Submissions by Rekktheartist (Deric)

When I said hold me down,
I didnt mean under water

Youd say love and hate or like day and night
So love without hurt is like the sun withouts it light

It dont sit well with me like I cant digest it,
I dont get the feelings i use to,
i just hope it ain't my nature

My behavior entails to be no savior , I'm not worth a chance to give,
I've lost it all trying to chase what I thought was greater
But my down falls seems to root from relationships..

I dont get it, but those who say they do are liars
I dont have...

Learning to curve My burdens,
burning the herb Is worthless,
When turning my nerves the verdict,
Searching the earth for purpose,
Versions of me are buried,
Only my truth will flourish,
Lonely wit blues for certain,
Homies determined to turn My words to courage,
But Toning my verbs to nervous,
cause Only my hurt has worsened,
Learning to merge my worth
With dirt
know me as worthless sure ya heard of perfect, but
Do you acknowledge it,
Do you want homicide?,
Are ya mommies boy?,
Or Do you wear...

I Need some help,
im scared to be my self when,
no one seems like me or evenly seemingly close

Biggest flaw is..
im not aware of what im chasing,
creating the biggest holes,
in my soul in the Making,
Its a sickness in its beginning stages...

i Try and fix it,
but keep missing the mistakes in my greatness.
And the only cure is patience,
and im tired of waiting...

how do the old do it?
waiting to Die...
these are my thoughts,
at a age before 25..

They call that anxiety i guess? ...