Submissions by JollisaRose (Jen)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
DARK POEM
Published
17th Sep 2009 3:26pm
17th Sep 2009 3:26pm
Once
Once you were my father
Though not by birth its true
Once when I was little
You were the man I looked up to
Despite how you hurt my family
Gambled our things away
Or how you dealt to my mother
If she got in your way
Once I'd vehemently defend you
Because you were my dad
Once I really loved you
Despite the control you had
Then one day out of nowhere
You took it all away
You decided I wasn't your daughter
How I hated that fateful day
It was when I lost the image
I had of you in my head
The moment you...
Though not by birth its true
Once when I was little
You were the man I looked up to
Despite how you hurt my family
Gambled our things away
Or how you dealt to my mother
If she got in your way
Once I'd vehemently defend you
Because you were my dad
Once I really loved you
Despite the control you had
Then one day out of nowhere
You took it all away
You decided I wasn't your daughter
How I hated that fateful day
It was when I lost the image
I had of you in my head
The moment you...
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SELF POEM
Published
17th Sep 2009 3:19pm
17th Sep 2009 3:19pm
Despondency
Despondancy
Creeps up behind me
Like a patient attacker
Waiting in the darkness
And hiding in the shadows
Of a dead end street
Violating my happiness
Abusing my good spirits
And dragging me down fighting
The weight upon my body
So heavy, holding me there
I want to get up
But have no fight left
I can only lift my eyes skyward
Behind thick black looming clouds
The moon is hidden
Revealed only by a dismal attempt
To penetrate through the... What's that?
Someone is at the door
Now where is my mask?
The one I must...
Creeps up behind me
Like a patient attacker
Waiting in the darkness
And hiding in the shadows
Of a dead end street
Violating my happiness
Abusing my good spirits
And dragging me down fighting
The weight upon my body
So heavy, holding me there
I want to get up
But have no fight left
I can only lift my eyes skyward
Behind thick black looming clouds
The moon is hidden
Revealed only by a dismal attempt
To penetrate through the... What's that?
Someone is at the door
Now where is my mask?
The one I must...
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LOVE POEM
Published
16th Sep 2009 2:10am
16th Sep 2009 2:10am
Brave Adventurer
In a fortress on a cliff top
Is where my heart does live
Is there a brave adventurer
Who has his love to give?
He must be big and bold and strong
With warm and caring eyes
And courage to do what it takes
To have me as his prize
He must have strength to navigate
The choppy seas below
To steer his way through jagged rocks
With all his love to show
He must not want to give up
Through winds and stormy rain
He must want to reach me
And wipe my tears of pain
With a steely determination
He must want to battle...
Is where my heart does live
Is there a brave adventurer
Who has his love to give?
He must be big and bold and strong
With warm and caring eyes
And courage to do what it takes
To have me as his prize
He must have strength to navigate
The choppy seas below
To steer his way through jagged rocks
With all his love to show
He must not want to give up
Through winds and stormy rain
He must want to reach me
And wipe my tears of pain
With a steely determination
He must want to battle...
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DARK POEM
Published
16th Sep 2009 2:05am
16th Sep 2009 2:05am
Drowning
The bell tolls
Ringing in the silence
Of my lonliness
Emptiness is full
Of past pain
Overflowing
And dripping into daily life
Flooding who I am
Drowning all chance
Of love, of joy
I wish I knew how to swim!
Show me how...
Ringing in the silence
Of my lonliness
Emptiness is full
Of past pain
Overflowing
And dripping into daily life
Flooding who I am
Drowning all chance
Of love, of joy
I wish I knew how to swim!
Show me how...
2197 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
14th Sep 2009 4:17pm
14th Sep 2009 4:17pm
Go away!
Stalked, you think you own me
As if I am all yours
No ears you do not hear me
Or the slamming of the doors
You think that I can save you
And you think you're what I need
You think that I am all there is
Although you make me bleed
One day you say you love me
The next you're full of hate
I never quite know where I stand
But I know this isn't fate
We aren't meant to be together
We aren't destined to be
How many times must I tell you this
Before you look and see??
As if I am all yours
No ears you do not hear me
Or the slamming of the doors
You think that I can save you
And you think you're what I need
You think that I am all there is
Although you make me bleed
One day you say you love me
The next you're full of hate
I never quite know where I stand
But I know this isn't fate
We aren't meant to be together
We aren't destined to be
How many times must I tell you this
Before you look and see??
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DARK POEM
Published
14th Sep 2009 4:00pm
14th Sep 2009 4:00pm
?
Alone I lay, forsaken and forlorn
As desolate isolation saturates the silence
of my solitary confinement
My Self-imposed segregation secretly announces
my dissociation with the world
And neon lights flash
Advertising my seclusion and loneliness - but only to myself
The void within sucks all life
into the black hole of despair
that resides deep inside of me
Stealthily awaiting the next morsel of hope
Hungrily devouring any semblance of longing
It leaves behind only the wretched bones
of sorrow and pain
As a constant reminder of the...
As desolate isolation saturates the silence
of my solitary confinement
My Self-imposed segregation secretly announces
my dissociation with the world
And neon lights flash
Advertising my seclusion and loneliness - but only to myself
The void within sucks all life
into the black hole of despair
that resides deep inside of me
Stealthily awaiting the next morsel of hope
Hungrily devouring any semblance of longing
It leaves behind only the wretched bones
of sorrow and pain
As a constant reminder of the...
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DARK POEM
Published
13th Sep 2009 4:07pm
13th Sep 2009 4:07pm
Negatives
With a flash of your sickened mentality
You took photos of my pain
Enjoying the negatives
That memorialize my guilt and shame
And in your selfishness
You thought only of yourself
But what about me??
Have you ever stopped to think?
I have my own negatives
An unconscious imprint
Of my naked vulnerability
You hide your pictures
But there was nowhere for me to run
I had nowhere to hide
You made sure of it
You exposed me
Not only to your camera
To your eyes
But to a life of fear
Of distrust, of anger, of hate!
You took photos of my pain
Enjoying the negatives
That memorialize my guilt and shame
And in your selfishness
You thought only of yourself
But what about me??
Have you ever stopped to think?
I have my own negatives
An unconscious imprint
Of my naked vulnerability
You hide your pictures
But there was nowhere for me to run
I had nowhere to hide
You made sure of it
You exposed me
Not only to your camera
To your eyes
But to a life of fear
Of distrust, of anger, of hate!
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SELF POEM
Published
13th Sep 2009 4:24am
13th Sep 2009 4:24am
Direction
Asleep I lay awake
In the darkness of the day
The sun shines on the windowsill
Although the skies are grey
The birds that sing are silent
As thoughts drown out all sound
My spirit wants to truly soar
But it's weighted to the ground
Oh tell me how to break free!
To leave this life behind
I am looking for direction
But the posts I cannot find
I know the destination
It's where hope has always been
I don't know how to get there though
The map I've never seen...
In the darkness of the day
The sun shines on the windowsill
Although the skies are grey
The birds that sing are silent
As thoughts drown out all sound
My spirit wants to truly soar
But it's weighted to the ground
Oh tell me how to break free!
To leave this life behind
I am looking for direction
But the posts I cannot find
I know the destination
It's where hope has always been
I don't know how to get there though
The map I've never seen...
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LOVE POEM
Published
12th Sep 2009 4:02pm
12th Sep 2009 4:02pm
Knight in Shining Armor
Where is my Knight in shining armor?
When will he rescue me?
I have been trapped here in this tower
For an eternity
Rusted and weathered locks on the door
That keep all people out
Containing me in these four walls
Where no one hears me shout
There was no evil godmother
Who stuck me here inside
Alas it was a small girl
Who needed to desperately hide
So sad I am to be alone
But it is how it’s always been
The truth of the person that I am
Is rarely ever seen
Please find me Sir, I need you
More than you’ll...
When will he rescue me?
I have been trapped here in this tower
For an eternity
Rusted and weathered locks on the door
That keep all people out
Containing me in these four walls
Where no one hears me shout
There was no evil godmother
Who stuck me here inside
Alas it was a small girl
Who needed to desperately hide
So sad I am to be alone
But it is how it’s always been
The truth of the person that I am
Is rarely ever seen
Please find me Sir, I need you
More than you’ll...
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DARK POEM
Published
11th Sep 2009 3:52pm
11th Sep 2009 3:52pm
Lamb to the slaughter
I was a pawn
Nothing but a lowly insignificant piece
In the game that you played
You protected your King
But you forgot about the other pieces
Who were playing too
Ah, but if only it was just a game...
A mock battle to pass the time
But it wasn't
It was real
And you were a traitor
To my life
You were unfaithful to who I am
Who I was
Who I could have been
Your disloyalty cost me so much
My reliance on you was a necessity
And you betrayed me
Your insincerity cost me
It cost me my Self
And it made you no better than...
Nothing but a lowly insignificant piece
In the game that you played
You protected your King
But you forgot about the other pieces
Who were playing too
Ah, but if only it was just a game...
A mock battle to pass the time
But it wasn't
It was real
And you were a traitor
To my life
You were unfaithful to who I am
Who I was
Who I could have been
Your disloyalty cost me so much
My reliance on you was a necessity
And you betrayed me
Your insincerity cost me
It cost me my Self
And it made you no better than...
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Sep 2009 3:45pm
11th Sep 2009 3:45pm
Just a game
Standing before myself
And cowering with fear
Knowing that what holds me hostage
Is what will set me free
Bound up and tied by the years
A macabre bloodbath of time
Existing on memories
I have no memory of
And wanting a future
I can't even imagine
Refusing to allow myself that which I need
And denying the need of that which I allow myself
With strength I maintain my weakness
And that weakness is that I deny my strength
It feels like it's all just a game...
And cowering with fear
Knowing that what holds me hostage
Is what will set me free
Bound up and tied by the years
A macabre bloodbath of time
Existing on memories
I have no memory of
And wanting a future
I can't even imagine
Refusing to allow myself that which I need
And denying the need of that which I allow myself
With strength I maintain my weakness
And that weakness is that I deny my strength
It feels like it's all just a game...
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Sep 2009 00:55am
10th Sep 2009 00:55am
Stranded
Stranded
On the precipice of time
Where, no matter what I do
It seems there is no reason in my rhyme
And the honesty of my lies
Unravel the deceit of my truth
Exposing the self that I fear
As well as the self I want to meet
Yet, I deny that self exists
Even as it stands before me
Naked
In all its glory
Awaiting recognition
Of the beauty contained
Within the dry, cracking skin
That covers it
Hiding from view
That which aches to be seen
On the precipice of time
Where, no matter what I do
It seems there is no reason in my rhyme
And the honesty of my lies
Unravel the deceit of my truth
Exposing the self that I fear
As well as the self I want to meet
Yet, I deny that self exists
Even as it stands before me
Naked
In all its glory
Awaiting recognition
Of the beauty contained
Within the dry, cracking skin
That covers it
Hiding from view
That which aches to be seen
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