Submissions by Liziantus-Marantus (Ivelina Boneva)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Sep 2022 4:07pm
22nd Sep 2022 4:07pm
Painful Memories
I really tried to communicate. But your behavior seemed so fake.
I told you I love you,but you didn't reply.
I guess all of it was just a lie.
I needed your help and you went away to fly.
That gave me a hard time,and so I cry.
Maybe my whole life was a lie.
You came and put jewels on my head.
I felt special,a bond,I wept.
But you stole the crown and gave it to another.
All night, I cried to my mother.
But even she didn't understand the pain I felt.
At the end,all I did was melt. And so then he came
,and...
I told you I love you,but you didn't reply.
I guess all of it was just a lie.
I needed your help and you went away to fly.
That gave me a hard time,and so I cry.
Maybe my whole life was a lie.
You came and put jewels on my head.
I felt special,a bond,I wept.
But you stole the crown and gave it to another.
All night, I cried to my mother.
But even she didn't understand the pain I felt.
At the end,all I did was melt. And so then he came
,and...
#depression
#forgiveness
#heartbroken
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SELF POEM
Published
8th Sep 2022 9:12am
8th Sep 2022 9:12am
Sailing Sadness
I traveled all over the seas. Yet you are saying I'm making scenes.
My mind is beyond repair. I breathed so much of that dangerous air,
now I am in the middle of nowhere. I may not be stable ,so beware.
But that does not mean I'm not a good person.
I can be obsessive,and I know the reason.
But forgive me if I hurt you. I didn't mean to hurt you.
The sky just isn't clear today. I tried to hide and run away.
But the storm got me,so I start to decay.
Oh, help me find the way to happiness.
I am lost in the woods of depression....
My mind is beyond repair. I breathed so much of that dangerous air,
now I am in the middle of nowhere. I may not be stable ,so beware.
But that does not mean I'm not a good person.
I can be obsessive,and I know the reason.
But forgive me if I hurt you. I didn't mean to hurt you.
The sky just isn't clear today. I tried to hide and run away.
But the storm got me,so I start to decay.
Oh, help me find the way to happiness.
I am lost in the woods of depression....
#sadness
#depression
#dark #emotions
#dark #emotions
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SELF POEM
Published
3rd Sep 2022 1:29pm
3rd Sep 2022 1:29pm
Traveling Emotions
My heart is traveling on the side avenue. Will I stumble upon love?
I don't know,it's true. One day I will be able to see through emotions.
But before that, I must figure out my own emotions.
I mustn't take shortcuts on the way.
I'm trying to keep the toxic people away.
I've spent time doing this night and day.
My legs hurt from walking all that way.
A shadow appeared on the light of day.
This made the air feel toxic,so help me run away.
Because I may never see the light, starting from today.
This is making me crazy,...
I don't know,it's true. One day I will be able to see through emotions.
But before that, I must figure out my own emotions.
I mustn't take shortcuts on the way.
I'm trying to keep the toxic people away.
I've spent time doing this night and day.
My legs hurt from walking all that way.
A shadow appeared on the light of day.
This made the air feel toxic,so help me run away.
Because I may never see the light, starting from today.
This is making me crazy,...
#depression
#emotions
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SELF POEM
Published
24th Aug 2022 5:45pm
24th Aug 2022 5:45pm
My Mental Wounds
I hopped on the train with a heart full of pain.
I followed the direction of gain and fame.
Only to realise nobody cares about my pain.
The rain hit me like a rock on the head.
It burned my skin with its acid. I ate meat and cherries to stop it.
I can't, and I didn't even realise it. I wore a black cape to hide it.
I wasn't even proud of it. But once, I had loved it.
But that shattered into pieces.
My mind is like a puzzle with a lot of pieces.
None even tried to put it together.
I feel like I'll be alone forever. I was...
I followed the direction of gain and fame.
Only to realise nobody cares about my pain.
The rain hit me like a rock on the head.
It burned my skin with its acid. I ate meat and cherries to stop it.
I can't, and I didn't even realise it. I wore a black cape to hide it.
I wasn't even proud of it. But once, I had loved it.
But that shattered into pieces.
My mind is like a puzzle with a lot of pieces.
None even tried to put it together.
I feel like I'll be alone forever. I was...
#sadness
#depression
#dark
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SELF POEM
Published
16th Aug 2022 5:17pm
16th Aug 2022 5:17pm
Fake Promises
I followed your direction. Now I understand I have no choice,
but to do a dissection. I was active at sports.
Now around me are broken pots. To relieve the pain, I took shots.
Shots with an emotional spark.
Now everything is getting blurry and dark.
I just want light,or a spark. I lost a lot of weight.
Oh, all the tears I shed. I didn't want to be made.
All I wanted was the friendship I create.
But nature stopped me from my fate. Everything I created shattered.
It's like I never mattered. I was obedient,your slave.
Now...
but to do a dissection. I was active at sports.
Now around me are broken pots. To relieve the pain, I took shots.
Shots with an emotional spark.
Now everything is getting blurry and dark.
I just want light,or a spark. I lost a lot of weight.
Oh, all the tears I shed. I didn't want to be made.
All I wanted was the friendship I create.
But nature stopped me from my fate. Everything I created shattered.
It's like I never mattered. I was obedient,your slave.
Now...
#sadness
#depression
#heartbroken
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Aug 2022 2:29pm
7th Aug 2022 2:29pm
Choker Of Emotions
You replaced me the moment you thought I'm boring.
A trauma is what is forming. Now all my bones are broken.
You choked me with your lies. None hears my cries,
Even if they are in the same boat. You broke my heart in two.
I thought you loved me too. But I guess I can't see through.
I was a fool for your love. Oh,it's making me mad.
You thought my material is cheap. Now every night I weep.
In my soul,the thoughts I sweep. But I can't listen to this song no more.
In my heart, it's making a hole. And nothing can fill it all.
...
A trauma is what is forming. Now all my bones are broken.
You choked me with your lies. None hears my cries,
Even if they are in the same boat. You broke my heart in two.
I thought you loved me too. But I guess I can't see through.
I was a fool for your love. Oh,it's making me mad.
You thought my material is cheap. Now every night I weep.
In my soul,the thoughts I sweep. But I can't listen to this song no more.
In my heart, it's making a hole. And nothing can fill it all.
...
#depression
#heartbroken
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Aug 2022 3:38pm
2nd Aug 2022 3:38pm
Demons Of My Heart
I told you that's not what I like. But you told me already to fight.
Your sentences broke my heart into three.
Oh, will I ever flee? You thought I'm stupid,but that's not how it is.
I had to drink venom on a daily basis. Now I can't recognize the voices.
I only hear screeching noises. The voices were pleasent,
now they are death threats. I just want my happiness to return.
But instead I tend to burn. My lip hurts from all the biting.
There's no point of fighting, if nobody's on my side.
I'm lost in space and there's no air to breathe. ...
Your sentences broke my heart into three.
Oh, will I ever flee? You thought I'm stupid,but that's not how it is.
I had to drink venom on a daily basis. Now I can't recognize the voices.
I only hear screeching noises. The voices were pleasent,
now they are death threats. I just want my happiness to return.
But instead I tend to burn. My lip hurts from all the biting.
There's no point of fighting, if nobody's on my side.
I'm lost in space and there's no air to breathe. ...
#depression
#loneliness
#heartbroken
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SELF POEM
Published
28th Jul 2022 3:34pm
28th Jul 2022 3:34pm
Edge Of Nostalgia
You scribbled over my heart. And so I lost my chart.
I was afraid to lose you,and here I am - standing on the edge of a cliff
and ready to jump. The blossoms of my soul died in the dark.
They have pieces of my broken heart.
I leaned onto you and you made me fall on my back.
Your hug felt like an emotional spark. But then life pulled us apart.
We were like peanut butter and jelly.
Now everyone thinks I'm crazy. But they didn't even let me explain.
i am just in a lot of pain. There's nothing you can gain.
Every word I say...
I was afraid to lose you,and here I am - standing on the edge of a cliff
and ready to jump. The blossoms of my soul died in the dark.
They have pieces of my broken heart.
I leaned onto you and you made me fall on my back.
Your hug felt like an emotional spark. But then life pulled us apart.
We were like peanut butter and jelly.
Now everyone thinks I'm crazy. But they didn't even let me explain.
i am just in a lot of pain. There's nothing you can gain.
Every word I say...
#depression
#memories
#nostalgia
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Jul 2022 3:12pm
22nd Jul 2022 3:12pm
Tree Of Lies
You thought I am odd. But you got it wrong.
It's not a decision I made. It was just my fate.
I isolated myself in a shed of tears. Nobody ever knocked on the door.
They just destroyed the portal home.
I lived in glitter and sparkle all day.
Now I can't keep the monsters away.
I awaited all day for emotional touch.
Only to realise none cares much. My trauma was visible,sure.
But they made me feel insecure about it.
They should have been supportive about it.
A tree ,rich of fruits grew on my head.
So they cut it...
It's not a decision I made. It was just my fate.
I isolated myself in a shed of tears. Nobody ever knocked on the door.
They just destroyed the portal home.
I lived in glitter and sparkle all day.
Now I can't keep the monsters away.
I awaited all day for emotional touch.
Only to realise none cares much. My trauma was visible,sure.
But they made me feel insecure about it.
They should have been supportive about it.
A tree ,rich of fruits grew on my head.
So they cut it...
#depression
#dark
#death
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SELF POEM
Published
18th Jul 2022 2:24pm
18th Jul 2022 2:24pm
Black Roses Inside Me
You might be hot,but your soul is not.
inside you are hideos and rotten. Don't worry,you won't be forgotten.
In my heart,this memory will bleed through my organs.
Because you made my blood run black. Now in my skull is a crack.
I keep it hidden under a smile. Healing is going to take a while.
I stepped in dirt and now my shoes are dirty.
Of my trust you are not worthy. In my heart,black roses grew.
But I won't reveal it to you. I refuse to get the roses burnt.
It's going to leave a scar in my soul.
And there will be a...
inside you are hideos and rotten. Don't worry,you won't be forgotten.
In my heart,this memory will bleed through my organs.
Because you made my blood run black. Now in my skull is a crack.
I keep it hidden under a smile. Healing is going to take a while.
I stepped in dirt and now my shoes are dirty.
Of my trust you are not worthy. In my heart,black roses grew.
But I won't reveal it to you. I refuse to get the roses burnt.
It's going to leave a scar in my soul.
And there will be a...
#depression
#heartbroken
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Jul 2022 3:00pm
11th Jul 2022 3:00pm
Mute Soul
I was late to the party,so I had no rights. I'm silent and I couldn't fight.
Why didn't you treat me right?
The ground was rock hard,so was my heart.
But now I live in the dark. It seems it's affection I lack.
I was being stabbed in the back. I didn't mean to hurt you.
Know it,I really need you. i wish I could be around you.
I didn't mean to crack you. I'm just lonely without you.
And now it began to evolve. My whole heart dissolved.
Please,tap that heart. You won't regret the result.
Just free me from this cage of wood....
Why didn't you treat me right?
The ground was rock hard,so was my heart.
But now I live in the dark. It seems it's affection I lack.
I was being stabbed in the back. I didn't mean to hurt you.
Know it,I really need you. i wish I could be around you.
I didn't mean to crack you. I'm just lonely without you.
And now it began to evolve. My whole heart dissolved.
Please,tap that heart. You won't regret the result.
Just free me from this cage of wood....
#sadness
#depression
#dark #heartbroken
#dark #heartbroken
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SELF POEM
Published
6th Jul 2022 10:28am
6th Jul 2022 10:28am
Mask Of Loneliness
I took the seat and it had a stain. But I didn't feel any pain.
Now I am living in vain. i feasted on the fruit of life,
but now I can''t even bite it. Behind the scene is a land of hope.
But why can't I cope? I lived in a house of flowers and plants.
Now I don't even feel romance. I dared to step up and speak,
but that made me weak. I was a slave to dreams and desires.
Now I can't connect the wires. I hid under a mask of shame,
but underneath is pain. I hesitated to join a group,
now my life is a loop. I was shot in the heart by...
Now I am living in vain. i feasted on the fruit of life,
but now I can''t even bite it. Behind the scene is a land of hope.
But why can't I cope? I lived in a house of flowers and plants.
Now I don't even feel romance. I dared to step up and speak,
but that made me weak. I was a slave to dreams and desires.
Now I can't connect the wires. I hid under a mask of shame,
but underneath is pain. I hesitated to join a group,
now my life is a loop. I was shot in the heart by...
#depression
#loneliness
#betrayal
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