Submissions by Liziantus-Marantus (Ivelina Boneva)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
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SELF POEM
Published
20th Feb 2023 12:50pm
20th Feb 2023 12:50pm
Once Upon Another Land
I swimmed in the sea of tears and regret.
Nobody believed it,no matter how much I shed.
And so I seeked comfort from my bed.
Waiting for it to take me to another land.
A place with magic,happiness and worry free.
Where characters act with sympathy like they understand me.
Where I'm happy,and nobody tries to blame me.
Or even,shame me for emotions I have no control over.
I don't want to feel like this no longer.
I don't want to bottle it up any longer.
Because I may explode like a bomb of built up trauma.
I have only my...
Nobody believed it,no matter how much I shed.
And so I seeked comfort from my bed.
Waiting for it to take me to another land.
A place with magic,happiness and worry free.
Where characters act with sympathy like they understand me.
Where I'm happy,and nobody tries to blame me.
Or even,shame me for emotions I have no control over.
I don't want to feel like this no longer.
I don't want to bottle it up any longer.
Because I may explode like a bomb of built up trauma.
I have only my...
#depression
#regret
#ImSorry
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Feb 2023 12:53pm
7th Feb 2023 12:53pm
The Person My Heart Needs
A font so beautiful,now so bold.
I wish I had a hand to hold.
Someone to guide me through the night.
Someone to make me feel less fright.
And maybe,to return my pride.
This is the kind of person I seek.
Somebody to hang out all week.
Just so i can feel less weak.
Somebody to talk,listen and chat.
No matter what what the topic
between us is. I won't judge you,
no matter what you do.
I just want to hold someone's hand,
that's true.
No matter your race.
No matter your interests or face. ...
I wish I had a hand to hold.
Someone to guide me through the night.
Someone to make me feel less fright.
And maybe,to return my pride.
This is the kind of person I seek.
Somebody to hang out all week.
Just so i can feel less weak.
Somebody to talk,listen and chat.
No matter what what the topic
between us is. I won't judge you,
no matter what you do.
I just want to hold someone's hand,
that's true.
No matter your race.
No matter your interests or face. ...
#depression
#loneliness
#emptiness
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Jan 2023 3:43pm
27th Jan 2023 3:43pm
Hopes Of Emptiness
The pot so beautiful is now shattered like a wine glass.
The paint had been worked on for years.
Now it's destroyed by fears.
The paint had been wiped by the tears she shed.
Maybe even all the promises she kept.
She could no longer keep it in her head.
And so an explosion of monsters and fears was made.
Wiping the smiles off people she had once loved.
Wiping the memories of the ones she still loved.
All of a sudden,they started acting strange.
Smiles and laughter is something they could no longer exchange.
And...
The paint had been worked on for years.
Now it's destroyed by fears.
The paint had been wiped by the tears she shed.
Maybe even all the promises she kept.
She could no longer keep it in her head.
And so an explosion of monsters and fears was made.
Wiping the smiles off people she had once loved.
Wiping the memories of the ones she still loved.
All of a sudden,they started acting strange.
Smiles and laughter is something they could no longer exchange.
And...
#depression
#betrayal
#emptiness
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
19th Jan 2023 12:50pm
19th Jan 2023 12:50pm
Monster Behind Truth
My feelings seem to be a mess.
It doesn't matter how I dress.
I'm craving something,I must confess.
I'm craving a feeling of being loved, happy and safe.
I will do whatever it takes.
Even if I go across mountains and lakes.
No matter what I face.
No matter if to you I may be a disgrace.
I must find a familiar face.
Someone who has a warm embrace.
I hate to say this,but there's nobody this true.
You don't know what is hiding behind the truth.
There's a monster hiding behind.
A...
It doesn't matter how I dress.
I'm craving something,I must confess.
I'm craving a feeling of being loved, happy and safe.
I will do whatever it takes.
Even if I go across mountains and lakes.
No matter what I face.
No matter if to you I may be a disgrace.
I must find a familiar face.
Someone who has a warm embrace.
I hate to say this,but there's nobody this true.
You don't know what is hiding behind the truth.
There's a monster hiding behind.
A...
#dark
#honesty
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SELF POEM
Published
19th Jan 2023 12:37pm
19th Jan 2023 12:37pm
Butterfly Of Loneliness
Outside,I saw a butterfly.
She was too shy to fly.
""But what if I fail?"", she said as she wept diamonds.
She spread her wings and fell on the ground.
It seems her hope is nowhere to be found.
Then she met a ladybug,that helped her up to fly.
She said,"" Trust me,just try!"".
But again,hope was nowhere to be found.
Someone had turned it into ashes on the ground.
None of her color is left, or found.
Now the butterfly wanders the cold forest all alone.
Waiting to feel an emotion that is warm.
Up in...
She was too shy to fly.
""But what if I fail?"", she said as she wept diamonds.
She spread her wings and fell on the ground.
It seems her hope is nowhere to be found.
Then she met a ladybug,that helped her up to fly.
She said,"" Trust me,just try!"".
But again,hope was nowhere to be found.
Someone had turned it into ashes on the ground.
None of her color is left, or found.
Now the butterfly wanders the cold forest all alone.
Waiting to feel an emotion that is warm.
Up in...
#loneliness
#emptiness
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Jan 2023 1:55pm
10th Jan 2023 1:55pm
Illusion Of His Presence
You abandoned me at my worst,
when you should have gotten to know me first.
My throat is dry,and so i feel thirst.
But no words can fullfill that thirst.
I have to get my affection first.
But who will give that to me,when nobody has done that in years?
""It's new year!"", they said as they cheered.
While I still have nobody near me.
Angel guardian,can you hear me?
I asked as I shouted in the sky.
But i didn't get no reply. Just the wind blowing in my hair.
Do you even truly care? Was my past even fair?
...
when you should have gotten to know me first.
My throat is dry,and so i feel thirst.
But no words can fullfill that thirst.
I have to get my affection first.
But who will give that to me,when nobody has done that in years?
""It's new year!"", they said as they cheered.
While I still have nobody near me.
Angel guardian,can you hear me?
I asked as I shouted in the sky.
But i didn't get no reply. Just the wind blowing in my hair.
Do you even truly care? Was my past even fair?
...
#loneliness
#emptiness
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SELF POEM
Published
31st Dec 2022 12:29pm
31st Dec 2022 12:29pm
Good Old TImes
All I wanted was for you to return.
My loneliness is starting to burn.
It's eating my feelings out tonight.
But how am I still alive?
My insides are covered in rashes and pain.
Yet,I can still enjoy the rain.
Let the rain sounds cleanse me right and through.
But they can't heal everything,that is true.
No matter how much cream I apply to the wound,
when I see you,I will cry harder than a wolf.
I struggle to show my emotions right away.
But I need you,so please let me stay.
If I have to,I will buy you...
My loneliness is starting to burn.
It's eating my feelings out tonight.
But how am I still alive?
My insides are covered in rashes and pain.
Yet,I can still enjoy the rain.
Let the rain sounds cleanse me right and through.
But they can't heal everything,that is true.
No matter how much cream I apply to the wound,
when I see you,I will cry harder than a wolf.
I struggle to show my emotions right away.
But I need you,so please let me stay.
If I have to,I will buy you...
#depression
#memories
#nostalgia
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SELF POEM
Published
20th Dec 2022 2:22pm
20th Dec 2022 2:22pm
Jail Of Emotions
I learned to like you as I rode my bike.
Didn't know it will turn into an emotional fight.
I thought to myself, ""Maybe he loves me."".
And then I started to cry. ""Lies,he's telling lies!"",
I said as I tried not to cry.
Emotional support is something he never tried to give.
And now it's making it really hard to live.
Even the lightest stab can make me want to die.
Afterwards, I struggle to feel emotion. It's like I am stuck,
Frozen in time. To the past,i can't even say goodbye.
It made a large hole in my heart....
Didn't know it will turn into an emotional fight.
I thought to myself, ""Maybe he loves me."".
And then I started to cry. ""Lies,he's telling lies!"",
I said as I tried not to cry.
Emotional support is something he never tried to give.
And now it's making it really hard to live.
Even the lightest stab can make me want to die.
Afterwards, I struggle to feel emotion. It's like I am stuck,
Frozen in time. To the past,i can't even say goodbye.
It made a large hole in my heart....
#depression
#loneliness
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Dec 2022 1:32pm
14th Dec 2022 1:32pm
Christmas Mayhem
Santa Clause is coming to town.
The cookies I made are crispy and brown.
Jolly and holly this season will be,I wonder what my present will be!
Will it be a toy,a plushie,or an art supply?
Whatever it is,I will not cry.
I will be happy with whatever I get,
there will be snow in my town,i bet!
The Christmas bow is fluffy and red.
I will hang it up on my wall, so it can be seen by all.
Holly and jolly this season will be,
tonight you are gonna meet thee!
The cookies I made are crispy and brown.
Jolly and holly this season will be,I wonder what my present will be!
Will it be a toy,a plushie,or an art supply?
Whatever it is,I will not cry.
I will be happy with whatever I get,
there will be snow in my town,i bet!
The Christmas bow is fluffy and red.
I will hang it up on my wall, so it can be seen by all.
Holly and jolly this season will be,
tonight you are gonna meet thee!
#Christmas
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Dec 2022 2:25pm
11th Dec 2022 2:25pm
Emotional Acceptance
I tried to change for you to like me. In the end,you began to bite me.
Saying i will never be as cool as you.
I may be different,that is true.
But atleast I'm not a fool like you.
You always pushed the differences away.
Meanwhile, I would accept you for who you are any day.
I don't judge,because to me,everyone is unique.
It doesn't matter are you thin as a stick,
your body shape is unique.
It doesn't matter if you have two eyes or three,
just be who you want to be.
Even if deep inside you are dark, i just want to...
Saying i will never be as cool as you.
I may be different,that is true.
But atleast I'm not a fool like you.
You always pushed the differences away.
Meanwhile, I would accept you for who you are any day.
I don't judge,because to me,everyone is unique.
It doesn't matter are you thin as a stick,
your body shape is unique.
It doesn't matter if you have two eyes or three,
just be who you want to be.
Even if deep inside you are dark, i just want to...
#depression
#acceptance
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SELF POEM
Published
5th Dec 2022 3:08pm
5th Dec 2022 3:08pm
Emotional Attachement
I attached, because of the holes in my heart.
I didn't know you are actually bad. At the time,you were all that I had.
Your presence light a spark of joy in my heart.
I fluttered, love is something I finally had.
But you got toxic,you stabbed me in the back.
I'm still bleeding from the knife you held.
You pushed it in deep, now I hate myself.
I still wonder if the problem was me.
I told you I love you,but you didn't say you miss me.
If you don't love me,why did you kiss me?
For you,i was just a toy. I'm not something...
I didn't know you are actually bad. At the time,you were all that I had.
Your presence light a spark of joy in my heart.
I fluttered, love is something I finally had.
But you got toxic,you stabbed me in the back.
I'm still bleeding from the knife you held.
You pushed it in deep, now I hate myself.
I still wonder if the problem was me.
I told you I love you,but you didn't say you miss me.
If you don't love me,why did you kiss me?
For you,i was just a toy. I'm not something...
#depression
#betrayal
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SELF POEM
Published
30th Nov 2022 2:20pm
30th Nov 2022 2:20pm
Ashes Of Trust
I was lying in the dump. Surrounded by trash and junk.
Then, you picked me in your arms.
My heart fluttered, I felt loved.
Then, you threw me out in the street.
Keeping your real opinion a secret.
I said I love you,and told you to keep it.
With a smirk,you always hid it. I'm crying blood,I can't believe it.
I was naive,and so that's how you see it.
I was so stupid,I say it now. I heard the wolf inside you howl.
You were just looking for a prey.
Have a feast,and call it a day.
What a fun game you decided to play. ...
Then, you picked me in your arms.
My heart fluttered, I felt loved.
Then, you threw me out in the street.
Keeping your real opinion a secret.
I said I love you,and told you to keep it.
With a smirk,you always hid it. I'm crying blood,I can't believe it.
I was naive,and so that's how you see it.
I was so stupid,I say it now. I heard the wolf inside you howl.
You were just looking for a prey.
Have a feast,and call it a day.
What a fun game you decided to play. ...
#lies
#betrayal
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