Submissions by NightPlay (Kemar.J)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Journey
I have walked through streams and rivers alike,
Through valleys and over mountains.
I have seen flowers bloom and wilt alike.
And I have wept for both.
What is so grand as witnessing beginning and ending alike?
Summer has graced me and the sun has kissed my skin.
Winter has assailed me and its chill has bitten my flesh.
Is it not my duty to love both with equal passion?
The seasons come and go so fast, faster than I at least,
How is my affection to match them?
I have been mad, and i have known clarity.
Maybe I have walked through one...
Through valleys and over mountains.
I have seen flowers bloom and wilt alike.
And I have wept for both.
What is so grand as witnessing beginning and ending alike?
Summer has graced me and the sun has kissed my skin.
Winter has assailed me and its chill has bitten my flesh.
Is it not my duty to love both with equal passion?
The seasons come and go so fast, faster than I at least,
How is my affection to match them?
I have been mad, and i have known clarity.
Maybe I have walked through one...
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Remember
I want you to know why,
Why your smiles will always be fake,
Why you'll never know home,
I want you to know why you'll never truly be happy,
Your very soul knows it,
your own powerlessness took the sun from you,
you could only watch, i know, i saw.
Do you remember?
Does it hurt?
do your lips sting?
Does your first kiss still burn you?
You'll never forget the taste of him,
Remember the pain. I want you to.
Remember when his claws tore your heart out,
squeezed it... if you listened, you could almost hear the...pop!
I...
Why your smiles will always be fake,
Why you'll never know home,
I want you to know why you'll never truly be happy,
Your very soul knows it,
your own powerlessness took the sun from you,
you could only watch, i know, i saw.
Do you remember?
Does it hurt?
do your lips sting?
Does your first kiss still burn you?
You'll never forget the taste of him,
Remember the pain. I want you to.
Remember when his claws tore your heart out,
squeezed it... if you listened, you could almost hear the...pop!
I...
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Cold Hard Heartbreak
It's cold,
It's cold and hard,
So cold.
It's like winter's hand is choking me.
Like an ice shard lodged in my black heart.
Heartbreak...that curséd word.
This is it yes?
That freezing of the heart,
Those tears that never seem to stop,
That colourless abyss in the soul.
I can no longer feel anger...
Nay...I can feel nothing,
That damned curséd Love,
That poison, that wretchéd lie,
Was able to break the unbreakable,
And now I...yes I am frozen.
Seems you took the heat.
I now see that hope is a lie......
It's cold and hard,
So cold.
It's like winter's hand is choking me.
Like an ice shard lodged in my black heart.
Heartbreak...that curséd word.
This is it yes?
That freezing of the heart,
Those tears that never seem to stop,
That colourless abyss in the soul.
I can no longer feel anger...
Nay...I can feel nothing,
That damned curséd Love,
That poison, that wretchéd lie,
Was able to break the unbreakable,
And now I...yes I am frozen.
Seems you took the heat.
I now see that hope is a lie......
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I See Everything
I know what you wanna say,
Don't look so surprised,
You try to hide but my eyes see everything,
I see that hitch in your step,
I see that shadow in your eyes,
I see you take deep breaths,
Then you say goodbye...
I see the rose you gave me wilting,
Those pretty red petals falling,
I see my soul weeping its denial,
Its fear of losing you,
I see my heart beat its last,
I see you walking away,
I see hope fading.
I see my past with you,
I see our first kiss,
I see us dancing in the rain,
It's raining now,
A storm...
Don't look so surprised,
You try to hide but my eyes see everything,
I see that hitch in your step,
I see that shadow in your eyes,
I see you take deep breaths,
Then you say goodbye...
I see the rose you gave me wilting,
Those pretty red petals falling,
I see my soul weeping its denial,
Its fear of losing you,
I see my heart beat its last,
I see you walking away,
I see hope fading.
I see my past with you,
I see our first kiss,
I see us dancing in the rain,
It's raining now,
A storm...
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Gonna Be a Villain
I'm gonna stop running,
the good guys wanna tame me,
they wanna cage me,
Bind me with their chains,
cut me with their hate.
I'm gonna stop hoping,
The good guys like crushing me,
they like my disappointment,
they feed off my tears,
they wanna bring me to my knees.
I'm gonna stop hiding,
the good guys hate me cuz I'm gay,
I'd be dead if they had their way,
But its time I had my say,
cuz I've found my iron- ain't nobody chasing me away.
I'm gonna stop acting,
I'm not like them, ...
the good guys wanna tame me,
they wanna cage me,
Bind me with their chains,
cut me with their hate.
I'm gonna stop hoping,
The good guys like crushing me,
they like my disappointment,
they feed off my tears,
they wanna bring me to my knees.
I'm gonna stop hiding,
the good guys hate me cuz I'm gay,
I'd be dead if they had their way,
But its time I had my say,
cuz I've found my iron- ain't nobody chasing me away.
I'm gonna stop acting,
I'm not like them, ...
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When I Found My Emotions
Unsure of what it meant to feel,
I sat alone in the dark one night,
Laptop screen glowing with light without warmth,
I sat there,
My cold soul empty, still as the night,
My mind heavy...wandering, lost perhaps.
I thought of my heartbeat,
Of what it felt to be alive and yet not live,
and I felt-nothing
I thought of the homophobia at my school,
of the one guy I love but can never claim,
for the first time I felt-nothing
Then my thoughts stilled,
Mild worry starting to form,
Had I lost the ability to feel?
Had emotion deserted...
I sat alone in the dark one night,
Laptop screen glowing with light without warmth,
I sat there,
My cold soul empty, still as the night,
My mind heavy...wandering, lost perhaps.
I thought of my heartbeat,
Of what it felt to be alive and yet not live,
and I felt-nothing
I thought of the homophobia at my school,
of the one guy I love but can never claim,
for the first time I felt-nothing
Then my thoughts stilled,
Mild worry starting to form,
Had I lost the ability to feel?
Had emotion deserted...
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The Illusion called Love
Our love was like a tree,
mighty and immortal,
believing that...was a mistake it was fatal,
the tree is wilting..no. wrong.
you burn it down.
you torched my heart and soul too!
I was in the dark before you...
lost,cold, nothing i could do
about my tears...
the day i met you was the day i finally let my tears fall...
tears of joy!
Now tears of sorrow,
for i fear a tomorrow without you,
How could you laugh while i cry?
It gives you pleasure to watch me die?
Devastated, destroyed, dead...
Makes me want to claw at my body and marvel...
mighty and immortal,
believing that...was a mistake it was fatal,
the tree is wilting..no. wrong.
you burn it down.
you torched my heart and soul too!
I was in the dark before you...
lost,cold, nothing i could do
about my tears...
the day i met you was the day i finally let my tears fall...
tears of joy!
Now tears of sorrow,
for i fear a tomorrow without you,
How could you laugh while i cry?
It gives you pleasure to watch me die?
Devastated, destroyed, dead...
Makes me want to claw at my body and marvel...
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Don't Return Me to the Night...
The night was dark...cold...eerie,
loneliness my only ally...
my only reality.
It felt as though I was floating,
drifting aimlessly...without life,
Until his hands found me...
His hands were so soft...gentle...warm,
Reaching me..dragging me into the moonlight,
His eyes were deep...piercing...
I felt for the first time...
that he could see me...
Finally I was not invisible to all,
I remember wanting to kiss him,
Hold him...be with him...
I remember my love swelling,
my heart bursting,
My soul thirsting for the taste of...
loneliness my only ally...
my only reality.
It felt as though I was floating,
drifting aimlessly...without life,
Until his hands found me...
His hands were so soft...gentle...warm,
Reaching me..dragging me into the moonlight,
His eyes were deep...piercing...
I felt for the first time...
that he could see me...
Finally I was not invisible to all,
I remember wanting to kiss him,
Hold him...be with him...
I remember my love swelling,
my heart bursting,
My soul thirsting for the taste of...
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Outcast
I was always an outcast.
always unworthy of love,
this world put me down, it kicked me
stabbed me and watched me bleed.
I always asked...in a voice no one bothered to hear.
why? what have i done? what is my sin?
i built a world of hate around me.
my only wish was to watch this world burn
for they hated me for no reason...
or..i thought there was no reason.
I finally realized why i was unworthy of kindness or love.
i realized it..the day i met him.
how shocked i was! how horrified!
he passed my barriers with ease.
he...
always unworthy of love,
this world put me down, it kicked me
stabbed me and watched me bleed.
I always asked...in a voice no one bothered to hear.
why? what have i done? what is my sin?
i built a world of hate around me.
my only wish was to watch this world burn
for they hated me for no reason...
or..i thought there was no reason.
I finally realized why i was unworthy of kindness or love.
i realized it..the day i met him.
how shocked i was! how horrified!
he passed my barriers with ease.
he...
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Unbound
We are creatures of fate,
bound by logic and reality,
constantly fighting our innate hate with love.
But i have shed those putrid shackles.
those cold, black chains that are reason.
I have abandoned that battle emotions because i see it-
with these eyes-gray, cold eyes that see everything!
Love is a finite, fragile emotion.
merely giving an illusion of power.
It is born with its host,
and dies with its host...
But hatred? Hatred is immortal.
Not bound by humanity,mortality, sanity-
Its free!
it possesses the freedom every bound human...
bound by logic and reality,
constantly fighting our innate hate with love.
But i have shed those putrid shackles.
those cold, black chains that are reason.
I have abandoned that battle emotions because i see it-
with these eyes-gray, cold eyes that see everything!
Love is a finite, fragile emotion.
merely giving an illusion of power.
It is born with its host,
and dies with its host...
But hatred? Hatred is immortal.
Not bound by humanity,mortality, sanity-
Its free!
it possesses the freedom every bound human...
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Whispers To Kill...
"Kill them"
I can hear it...
The voices of the demons..only i can hear...
plaguing me with their plea...
The insidious touch of darkness grips me.
The need to obey is strong...
I'm screaming...my hate grips me...
"We are one with the darkness..."
It is over...it is done.
the room is stained red...
The filthy human bullies lie in grotesque positions...
I smile..."So beautiful..." comes the sensual whisper.
Ahh the art of death...
some with throats slit...others stripped of their insulting tongues.
The...
I can hear it...
The voices of the demons..only i can hear...
plaguing me with their plea...
The insidious touch of darkness grips me.
The need to obey is strong...
I'm screaming...my hate grips me...
"We are one with the darkness..."
It is over...it is done.
the room is stained red...
The filthy human bullies lie in grotesque positions...
I smile..."So beautiful..." comes the sensual whisper.
Ahh the art of death...
some with throats slit...others stripped of their insulting tongues.
The...
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Blackened Tale: My purpose
Everything in this world possess a purpose,
From the grandeur of an eagle in flight,
to the fierce might of a lion,
even the swift cunning of the smallest mouse.
Each being is given the will to survive,
Given a place to belong to.
Each being is given a special piece of reality,
Freedom,strength,survival.
Humans possess all aspects..
But me? I was different....From the beginning.
"Let us celebrate death..."
Even in my youth,I realized i possessed no real purpose,
My will to live,was always tainted,
Twisted around the thorns of...
From the grandeur of an eagle in flight,
to the fierce might of a lion,
even the swift cunning of the smallest mouse.
Each being is given the will to survive,
Given a place to belong to.
Each being is given a special piece of reality,
Freedom,strength,survival.
Humans possess all aspects..
But me? I was different....From the beginning.
"Let us celebrate death..."
Even in my youth,I realized i possessed no real purpose,
My will to live,was always tainted,
Twisted around the thorns of...
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