Submissions by PleasuresOfPain
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Pleasures of pain is the name and writing keeps me sane.
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
17th Dec 2015 6:06am
17th Dec 2015 6:06am
Confederate
Right now I'm not going to be real considerate
For some may be offended by this some how
I love America and I'll die on this soil a patriot
standing tall and proud with honor that I devout
For the men and woman who Sacrifice and fight
For our freedom to be free,for our lives to live on
Our flags are our mascots,symbols to our courage
If I choose to rep confederate it's my will and bond
As the guns raise and then salute they shoot in unison
For a fallen soldier that became victim to his sacrifice
He died for us and did it out of...
For some may be offended by this some how
I love America and I'll die on this soil a patriot
standing tall and proud with honor that I devout
For the men and woman who Sacrifice and fight
For our freedom to be free,for our lives to live on
Our flags are our mascots,symbols to our courage
If I choose to rep confederate it's my will and bond
As the guns raise and then salute they shoot in unison
For a fallen soldier that became victim to his sacrifice
He died for us and did it out of...
729 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
4th Dec 2015 7:55am
4th Dec 2015 7:55am
The end is near.
I wish my tears would dry up
Because I'm tired of the pain
Things I've felt are now numb
My happiness turned to shame
I still want to die and erase away
To not be here anymore in misery
I still cut my self to vent my anger
Towards my life and mental history
I blame my dad for why I'm this way
He never stopped his hateful bullshit
The names he called me hurt so bad
Hope he cries when my wrists are slit
I ask God to give me a reason to my life
some purpose to my pain and suffering
A will to coexist in a place where I'm hated...
Because I'm tired of the pain
Things I've felt are now numb
My happiness turned to shame
I still want to die and erase away
To not be here anymore in misery
I still cut my self to vent my anger
Towards my life and mental history
I blame my dad for why I'm this way
He never stopped his hateful bullshit
The names he called me hurt so bad
Hope he cries when my wrists are slit
I ask God to give me a reason to my life
some purpose to my pain and suffering
A will to coexist in a place where I'm hated...
679 reads
2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
22nd Nov 2015 11:03am
22nd Nov 2015 11:03am
My Drug Life
I think I'm losing control,
Losing my grasp on life.
Drugs are taking their toll,
It's risky as rolling the dice...
A pill leads to another dose,
I sure hate shooting the shit.
I often snort them up my nose,
When I'm desperate for a fix.
I have my spoon,cotton,and Bic,
Only thing I'm missing is a dart.
My world is like a sinking ship,
While everything else falls apart.
Two days ago my best friend died,
She overdosed on some OxyContin.
I admit that I've thought about suicide,
Because I've already been forgotten.
...
Losing my grasp on life.
Drugs are taking their toll,
It's risky as rolling the dice...
A pill leads to another dose,
I sure hate shooting the shit.
I often snort them up my nose,
When I'm desperate for a fix.
I have my spoon,cotton,and Bic,
Only thing I'm missing is a dart.
My world is like a sinking ship,
While everything else falls apart.
Two days ago my best friend died,
She overdosed on some OxyContin.
I admit that I've thought about suicide,
Because I've already been forgotten.
...
823 reads
3 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
16th Nov 2015 6:57am
16th Nov 2015 6:57am
In Too Deep
Feeling upset cause I can't take the pain,
The needles in with the plunger pressed.
Sobriety never gave me a chance to change,
So this last time I risk everything no less
What have I done to deserve such a prize?
Did I sign away my soul to some higher power?
Were the 12 steps of A/A some kind of code,
To the ways I lived right down to the final hour?
It all started when life became a numb facade
In a blink of an eye and through a warped perspective
I always thought that I was the one with full control
Until one day my shrink told me I was...
The needles in with the plunger pressed.
Sobriety never gave me a chance to change,
So this last time I risk everything no less
What have I done to deserve such a prize?
Did I sign away my soul to some higher power?
Were the 12 steps of A/A some kind of code,
To the ways I lived right down to the final hour?
It all started when life became a numb facade
In a blink of an eye and through a warped perspective
I always thought that I was the one with full control
Until one day my shrink told me I was...
782 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
26th Apr 2015 6:05am
26th Apr 2015 6:05am
Confide
Quietly waiting for the end
Within the shadows of doubt
Hopeless and depressed again
For this life that I can live without
In a dark corner is where I reside
Cold tears stream down my face
Too afraid to face myself out of pride
My will is to die cause I'm the one I hate
All of my thoughts have come into play
Will the pain subside or will it consume
I can't keep my many emotions at bay
Bipolar and depression has left me in ruin
Tragic as it seems I have no self esteem
The world has...
Within the shadows of doubt
Hopeless and depressed again
For this life that I can live without
In a dark corner is where I reside
Cold tears stream down my face
Too afraid to face myself out of pride
My will is to die cause I'm the one I hate
All of my thoughts have come into play
Will the pain subside or will it consume
I can't keep my many emotions at bay
Bipolar and depression has left me in ruin
Tragic as it seems I have no self esteem
The world has...
685 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
21st Apr 2015 8:00pm
21st Apr 2015 8:00pm
Sacred Heart
For everything you are
You are everything to me
You are my shining star
Twinkling above beautifully
For all the love In my heart
That grows more in purity
The more closer that you are
The more sacred is our destiny
For the reasons that defy limits
That defines love worth the fight
Through all hours and minutes
Being with you feels so very right
For the emotions that you've made
That have surfaced within my mind
Thoughts so clear they never fade
With a kind of love we rarely find.
You are everything to me
You are my shining star
Twinkling above beautifully
For all the love In my heart
That grows more in purity
The more closer that you are
The more sacred is our destiny
For the reasons that defy limits
That defines love worth the fight
Through all hours and minutes
Being with you feels so very right
For the emotions that you've made
That have surfaced within my mind
Thoughts so clear they never fade
With a kind of love we rarely find.
732 reads
3 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
9th Apr 2015 2:55pm
9th Apr 2015 2:55pm
The battle of a lifetime.
It's been rough since hearing the news,
Lately I've been drowning in my own pain
While buying all sorts of drugs to abuse
I can't face the truth and tears fall like rain
You're the one person that I can depend on
It's been like that for as long as I can remember
I wonder what I'd do if someday you'd be gone
Would I be stricken with sorrow forever & ever?
I feel broken and empty,depressed and upset
I cry out to God in contempt and fading strength
I've prayed but none have been granted as of yet
I feel like I'm to blame for your pains...
Lately I've been drowning in my own pain
While buying all sorts of drugs to abuse
I can't face the truth and tears fall like rain
You're the one person that I can depend on
It's been like that for as long as I can remember
I wonder what I'd do if someday you'd be gone
Would I be stricken with sorrow forever & ever?
I feel broken and empty,depressed and upset
I cry out to God in contempt and fading strength
I've prayed but none have been granted as of yet
I feel like I'm to blame for your pains...
690 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
26th Mar 2015 5:53am
26th Mar 2015 5:53am
Concocted Consequence
Every cut that I make
Is another way I escape
I'm so fucking emotional
Inside,emotions tug & pull
I'm drowning in my thoughts
My life is full of flaws & faults
I inflict pain but it never comes
When I cut my mind goes numb
Sometimes I punch holes in walls
I even mutilate my sister's dolls
Outward destruction while imploding
While my mind continues eroding
Fuck this life that has been a burden
When I die the world won't stop turning
What's the reason for my empty existence?
Nothing but my own concocted...
Is another way I escape
I'm so fucking emotional
Inside,emotions tug & pull
I'm drowning in my thoughts
My life is full of flaws & faults
I inflict pain but it never comes
When I cut my mind goes numb
Sometimes I punch holes in walls
I even mutilate my sister's dolls
Outward destruction while imploding
While my mind continues eroding
Fuck this life that has been a burden
When I die the world won't stop turning
What's the reason for my empty existence?
Nothing but my own concocted...
683 reads
2 Comments
STORY POEM
Published
14th Feb 2015 1:52pm
14th Feb 2015 1:52pm
Eyes open shut
I'm never ever gonna rest
Can't believe it's not over yet
This dream I scream from within
Eyes open shut with unseen death
I hide behind blood shot eyes of horror
A darkness blankets the thoughts I have
Blood splattered walls of gore and doom
A certain nightmare that will end real bad
I toss and turn in a bed of sweat and terror
Running in place I've said my grace in silence
I've sworn I wouldn't let the demons in again
But as I sleep my memories bring the violence
My heart races inside my chest as I try to rest ...
Can't believe it's not over yet
This dream I scream from within
Eyes open shut with unseen death
I hide behind blood shot eyes of horror
A darkness blankets the thoughts I have
Blood splattered walls of gore and doom
A certain nightmare that will end real bad
I toss and turn in a bed of sweat and terror
Running in place I've said my grace in silence
I've sworn I wouldn't let the demons in again
But as I sleep my memories bring the violence
My heart races inside my chest as I try to rest ...
650 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
5th Jan 2015 4:28pm
5th Jan 2015 4:28pm
Letter of Love
To the one I love,
It's been three years since I seen your face,I've kept your memory alive and your beauty wasn't something easily erased.With each sunset that disappears over the horizon,results in another entry in my journal I confide in.I miss the way you laugh and the ways that you made me smile,you used to kiss my neck in places that drove me wild,Your kisses were gentle like a rose's petal at dawn,it's those very memories that give me the strength to carry on.I miss the mornings when we used to kiss each other goodbye,all throughout the day you texted me sweet sayings that made me...
It's been three years since I seen your face,I've kept your memory alive and your beauty wasn't something easily erased.With each sunset that disappears over the horizon,results in another entry in my journal I confide in.I miss the way you laugh and the ways that you made me smile,you used to kiss my neck in places that drove me wild,Your kisses were gentle like a rose's petal at dawn,it's those very memories that give me the strength to carry on.I miss the mornings when we used to kiss each other goodbye,all throughout the day you texted me sweet sayings that made me...
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STORY POEM
Published
5th Jan 2015 3:15pm
5th Jan 2015 3:15pm
Due West (Part 2)
The room was spinning and I was grinning
The coke in my nose was numbing & tingling
She turned on a song that made me remember
The last time I did yay & how it cost me everything
As the moments went by without hesitation or pause
I glanced at my watch and then looked at the chick
She was on the other chair spread eagled and naked
The coke in my system was making me horny as shit
The situation was unraveling more quickly than the night
Most men would of been on top of that in a heart beat
But I wasn't like most men so I got up and...
The coke in my nose was numbing & tingling
She turned on a song that made me remember
The last time I did yay & how it cost me everything
As the moments went by without hesitation or pause
I glanced at my watch and then looked at the chick
She was on the other chair spread eagled and naked
The coke in my system was making me horny as shit
The situation was unraveling more quickly than the night
Most men would of been on top of that in a heart beat
But I wasn't like most men so I got up and...
640 reads
0 Comments
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