Submissions by Just-Rob
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
No longer The_Darkness_Insid. I'm just Rob
Devour
For as long as I can remember Ive been sick in my head
I lay in my bed
Wondering why I'm not dead
I try to push ahead
But Im running in place
Getting nowhere and its broken my faith
No matter what happens or how good a moment might be
There's always a feeling thats hopeless in me
Unable to see
A way that I can be free
Drowning in the deepest abyss
But the thought of no longer living is giving me bliss
My daughter said there's something wrong in my head
Cuz my brain isn't supposed to wanna be dead
Im trying to...
I lay in my bed
Wondering why I'm not dead
I try to push ahead
But Im running in place
Getting nowhere and its broken my faith
No matter what happens or how good a moment might be
There's always a feeling thats hopeless in me
Unable to see
A way that I can be free
Drowning in the deepest abyss
But the thought of no longer living is giving me bliss
My daughter said there's something wrong in my head
Cuz my brain isn't supposed to wanna be dead
Im trying to...
#dark
#depression
#despair #MentalHealth
#despair #MentalHealth
211 reads
5 Comments
Surrogate Daughter
Since you came into my life theres a purpose you renew
Understanding that you need me as much as I need you
Realizing that because of you I now matter too
Ready to have your back in any goal that you pursue
Observing your tenacity has made me change my view
Grateful to celebrate the accomplishments that you acrue
Any time that you feel broken I will be your glue
Take you by your hand and I will help to guide you through
Every time you feel unworthy I'll show you that's not true
Daughter you are amazing and I'm filled with so much pride ...
Understanding that you need me as much as I need you
Realizing that because of you I now matter too
Ready to have your back in any goal that you pursue
Observing your tenacity has made me change my view
Grateful to celebrate the accomplishments that you acrue
Any time that you feel broken I will be your glue
Take you by your hand and I will help to guide you through
Every time you feel unworthy I'll show you that's not true
Daughter you are amazing and I'm filled with so much pride ...
#daughter
#family
#love #support
#love #support
147 reads
4 Comments
I'm Doing Fine
You ask me how I'm doing and I tell you that I'm ok
Cuz nothings different I wanna die all the time ok?
It's easier for me to get it out inside a rhyme ok?
In person I'd be silent like a fucking mime ok?
Depression eats me from the inside like a slow decay
I've gotten good at masking it so I don't show decay
From the outside you would think that there was no decay
Not being real about myself is how I grow decay
Sometimes I'm strong enough to deal with it but not today
Having visions of me dead is all I got today
I've been...
Cuz nothings different I wanna die all the time ok?
It's easier for me to get it out inside a rhyme ok?
In person I'd be silent like a fucking mime ok?
Depression eats me from the inside like a slow decay
I've gotten good at masking it so I don't show decay
From the outside you would think that there was no decay
Not being real about myself is how I grow decay
Sometimes I'm strong enough to deal with it but not today
Having visions of me dead is all I got today
I've been...
#confusion
#depression
#emptiness #sadness
#emptiness #sadness
180 reads
4 Comments
Double Down
Why do i even bother?
I ask that every day
Why do I even bother?
There's nothing I can say
I don't have any reasons
Every day's the same
I don't have any reasons
My life is fucking lame
I always feel so lost
No purpose and no hope
I always feel so lost
Don't know how I even cope
Just keep pushing forward
Im always stuck in place
Just keep pushing forward
I need something to embrace
Trapped inside this cycle
The...
I ask that every day
Why do I even bother?
There's nothing I can say
I don't have any reasons
Every day's the same
I don't have any reasons
My life is fucking lame
I always feel so lost
No purpose and no hope
I always feel so lost
Don't know how I even cope
Just keep pushing forward
Im always stuck in place
Just keep pushing forward
I need something to embrace
Trapped inside this cycle
The...
#apathy
#death
#despair
#emptiness
#SelfReflection
167 reads
2 Comments
-ing
My chest is heaving
I'm barely breathing
Can't find what Im needing
These feelings are so misleading
My heart is steady bleeding
Darkness always feeding
I keep retreating
Pain is not receding
Patterns keep repeating
Failures I keep on meeting
Regret is all I'm greeting
Where is this path leading
This life is so defeating
I always take a beating
Happiness is fleeting
Depression breeding
Insight I'm never heeding
Having thoughts of leaving
Help me please I'm pleading
I'm barely breathing
Can't find what Im needing
These feelings are so misleading
My heart is steady bleeding
Darkness always feeding
I keep retreating
Pain is not receding
Patterns keep repeating
Failures I keep on meeting
Regret is all I'm greeting
Where is this path leading
This life is so defeating
I always take a beating
Happiness is fleeting
Depression breeding
Insight I'm never heeding
Having thoughts of leaving
Help me please I'm pleading
#despair
#emptiness
#FeelingLost
#frustration
#SelfReflection
245 reads
5 Comments
All That Remains
Its better to have loved and lost
Then to have never loved at all
Thats bullshit
Nothing more than a feel good line
A weak attempt to soften the blow
Something only people who have lost would say
Could understand the need for
Whats better is the dream
The hope of what might be
The desire behind it all
That is better than losing love
I had love
I had my dream
I know what its like
That knowing is what makes losing it unbearable
I wish I hadn't loved
That I didn't experience my...
Then to have never loved at all
Thats bullshit
Nothing more than a feel good line
A weak attempt to soften the blow
Something only people who have lost would say
Could understand the need for
Whats better is the dream
The hope of what might be
The desire behind it all
That is better than losing love
I had love
I had my dream
I know what its like
That knowing is what makes losing it unbearable
I wish I hadn't loved
That I didn't experience my...
#family
#grief
#love
#memories
#regret
198 reads
4 Comments
Conflicted
I released the darkness
I released the pain
I released the guilt
What did I gain?
Nothing is what remains
I feel completely numb
All my emotions muted
What have I become?
Theres all this empty space
A hollow deep inside
An ache has taken over
When will it subside?
I feel like I'm not living
Yet not completely dead
Somewhere in the middle
Have I been mislead?
Trying to find the light
Has led me down this road
A path that leads to nowhere
Will I continue to erode?
...
I released the pain
I released the guilt
What did I gain?
Nothing is what remains
I feel completely numb
All my emotions muted
What have I become?
Theres all this empty space
A hollow deep inside
An ache has taken over
When will it subside?
I feel like I'm not living
Yet not completely dead
Somewhere in the middle
Have I been mislead?
Trying to find the light
Has led me down this road
A path that leads to nowhere
Will I continue to erode?
...
#confusion
#dark
#emptiness #FeelingLost
#emptiness #FeelingLost
277 reads
7 Comments
When
When you're feeling lost
Take a look around
Ill never stop searching
Until you are found
When you're feeling alone
You know what to do
Give me your hand
I'll stand beside you
When you're feeling weak
If your strength is low
Ill take you in my arms
I won't let you go
When you're feeling scared
And the night is too long
Ill fight away the demons
You will see the dawn
When the world gets too loud
If the voices won't cease
I will hold you close
Until you find peace
...
Take a look around
Ill never stop searching
Until you are found
When you're feeling alone
You know what to do
Give me your hand
I'll stand beside you
When you're feeling weak
If your strength is low
Ill take you in my arms
I won't let you go
When you're feeling scared
And the night is too long
Ill fight away the demons
You will see the dawn
When the world gets too loud
If the voices won't cease
I will hold you close
Until you find peace
...
#love
#motivational
#strength #support
#strength #support
184 reads
0 Comments
I Love You
I don't say I love you lightly
Its not something that I just toss around
I dont say it to all of my friends
I dont even say it to all of my family
Saying those words holds meaning for me
It means...
I care for you from within my soul
You are always in my thoughts
I would be there without hesitation
I value you above even myself
You have my loyalty
I would die for you
I would sacrifice myself for the betterment of you
Your well being means more to me then my own
I support you
I...
Its not something that I just toss around
I dont say it to all of my friends
I dont even say it to all of my family
Saying those words holds meaning for me
It means...
I care for you from within my soul
You are always in my thoughts
I would be there without hesitation
I value you above even myself
You have my loyalty
I would die for you
I would sacrifice myself for the betterment of you
Your well being means more to me then my own
I support you
I...
#honesty
#love
#support
223 reads
6 Comments
Thinking Of You
I miss you
I wonder if you feel that
I wonder if you care
I love you
I wonder if you want that
I wonder if you care
I need you
I wonder if you see that
I wonder if you care
I know the answers
I know the reasons
I know the truth
Still I'm here
Still I'm supporting
Still I'm empowering
Even if you never believe me
Even if you never appreciate me
Even if you never acknowledge me
I wonder if you feel that
I wonder if you care
I love you
I wonder if you want that
I wonder if you care
I need you
I wonder if you see that
I wonder if you care
I know the answers
I know the reasons
I know the truth
Still I'm here
Still I'm supporting
Still I'm empowering
Even if you never believe me
Even if you never appreciate me
Even if you never acknowledge me
#disappointment
#heartbroken
#love #sadness
#love #sadness
194 reads
0 Comments
Withdrawn
You said you love me but i know it's a lie
How can you say you love me and then make me cry?
Lately you don't have time, we're barely even speaking
Going out at night creeping
Calling out his name while you're sleeping
I pretend I don't hear cuz i don't want to believe
Dont want to start a fight cuz I don't want you to leave
I gave my heart to you girl, what more could you want?
Then I saw you out with him at our favorite restaurant
Come through the door and have the nerve to kiss me nonchalant
You're already...
How can you say you love me and then make me cry?
Lately you don't have time, we're barely even speaking
Going out at night creeping
Calling out his name while you're sleeping
I pretend I don't hear cuz i don't want to believe
Dont want to start a fight cuz I don't want you to leave
I gave my heart to you girl, what more could you want?
Then I saw you out with him at our favorite restaurant
Come through the door and have the nerve to kiss me nonchalant
You're already...
#betrayal
#breakup
#lies #secrets
#lies #secrets
261 reads
4 Comments
Who Am I?
I feel it creeping back in again
It's never gone for too long
This urge to push people away
To retreat into my mind
I don't want to care
I don't want to feel
I don't want to worry
I'm trying so hard not to give in
It's eating at me
Why does nothing make me happy?
When I have nobody to talk to
When there is nobody to miss
Where there is nobody that cares
I'm miserable
When there are people who want to talk
When there are people to miss
When there are people that care
I'm...
It's never gone for too long
This urge to push people away
To retreat into my mind
I don't want to care
I don't want to feel
I don't want to worry
I'm trying so hard not to give in
It's eating at me
Why does nothing make me happy?
When I have nobody to talk to
When there is nobody to miss
Where there is nobody that cares
I'm miserable
When there are people who want to talk
When there are people to miss
When there are people that care
I'm...
#FeelingLost
#identity
#myself
234 reads
1 Comment
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