Submissions by Nixprty
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write the words my tongue can’t speak, and for those who can still see clearly through the foggy windows.
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
1st Sep 2024 9:43am
1st Sep 2024 9:43am
Hypocrite
There’s something wrong with me,
Smudged and broken.
I lied to her,
I’m lying to her.
I think she knows,
I think she sees it in my eyes.
I know she’ll never ask,
I’ll never tell.
I promised I’d be better,
I’m just like him.
I’d understand if she hated me,
I’d hate me too.
I never meant to be this way,
I can’t stop.
If I can just run far enough away,
We can both pretend it never happened.
I think she’d run after me though,
I won’t run very fast.
I hope she knows I don’t mean to hurt her,
When I...
Smudged and broken.
I lied to her,
I’m lying to her.
I think she knows,
I think she sees it in my eyes.
I know she’ll never ask,
I’ll never tell.
I promised I’d be better,
I’m just like him.
I’d understand if she hated me,
I’d hate me too.
I never meant to be this way,
I can’t stop.
If I can just run far enough away,
We can both pretend it never happened.
I think she’d run after me though,
I won’t run very fast.
I hope she knows I don’t mean to hurt her,
When I...
#shame
115 reads
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
29th Aug 2024 6:04am
29th Aug 2024 6:04am
The World Ended Today At 9:32
Oh god
I’m so sorry
What have
I done
I’m disgusting
I hate myself
How could I
How dare I
I’m so sorry
Please
Don’t
Leave
I’m sorry
I know
I promised
I wouldn’t
Tell me
What
Do I
Do
I didn’t
Want to
I’m so
Sorry
God
Please
Don’t
Hate
Me
I’m so sorry
What have
I done
I’m disgusting
I hate myself
How could I
How dare I
I’m so sorry
Please
Don’t
Leave
I’m sorry
I know
I promised
I wouldn’t
Tell me
What
Do I
Do
I didn’t
Want to
I’m so
Sorry
God
Please
Don’t
Hate
Me
#shame
123 reads
LOVE POEM
Published
27th Aug 2024 2:59pm
27th Aug 2024 2:59pm
Spaces
Hidden in the many paragraphs I scrawl and haphazardly type,
An unintelligible phrase is burrowed in the spaces.
It’s a riddle to be broken,
Just for the smallest of hands.
A trial of the soul,
It mocks time itself.
Written only in indigo ink by the light of the moon,
A beckoning without a ballroom to dance in.
She showed me what I’d lost,
I’ll show her to the door.
I’ll interlace our fingers until she’s shivering,
Burrowed in the spaces.
And when I bring her mouth to mine,
Pardoning the flesh...
An unintelligible phrase is burrowed in the spaces.
It’s a riddle to be broken,
Just for the smallest of hands.
A trial of the soul,
It mocks time itself.
Written only in indigo ink by the light of the moon,
A beckoning without a ballroom to dance in.
She showed me what I’d lost,
I’ll show her to the door.
I’ll interlace our fingers until she’s shivering,
Burrowed in the spaces.
And when I bring her mouth to mine,
Pardoning the flesh...
#ForbiddenLove
#love
#UnrequitedLove
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0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
26th Aug 2024 8:20pm
26th Aug 2024 8:20pm
The Safety of Being Solitary
The fear of being seen,
Not the physical action of someone processing the curves and dips in my features,
But rather the sharp edges and bumps of my personality and being.
The knowledge that someone else knows me,
Like the plants know the sun,
It crushes my chest inward.
The fear of being heard,
Not the physical action of processing the sounds that vibrate up my throat,
But rather the meaning of the words I force out of a frown.
The knowledge that someone hears me,
Like the animals hear the rushing water,
Listening for a...
Not the physical action of someone processing the curves and dips in my features,
But rather the sharp edges and bumps of my personality and being.
The knowledge that someone else knows me,
Like the plants know the sun,
It crushes my chest inward.
The fear of being heard,
Not the physical action of processing the sounds that vibrate up my throat,
But rather the meaning of the words I force out of a frown.
The knowledge that someone hears me,
Like the animals hear the rushing water,
Listening for a...
#emptiness
#loneliness
140 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
20th Aug 2024 1:53am
20th Aug 2024 1:53am
I Exist, I Exist, I Exist
I like to take my glasses off randomly,
Watch the blurry world speed past me.
Even with them on,
I can’t see any better.
Identifying the colors,
And not the shapes.
I hate when people turn entirely to look at me,
Straining their necks to see me.
I’m just lazily looking back,
It takes no effort to meet their eyes.
If I tried just a little harder,
I could see them.
I exist here in the crowded hall,
I look out of place when it’s empty.
Moving so fast I’m blurry,
Slowing to a crawl.
I explained what...
Watch the blurry world speed past me.
Even with them on,
I can’t see any better.
Identifying the colors,
And not the shapes.
I hate when people turn entirely to look at me,
Straining their necks to see me.
I’m just lazily looking back,
It takes no effort to meet their eyes.
If I tried just a little harder,
I could see them.
I exist here in the crowded hall,
I look out of place when it’s empty.
Moving so fast I’m blurry,
Slowing to a crawl.
I explained what...
#despair
#emptiness
#loneliness
193 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
13th Aug 2024 7:45am
13th Aug 2024 7:45am
My Dearest Cosmonaut,
How could I hate you?
You are morning fog and early sunsets,
Empathetic and real.
You’re the only person who I feel if I rested a hand on your shoulder,
I wouldn’t fall through.
You are warm and soft,
Shivering in the cold air.
I ache to be near you,
Sweltering cores pressed together.
You are so talented,
You’re the first rays of sun that peek through my windows.
I’d hate to change a thing about you,
Spending hours cataloging your endearing quirks and captivating features.
I am taller than...
You are morning fog and early sunsets,
Empathetic and real.
You’re the only person who I feel if I rested a hand on your shoulder,
I wouldn’t fall through.
You are warm and soft,
Shivering in the cold air.
I ache to be near you,
Sweltering cores pressed together.
You are so talented,
You’re the first rays of sun that peek through my windows.
I’d hate to change a thing about you,
Spending hours cataloging your endearing quirks and captivating features.
I am taller than...
#admiration
#BestFriend
#love
204 reads
1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
12th Aug 2024 3:59pm
12th Aug 2024 3:59pm
Unposted Poems I
1.
There’s only so far I can run,
Before it would’ve been better to just have been thrown.
2.
Seven minutes later,
Lapping up the sea water.
Running my hand through the reflection,
Watching the ripples distort my face looking back.
I cannot recognize my own eyes,
I cannot find my pupils.
Hand in hand,
I’ll get swept beneath the waves.
3.
I think I want to talk out of a second hole in my face,
in a language no one’s ever heard,
and using words that haven’t been...
There’s only so far I can run,
Before it would’ve been better to just have been thrown.
2.
Seven minutes later,
Lapping up the sea water.
Running my hand through the reflection,
Watching the ripples distort my face looking back.
I cannot recognize my own eyes,
I cannot find my pupils.
Hand in hand,
I’ll get swept beneath the waves.
3.
I think I want to talk out of a second hole in my face,
in a language no one’s ever heard,
and using words that haven’t been...
#WritingPoetry
88 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
12th Aug 2024 3:12pm
12th Aug 2024 3:12pm
Canis
Kick me
While I’m
Down
Sliding
My paws
On the sharp
Cobble
Ground
Howling
Alone
At the
Moon
Or whenever
I could
Mistaken
For it
Digging
Through the
Scraps
Joining
At the
Fork
Bearing the
Family name
Lopez
With a
Tail
Tucked
Between my legs
A loper
Without prey
To chase
Or to
Give
Wild
Domestication
Clawing at
The doors
Sniffing at
The damp
Grass
Tug on
My leash
As if
I’m...
While I’m
Down
Sliding
My paws
On the sharp
Cobble
Ground
Howling
Alone
At the
Moon
Or whenever
I could
Mistaken
For it
Digging
Through the
Scraps
Joining
At the
Fork
Bearing the
Family name
Lopez
With a
Tail
Tucked
Between my legs
A loper
Without prey
To chase
Or to
Give
Wild
Domestication
Clawing at
The doors
Sniffing at
The damp
Grass
Tug on
My leash
As if
I’m...
#boredom
#emptiness
#frustration
100 reads
0 Comments
STORY POEM
Published
6th Aug 2024 12:22pm
6th Aug 2024 12:22pm
Unidentified
I am a fool.
I understand the meaning of the word and still, I walk like a man blind for a man starved.
My humanity exists beneath my skin and pushes up every so often like a man insane.”
The dim light of a lantern casts half of him in shadow as he says this, a solemn look on his face that doesn’t reach his widely smiling lips.
“Why are you telling me this?” Moans the soldier, clutching his side and slowly stroking the growing red patch on his uniform.
“I thought,” he pauses for moment, looking up at nothing, as if trying to...
I understand the meaning of the word and still, I walk like a man blind for a man starved.
My humanity exists beneath my skin and pushes up every so often like a man insane.”
The dim light of a lantern casts half of him in shadow as he says this, a solemn look on his face that doesn’t reach his widely smiling lips.
“Why are you telling me this?” Moans the soldier, clutching his side and slowly stroking the growing red patch on his uniform.
“I thought,” he pauses for moment, looking up at nothing, as if trying to...
#death
#fiction
#morality
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0 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
5th Aug 2024 8:49am
5th Aug 2024 8:49am
Goodnight: Meaning Farewell
You’ll never actually understand.
These aren’t just words,
They’re my life.
My.
Myself.
I hate myself.
I hate myself...
I hate my voice,
I hate my smile,
I hate my skin,
And I hate what’s underneath it.
My blood feels less red than other people’s,
My insides feel softer.
I don’t want to die because I don’t feel worthy of the mourning.
I feel like a bad person,
I...
These aren’t just words,
They’re my life.
My.
Myself.
I hate myself.
I hate myself...
I hate my voice,
I hate my smile,
I hate my skin,
And I hate what’s underneath it.
My blood feels less red than other people’s,
My insides feel softer.
I don’t want to die because I don’t feel worthy of the mourning.
I feel like a bad person,
I...
#dark
#despair
#hate #suicide
#hate #suicide
395 reads
3 Comments
EROTIC POEM
Published
2nd Aug 2024 7:58am
2nd Aug 2024 7:58am
The Masochistic Nature of This Wanting
She is so beautiful.
It makes me want to weep.
She has the best laugh.
I want to be the one to pull them all from her.
To make her smile,
To make her cry,
To make her feel.
I want to make the empty moments just feel hollow.
She makes me want to suffer,
To hurt for her.
I want to kiss her until I forget to breathe.
I want to taste her until I taste of her.
I want to know what it means to let myself.
Let her.
Let her touch me and feel me.
To feel her and...
It makes me want to weep.
She has the best laugh.
I want to be the one to pull them all from her.
To make her smile,
To make her cry,
To make her feel.
I want to make the empty moments just feel hollow.
She makes me want to suffer,
To hurt for her.
I want to kiss her until I forget to breathe.
I want to taste her until I taste of her.
I want to know what it means to let myself.
Let her.
Let her touch me and feel me.
To feel her and...
#love
#lust
#UnrequitedLove
224 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
2nd Aug 2024 7:51am
2nd Aug 2024 7:51am
Savior Compulsion
Tell me you only feel like this with me.
Tell me I make you happy.
Tell me I’m useful.
Tell me you need me.
You can tell me you’re lying,
I’m lying too.
I promise I’ll never hurt you,
But some part of me hopes you hurt.
So I can pick up those pieces.
The selfish part of me that whispers behind all my words.
You can say you love me,
I scratch away the layers of skin you’ve touched.
I wonder,
Is it a savior complex or just a lack of self preservation?
...
Tell me I make you happy.
Tell me I’m useful.
Tell me you need me.
You can tell me you’re lying,
I’m lying too.
I promise I’ll never hurt you,
But some part of me hopes you hurt.
So I can pick up those pieces.
The selfish part of me that whispers behind all my words.
You can say you love me,
I scratch away the layers of skin you’ve touched.
I wonder,
Is it a savior complex or just a lack of self preservation?
...
#emptiness
#greed
#identity #shame
#identity #shame
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