Randome Thoughts In The Mirror At Night

I Need some help,
im scared to be my self when,
no one seems like me or evenly seemingly close

Biggest flaw is..
im not aware of what im chasing,
creating the biggest holes,
 in my soul in the Making,
Its a sickness in its beginning stages...

i Try and fix it,
but keep missing the mistakes in my greatness.
And the only cure is patience,
and im tired of waiting...

how do the old do it?
waiting to Die...
these are my thoughts,
at a age before 25..
 
They call that anxiety i guess?
thats why my panic dissorder sorta torutres my chest

I confessed..
i dont know if i want Love,
or if i want company ...
Either one is taking something from under me
and thats time, you dont just find suddenly

but all in all im a nice guy
But my jackle and hyde side in hindsight..
So to bad my two sides dont coincide
For at least 5 nights..

So i can get some sleep...