Submissions by Mstrmnd1923
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
The Heart Attack
God placed judgement on me just now
I walked down the cloud formed steps
The chaotic wind starts to howl
Magnifying my thoughts so complex
My life flashed from end to beginning
As haunting memories circle around
Feeling this weight lift as I descend
Slowly as I'm coming back down
Engulfing flames soothe as they warm
And the crackling gets much louder
Evaporating silence I approach the storm
Surrounded by this white ashy powder
Release my stress and just relax
And enjoy a peaceful quiet night
Reflecting on my...
I walked down the cloud formed steps
The chaotic wind starts to howl
Magnifying my thoughts so complex
My life flashed from end to beginning
As haunting memories circle around
Feeling this weight lift as I descend
Slowly as I'm coming back down
Engulfing flames soothe as they warm
And the crackling gets much louder
Evaporating silence I approach the storm
Surrounded by this white ashy powder
Release my stress and just relax
And enjoy a peaceful quiet night
Reflecting on my...
#confusion
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Bloodshed In My Ghosts Tears I Drown
A haunting figure is stalking me
An apparition of my future
Blending my past and present reality
In these three prisms I'm sutured
In a river of endless red
I'm mesmerized and spellbound
By the impending bloodshed
In my ghost tears I drown
I try to open my eyes
And take heed of his warning
Living this life I despise
Empty emotions without mourning
Do I take this continual path
In this world of hell where I live
Or do I face my God's wrath
And beg him to please forgive
My ghost has all the...
An apparition of my future
Blending my past and present reality
In these three prisms I'm sutured
In a river of endless red
I'm mesmerized and spellbound
By the impending bloodshed
In my ghost tears I drown
I try to open my eyes
And take heed of his warning
Living this life I despise
Empty emotions without mourning
Do I take this continual path
In this world of hell where I live
Or do I face my God's wrath
And beg him to please forgive
My ghost has all the...
#emptiness
#shame
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Sick Roses
Here's this beautiful bouquet of roses
My love for you my heart discloses
Full of vibrant color imagination
The center of any conversation
Red and burgundy color explosion
Symbolic of my love passion and devotion
The white roses some with pink tips
The taste of loyalty and unity on your lips
With purple roses also mixed in
Our love at first sight begins
And these unique roses of the rarest blue
You gave me this true love I never knew
This work of art is my expression
For my love of you without question ...
My love for you my heart discloses
Full of vibrant color imagination
The center of any conversation
Red and burgundy color explosion
Symbolic of my love passion and devotion
The white roses some with pink tips
The taste of loyalty and unity on your lips
With purple roses also mixed in
Our love at first sight begins
And these unique roses of the rarest blue
You gave me this true love I never knew
This work of art is my expression
For my love of you without question ...
#loneliness
#rejection
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Stir Crazy
This restlessness has overcome me
I'm agitated and anxious
And trapped in a world of dark abstraction
I tried to escape my mind
With activities and books
I even tried walking and exercise
Nothing helps
I keep replaying the same thoughts
I spiral deeper
Into the abyss of no return
My thoughts grow darker
I lie awake in this void
My eyes wide open during this nightmare
The voices are getting louder
I can't escape
As I revisit my life
I write for therapy
Maybe that will help
Maybe my vacant thoughts...
I'm agitated and anxious
And trapped in a world of dark abstraction
I tried to escape my mind
With activities and books
I even tried walking and exercise
Nothing helps
I keep replaying the same thoughts
I spiral deeper
Into the abyss of no return
My thoughts grow darker
I lie awake in this void
My eyes wide open during this nightmare
The voices are getting louder
I can't escape
As I revisit my life
I write for therapy
Maybe that will help
Maybe my vacant thoughts...
#anxiety
#emptiness
#loneliness
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My Shadow
My shadow visits me during the day
This beautiful angel my sillohette portrays
He follows me around all day long
Making sure I'm good and do no wrong
He's a great listener when I speak
I confide in him, secrets he keeps
He knows me well and mimics my actions
Comforting my mind he's a great distraction
Come mid day we share the same lunch
He spars with me when life throws a punch
He's watching me so I stay out of trouble
Protecting my innocence when I struggle ...
This beautiful angel my sillohette portrays
He follows me around all day long
Making sure I'm good and do no wrong
He's a great listener when I speak
I confide in him, secrets he keeps
He knows me well and mimics my actions
Comforting my mind he's a great distraction
Come mid day we share the same lunch
He spars with me when life throws a punch
He's watching me so I stay out of trouble
Protecting my innocence when I struggle ...
#dark
#emptiness
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Birthday Candle
Today is the day I will celebrate
My birthday party that exhilarates
All these lonely thoughts on my restless mind
Staggering memories I've left behind
Beginning a new start with this fresh breath
Escaping the past of haunting regret
I'm now at peace with my nightmaric dreams
Now knowing that nothing is as it seems
Sitting at my party I'm all alone
Thoughts I reflect of my futures unknown
Getting ready my special birthday cake
Feeling all this remorse I cannot shake
Another...
My birthday party that exhilarates
All these lonely thoughts on my restless mind
Staggering memories I've left behind
Beginning a new start with this fresh breath
Escaping the past of haunting regret
I'm now at peace with my nightmaric dreams
Now knowing that nothing is as it seems
Sitting at my party I'm all alone
Thoughts I reflect of my futures unknown
Getting ready my special birthday cake
Feeling all this remorse I cannot shake
Another...
#emptiness
#loneliness
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Tombstone 2..My Epitaph
Here lies my remnants and all that remains
The remains of my life freed from the chains
Chains that shackled me to all my mistakes
Mistakes that left my future in its wake
A future that could have been my life lived
A life lived that death could never forgive
Forgiveness answered, I lie here beneath
Beneath this emptiness where I still breathe
A breath of hope for a new beginning
A beginning that's now never ending
Ending my nightmare of terrors and screams
Screams...
The remains of my life freed from the chains
Chains that shackled me to all my mistakes
Mistakes that left my future in its wake
A future that could have been my life lived
A life lived that death could never forgive
Forgiveness answered, I lie here beneath
Beneath this emptiness where I still breathe
A breath of hope for a new beginning
A beginning that's now never ending
Ending my nightmare of terrors and screams
Screams...
#forgiveness
#TimeHeals
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I Am The Storm
My wife just left me
I don't understand why, I provided her everything The house the car everything
She walked out the door
My son doesn't have time for me anymore either Since his mom left he hasn't called or visited He sent me a letter a few weeks ago But I think he's too busy with his family My young new boss wants to change everything
I tried showing him how to do the work
I gave everything to that job ...
I don't understand why, I provided her everything The house the car everything
She walked out the door
My son doesn't have time for me anymore either Since his mom left he hasn't called or visited He sent me a letter a few weeks ago But I think he's too busy with his family My young new boss wants to change everything
I tried showing him how to do the work
I gave everything to that job ...
#emptiness
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The Sickness
I feel okay I feel fine but sometimes
The shadows cloud my thoughts
My confusion somehow combines
Memories that have been sought
Recollection of those details confined
My face cannot hide how fraught
My mind is with its mental decline
And the knowledge I've been taught
My wife is starting to get worried
But I assure her everything's okay
To the doctor she took me hurried
To see if he could examine me today
He does some tests to see how buried
Thoughts and...
The shadows cloud my thoughts
My confusion somehow combines
Memories that have been sought
Recollection of those details confined
My face cannot hide how fraught
My mind is with its mental decline
And the knowledge I've been taught
My wife is starting to get worried
But I assure her everything's okay
To the doctor she took me hurried
To see if he could examine me today
He does some tests to see how buried
Thoughts and...
#despair
#sadness
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Dissociative Identity Disorder
I'm OK but I haven't seen mommy in awhile
Daddy said she went on vacation
She used to always make me smile
She'd hold me and have conversation
Sometimes I get really scared at night
When daddy drinks he gets really mad
I cry and I hold my Teddy tight
Until I feel better and less sad
It hurts when he hits me with his fist
But I know it's because I misbehaved
He then grabs me by my wrists
And tells me everything will be ok
I'm...
Daddy said she went on vacation
She used to always make me smile
She'd hold me and have conversation
Sometimes I get really scared at night
When daddy drinks he gets really mad
I cry and I hold my Teddy tight
Until I feel better and less sad
It hurts when he hits me with his fist
But I know it's because I misbehaved
He then grabs me by my wrists
And tells me everything will be ok
I'm...
#anxiety
#confusion
#loneliness
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Chasm
I feel
Emptiness
Desolation
Hollowness
Exhaustion
Consumed by
Withdrawal
Enstrangement
Annihilation
Surrounded by
Darkness
Blackness
I am
Nothing
Emptiness
Desolation
Hollowness
Exhaustion
Consumed by
Withdrawal
Enstrangement
Annihilation
Surrounded by
Darkness
Blackness
I am
Nothing
#despair
#emptiness
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The Void
A long time ago
I had an emptiness
A void
Darkness filled that void
With dreams of death
I think of suicide every day
Different ways
I want to be original
Creative
Expressive in a unique way
One day
My life is worthless
So why continue
Why live in misery
Why avoid the void
Fate will take its course
The void will consume me
I had an emptiness
A void
Darkness filled that void
With dreams of death
I think of suicide every day
Different ways
I want to be original
Creative
Expressive in a unique way
One day
My life is worthless
So why continue
Why live in misery
Why avoid the void
Fate will take its course
The void will consume me
#emptiness
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