Submissions by MThorne (Margaret)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
All though I have been writing off and on for a couple years it wasn't until recently that I started to get serious about my work.
Insanity
I didn't want to be here again. I didn't want to feel confused, alone, and cold. There is so much going on around me and only gets worse in my head. In my head that's when all the different sounds and sensations happen that I have no control of. I can control what's going on around me physically but I have no control of what's going on in my head.
I can't tell them to keep it down or stop saying those harmful things about yourself. That you better than that when I say it though they only laugh at me. Which hurts my feelings which makes me turn away and hide wishing that I wasn't...
I can't tell them to keep it down or stop saying those harmful things about yourself. That you better than that when I say it though they only laugh at me. Which hurts my feelings which makes me turn away and hide wishing that I wasn't...
#regret
#hate
#dark
#emptiness
#fear
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This is me
I'm not alone yet I constantly feel as though I am.
I like meeting new people even though I don't trust anyone including myself.
I have mixed emotions from watching everyone around me turn into people they said they would never be.
I love to talk all though I'll ignore you till it drives you insane.
I love with everything I am remember though I hate the same way.
I like meeting new people even though I don't trust anyone including myself.
I have mixed emotions from watching everyone around me turn into people they said they would never be.
I love to talk all though I'll ignore you till it drives you insane.
I love with everything I am remember though I hate the same way.
#strength
#myself
#SelfReflection #SelfDiscovery
#SelfReflection #SelfDiscovery
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I
I wish I knew the words to say to help ease your troubled mind.
I wish I knew what to say to replace your frown with a smile.
I wish I knew what to say to bring out the old you and not see this imposter.
Since I can't find the words to say I'll simply say ~I'm sorry~
I'm sorry you have had a week you only wish you can forget but in reality you know you won't be able to.
I'm so deeply sorry I'm no enough to be able to bring you back.
I wish I knew what to say to replace your frown with a smile.
I wish I knew what to say to bring out the old you and not see this imposter.
Since I can't find the words to say I'll simply say ~I'm sorry~
I'm sorry you have had a week you only wish you can forget but in reality you know you won't be able to.
I'm so deeply sorry I'm no enough to be able to bring you back.
#sadness
#relationships
#ImSorry
#confusion
#emotions
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I Am
I am the type of person that will push others away then beg them to stay as they are leaving.
I am also the type of person when shown a really good idea my face and voice says thats a good idea or that's awesome when in turn on the inside I'm completely pissed off at myself for not thinking of it first.
I will complain about other people doing something or saying something that's odd only to turn around later on and do the same thing.
I tell my kids not to listen to an artist or song then you'll hear me Jam to it the next week.
I hate when people can't shut up yet with a...
I am also the type of person when shown a really good idea my face and voice says thats a good idea or that's awesome when in turn on the inside I'm completely pissed off at myself for not thinking of it first.
I will complain about other people doing something or saying something that's odd only to turn around later on and do the same thing.
I tell my kids not to listen to an artist or song then you'll hear me Jam to it the next week.
I hate when people can't shut up yet with a...
#myself
#SelfReflection
#SelfDiscovery #SelfWorth
#SelfDiscovery #SelfWorth
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Help
I dont wanna give up.
I dont wanna lose you.
I'm not the type if person to give up on anyone.
I'm not the type of person to just throw in the towel.
Your my child and you have my grand daughter and I love you both more than life itself.
I wish you could see what he is doing to us. Keeping you from calling home and he wont let you speak to anyone at all. He is keeping your cell phone so you can't use it and he is keeping your location secret so I cant even see you or give you a hug.
I don't know what to do but I feel like I am morning the death of a child...
I dont wanna lose you.
I'm not the type if person to give up on anyone.
I'm not the type of person to just throw in the towel.
Your my child and you have my grand daughter and I love you both more than life itself.
I wish you could see what he is doing to us. Keeping you from calling home and he wont let you speak to anyone at all. He is keeping your cell phone so you can't use it and he is keeping your location secret so I cant even see you or give you a hug.
I don't know what to do but I feel like I am morning the death of a child...
#grief
#family
#LifeStruggles
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Disappearing ashes
I'm standing in the middle of a room filled with everyone I love and everything I have worked to achieve over the years.
One by one my loved ones have disappeared and everything I have achieved turns to ash and blows away in the Wind.
I go to run to help someone maybe bring them back only to find myself Frozen to the floor.
One by one I'm losing them and everything else. I go to scream but nothing is heard when I open my mouth.
I am Frozen and silenced powerless watching my life disappear and there isn't anything I can do besides turn to Ash and Blow Away With the Wind.
One by one my loved ones have disappeared and everything I have achieved turns to ash and blows away in the Wind.
I go to run to help someone maybe bring them back only to find myself Frozen to the floor.
One by one I'm losing them and everything else. I go to scream but nothing is heard when I open my mouth.
I am Frozen and silenced powerless watching my life disappear and there isn't anything I can do besides turn to Ash and Blow Away With the Wind.
#anxiety
#depression
#LifeStruggles
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What can I do
When I speak my words get twisted and bent.
The words are somehow changed into ones that are more cruel and evil then I would say.
Yet, if I don't speak my silence somehow says the same thing.
The words are somehow changed into ones that are more cruel and evil then I would say.
Yet, if I don't speak my silence somehow says the same thing.
#frustration
#confusion
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I can wish
I can wish for you to be here.
Right next to me as I tell you about my broken heart and what they are doing this time.
I can wish to hear your words of wisdom.
I can wish to feel your friendly hug that seemed to take everything away.
I can wish in reality though it wont bring you down from heavens gate. So I am wondering what to do know.
Right next to me as I tell you about my broken heart and what they are doing this time.
I can wish to hear your words of wisdom.
I can wish to feel your friendly hug that seemed to take everything away.
I can wish in reality though it wont bring you down from heavens gate. So I am wondering what to do know.
#death
#IMissYou
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How can I
How can I help you when you wont answer my calls?
How can I help you when you insist on telling lies?
How can I help you when all you do is run from your problems?
How can I help you when your being selfish?
How can I help you when you refuse to listen to the truth and only believe the lies in your head?
I want to help you but how can I? I'm the only person that has truly been here for you and now your shutting me out. I cant help you unless you wake up and want me to help you.
How can I help you when you insist on telling lies?
How can I help you when all you do is run from your problems?
How can I help you when your being selfish?
How can I help you when you refuse to listen to the truth and only believe the lies in your head?
I want to help you but how can I? I'm the only person that has truly been here for you and now your shutting me out. I cant help you unless you wake up and want me to help you.
#sadness
#heartbroken
#frustration
#confusion
#emptiness
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4 Comments
Lost in the mist
Feeling lost is the worst feeling in the world and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
It feels like I'm walking around not being able to see anything.
There are times I simply want to matter to someone...anyone.
I try to reach out to others, its just that I dont get anything back. When this happens it makes everything a lot worse.
Then the feeling of being lost gets mixed with the feeling of being invisible.
There are days when I wonder if there is anyone out there that wants to talk to me as much as I want to talk to them.
I scream out to anyone only to hear...
It feels like I'm walking around not being able to see anything.
There are times I simply want to matter to someone...anyone.
I try to reach out to others, its just that I dont get anything back. When this happens it makes everything a lot worse.
Then the feeling of being lost gets mixed with the feeling of being invisible.
There are days when I wonder if there is anyone out there that wants to talk to me as much as I want to talk to them.
I scream out to anyone only to hear...
#anxiety
#depression
#LifeStruggles #FeelingLost
#LifeStruggles #FeelingLost
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Struggle
I struggle with the thought of not being good enough.
Good enough to be seen or even noticed by anyone.
I struggle with wanting to hear others talking to me instead of only hearing their silence.
I struggle to keep my thoughts good instead of having my thoughts turn evil and trying to convince me everyone secretly hates me.
I struggle with am I good enough or if I should succumb to my evil thoughts and let them win.
Good enough to be seen or even noticed by anyone.
I struggle with wanting to hear others talking to me instead of only hearing their silence.
I struggle to keep my thoughts good instead of having my thoughts turn evil and trying to convince me everyone secretly hates me.
I struggle with am I good enough or if I should succumb to my evil thoughts and let them win.
#anxiety
#loneliness
#denial #emptiness
#denial #emptiness
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Mist
There are times I simply want to matter to someone.....anyone.
There are days when I wonder if there is anyone out there that wants to talk to me as much as I want to talk to them.
I wonder if it's only me walking through this endless gray cloud alone.
I wonder if anyone will see me thru this heavy gray cloud or if I'll disappear within it. To be ever alone missing ones that dont miss me, not to talk to anyone since they wouldn't notice me gone anyway.
This endless heavy gray cloud is eating me alive. I used to ask if anyone would save me. Now I am left to wonder...
There are days when I wonder if there is anyone out there that wants to talk to me as much as I want to talk to them.
I wonder if it's only me walking through this endless gray cloud alone.
I wonder if anyone will see me thru this heavy gray cloud or if I'll disappear within it. To be ever alone missing ones that dont miss me, not to talk to anyone since they wouldn't notice me gone anyway.
This endless heavy gray cloud is eating me alive. I used to ask if anyone would save me. Now I am left to wonder...
#depression
#loneliness
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