I should just walk away
You say you want me to
Yet you push me away
You say you don’t want to hurt me
Yet you fuck me up
You say that you love me
Yet your actions don’t show it
Maybe I should just walk away
#anger
#regret
#frustration
#confusion
#disappointment
371 reads
2 Comments
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