Submissions by MartenHoyle (Vate C. Carmen)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
26th Aug 2022 1:51am
26th Aug 2022 1:51am
Fireflies
Fireflies”
I feel so profoundly disturbed
When I see the rain pouring down
In the sunlight where I am alone
On a walk through the cemetery.
I hear the silent graves weeping
With voices that may be my own.
Am I dying, or have I gone insane?
I hear them say I’ve been talking to myself,
And they all are laughing at the way I look
In such company as I walk along the green.
I never saw the fireflies they mentioned.
But there are shadows in my field,
A deeper dark in the depths of coming night,
Where they say I’ll see...
I feel so profoundly disturbed
When I see the rain pouring down
In the sunlight where I am alone
On a walk through the cemetery.
I hear the silent graves weeping
With voices that may be my own.
Am I dying, or have I gone insane?
I hear them say I’ve been talking to myself,
And they all are laughing at the way I look
In such company as I walk along the green.
I never saw the fireflies they mentioned.
But there are shadows in my field,
A deeper dark in the depths of coming night,
Where they say I’ll see...
#depression
#gay
#LGBT
#MentalHealth
#graveyard
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LOVE POEM
Published
25th Aug 2022 3:47pm
25th Aug 2022 3:47pm
Do You Miss Me
Do You Miss Me”
Spring is the time of the love bird’s song—
The snow that came before I thought would never end.
Summer came, and you had gone away.
I wish I was as dead as I’ve become to you.
Do you miss me when you are feeling hurt?
Do you miss me when nobody holds your hand?
I still sleep sometimes, but then I find an ache:
A terror seizes me in the stillness of the dark…
It says within the night that you will talk to me,
But I will not hear the words you say.
You’ll be like the dead things that speak in the void, ...
Spring is the time of the love bird’s song—
The snow that came before I thought would never end.
Summer came, and you had gone away.
I wish I was as dead as I’ve become to you.
Do you miss me when you are feeling hurt?
Do you miss me when nobody holds your hand?
I still sleep sometimes, but then I find an ache:
A terror seizes me in the stillness of the dark…
It says within the night that you will talk to me,
But I will not hear the words you say.
You’ll be like the dead things that speak in the void, ...
#lesbian
#gay
#LGBT
#transgender
#bisexual
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
24th Aug 2022 5:00pm
24th Aug 2022 5:00pm
The Flowers
The Flowers”
I dreamed that I dreamed about your face,
I want to wake up, and see you’ve come home.
The night you died; you said it hurts to sleep so sound
In a sweet dark so deep just before the moon shone
On the rose petals kissing your gown in a rain of crimson light.
The tears that fell from my eyes on the coffin you became
Watered such bouquets as alas! had begun to wilt.
Coming back to life, they blossomed and blushed
And I swore to return to this garden of death
To keep the flowers from withering away.
Now, the...
I dreamed that I dreamed about your face,
I want to wake up, and see you’ve come home.
The night you died; you said it hurts to sleep so sound
In a sweet dark so deep just before the moon shone
On the rose petals kissing your gown in a rain of crimson light.
The tears that fell from my eyes on the coffin you became
Watered such bouquets as alas! had begun to wilt.
Coming back to life, they blossomed and blushed
And I swore to return to this garden of death
To keep the flowers from withering away.
Now, the...
#gay
#death
#LGBT
#flowers
#graveyard
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
23rd Aug 2022 2:50pm
23rd Aug 2022 2:50pm
When I Was Alone
When I Was Alone”
I asked myself a question,
When I was alone,
The answer was unknown.
I see the people as they come
To the hollow funeral drum.
They come in masks of horror
With voices of distant thunder.
Tell me—are they happy?
Do they know I am sorry?
Can I trust this as a memory?
Are these things that only I see?
Is yesterday what it seems,
Or am I just remembering my dreams?
Lone lives longing to be lost—
Pretty flowers dying in the frost.
When will you ever come home?
Soon, you’ll be a...
I asked myself a question,
When I was alone,
The answer was unknown.
I see the people as they come
To the hollow funeral drum.
They come in masks of horror
With voices of distant thunder.
Tell me—are they happy?
Do they know I am sorry?
Can I trust this as a memory?
Are these things that only I see?
Is yesterday what it seems,
Or am I just remembering my dreams?
Lone lives longing to be lost—
Pretty flowers dying in the frost.
When will you ever come home?
Soon, you’ll be a...
#dark
#gay
#death
#LGBT
#graveyard
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DRUGS POEM
Published
22nd Aug 2022 3:17pm
22nd Aug 2022 3:17pm
I Need Something...
I Need Something…”
…to numb my nerves
I don’t want to feel.
I need something to sever my brain
So that I don’t go insane.
All my friends are prescriptions
Pills…take your pills…
And they aren’t even fun.
I could sell them, but I don’t know anyone.
I need something to kill myself
That is stronger than cigarettes.
I need something to calm my mind.
All my friends are prescriptions
And they do not help me go to sleep.
I know everybody has something wrong with them…
But their problems are not mine, ...
…to numb my nerves
I don’t want to feel.
I need something to sever my brain
So that I don’t go insane.
All my friends are prescriptions
Pills…take your pills…
And they aren’t even fun.
I could sell them, but I don’t know anyone.
I need something to kill myself
That is stronger than cigarettes.
I need something to calm my mind.
All my friends are prescriptions
And they do not help me go to sleep.
I know everybody has something wrong with them…
But their problems are not mine, ...
#lesbian
#gay
#LGBT
#transgender
#bisexual
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LOVE POEM
Published
21st Aug 2022 11:04pm
21st Aug 2022 11:04pm
Another Time, Another Place
Another Time Another Place”
O! Lover mine, you hate me enough to love me,
Just as I love you enough to hate myself.
O! Why did you change so dramatically
Into what I always knew you would be?
I knew it from the start that you would break my heart
But I denied myself the decency of your fidelity.
What was said never could be undone—
I remember the signs and the warnings
That I chose to deny in silent suffering.
It was better not to be lonely than it was to be happy.
It was easier to deserve you
Than it was to deserve...
O! Lover mine, you hate me enough to love me,
Just as I love you enough to hate myself.
O! Why did you change so dramatically
Into what I always knew you would be?
I knew it from the start that you would break my heart
But I denied myself the decency of your fidelity.
What was said never could be undone—
I remember the signs and the warnings
That I chose to deny in silent suffering.
It was better not to be lonely than it was to be happy.
It was easier to deserve you
Than it was to deserve...
#lesbian
#gay
#LGBT
#transgender
#bisexual
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LOVE POEM
Published
21st Aug 2022 4:04pm
21st Aug 2022 4:04pm
Summer
Summer”
All these summers to come,
Lining up for you and me.
There go the breezes through the leaves.
There go all of our summers…
I never wanted them.
Our eyes drift to one another,
As if waiting for their turn to cry.
You see tomorrow in mine
I see yesterday fading away—
But for a time, you were my faith:
My orisons to the Heaven in your heart.
But there go the breezes through the leaves,
There go all of our summers…
I never wanted them.
Sometimes I think of what could be,
I cannot control my...
All these summers to come,
Lining up for you and me.
There go the breezes through the leaves.
There go all of our summers…
I never wanted them.
Our eyes drift to one another,
As if waiting for their turn to cry.
You see tomorrow in mine
I see yesterday fading away—
But for a time, you were my faith:
My orisons to the Heaven in your heart.
But there go the breezes through the leaves,
There go all of our summers…
I never wanted them.
Sometimes I think of what could be,
I cannot control my...
#lesbian
#gay
#LGBT
#transgender
#bisexual
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LOVE POEM
Published
14th Aug 2022 9:14pm
14th Aug 2022 9:14pm
Pestilence
Pestilence”
I have not drifted over my Haven of ruins
For fragility to wake me while I’m dreaming.
What are all the reasons for the sunshine
Of this beautiful day inside my mind?
It’s a magical scene that I had locked away
Through veils of rain that some call tears,
And, quite by accident, it has dawned on me today,
For I see the door has been opened on the tomb
Where I have tried so hard to bury this willful pestilence.
What has dragged our souls across the haunted glass?
Soundly slumbering in the forbidden kiss of such...
I have not drifted over my Haven of ruins
For fragility to wake me while I’m dreaming.
What are all the reasons for the sunshine
Of this beautiful day inside my mind?
It’s a magical scene that I had locked away
Through veils of rain that some call tears,
And, quite by accident, it has dawned on me today,
For I see the door has been opened on the tomb
Where I have tried so hard to bury this willful pestilence.
What has dragged our souls across the haunted glass?
Soundly slumbering in the forbidden kiss of such...
#lesbian
#gay
#LGBT
#transgender
#bisexual
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
13th Aug 2022 4:01pm
13th Aug 2022 4:01pm
Mirage
Mirage”
All the trees are dying.
All the tears are falling now.
The river is dry and without souls.
Can you see where they drowned—
Where they tried to pull me down?
Their faces haunt my sleep.
I cannot forget what I have done.
Even if I turned back the time
I could not stop these beings
From between the dreams and the world
As they remind me of errors I cannot let go.
All the trees are dying,
Though autumn has not come.
It’s just another future
I wish I could run from.
Who would guide me
Through...
All the trees are dying.
All the tears are falling now.
The river is dry and without souls.
Can you see where they drowned—
Where they tried to pull me down?
Their faces haunt my sleep.
I cannot forget what I have done.
Even if I turned back the time
I could not stop these beings
From between the dreams and the world
As they remind me of errors I cannot let go.
All the trees are dying,
Though autumn has not come.
It’s just another future
I wish I could run from.
Who would guide me
Through...
#regret
#LGBT
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
12th Aug 2022 6:18pm
12th Aug 2022 6:18pm
FROM A POST ON DEVIANT ART
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https://www.deviantart.com/martenhoyle
This is an announcement post I just made on my DeviantArt platform.
My Poetry Trilogy, SYMPHONIYA DE TOSKA has been accepted for publication by Wheelsong Books.
What happened was, Steve Wheeler (who runs Wheelsong Books) had approached me about possibly publishing my work. I sent it to him and he sent me an acceptance letter. However, the book(s) will not appear in the form of a trilogy but as a poetry chapter book in three acts: Something akin the actual...
https://www.deviantart.com/martenhoyle
This is an announcement post I just made on my DeviantArt platform.
My Poetry Trilogy, SYMPHONIYA DE TOSKA has been accepted for publication by Wheelsong Books.
What happened was, Steve Wheeler (who runs Wheelsong Books) had approached me about possibly publishing my work. I sent it to him and he sent me an acceptance letter. However, the book(s) will not appear in the form of a trilogy but as a poetry chapter book in three acts: Something akin the actual...
#WritingPoetry
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LOVE POEM
Published
9th Aug 2022 2:55pm
9th Aug 2022 2:55pm
Lanterns
Lanterns”
I want to dream about you
As you dream of me.
But you fade away
Like a faint lantern
Falling from space
Into the dews of high grasses
Where the light will die.
I want to be brave
And face the thunders
Of the rising storm
That sails o’er the seas
Separating you from me.
I see the lanterns by the seaside,
As of pale dreams descending upon me
While in the distance, the lightning
Surrounds you in your sleep
Where you say I have come to you—
While the truth is standing...
I want to dream about you
As you dream of me.
But you fade away
Like a faint lantern
Falling from space
Into the dews of high grasses
Where the light will die.
I want to be brave
And face the thunders
Of the rising storm
That sails o’er the seas
Separating you from me.
I see the lanterns by the seaside,
As of pale dreams descending upon me
While in the distance, the lightning
Surrounds you in your sleep
Where you say I have come to you—
While the truth is standing...
#lesbian
#gay
#LGBT
#transgender
#bisexual
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
7th Aug 2022 4:21pm
7th Aug 2022 4:21pm
Ever After
Ever After”
If I find my Ever After
Will there be flowers on my bedside?
And will I say that I love you that I love you
One last time, while I feel just a little afraid
That I could not cry while you were facing me?
Forgive me!
I have forgotten myself in the dewdrops—
The dews of midnight—
And like the seasons, my heart has changed.
There remains the palest, autumn sky;
A perpetual chill I cannot survive,
For lone is the way into the quiet Earth;
The frost has opened beneath the starless night.
Behold! ...
If I find my Ever After
Will there be flowers on my bedside?
And will I say that I love you that I love you
One last time, while I feel just a little afraid
That I could not cry while you were facing me?
Forgive me!
I have forgotten myself in the dewdrops—
The dews of midnight—
And like the seasons, my heart has changed.
There remains the palest, autumn sky;
A perpetual chill I cannot survive,
For lone is the way into the quiet Earth;
The frost has opened beneath the starless night.
Behold! ...
#lesbian
#gay
#LGBT
#transgender
#bisexual
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