Submissions by Indie (Miss Indie)
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human, quirky, dark.
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
Yesterday 1:09am
Yesterday 1:09am
the real you won't be framed on a wall
I let a lifetime of lies
crash over me
and I would rather deny
the truth than see you
as you really are
It's embarrassing now
that I held you up so high
a pedestal you shouldn't
have been gifted with
in my childhood memories
that I haven't outgrown
Because I wanted to be like
the best parts of you
and pretend that everything else
wasn't toxic
But you're so toxic
and I'm left searching
for an antidote
only to come up empty
and self medicate instead
...
crash over me
and I would rather deny
the truth than see you
as you really are
It's embarrassing now
that I held you up so high
a pedestal you shouldn't
have been gifted with
in my childhood memories
that I haven't outgrown
Because I wanted to be like
the best parts of you
and pretend that everything else
wasn't toxic
But you're so toxic
and I'm left searching
for an antidote
only to come up empty
and self medicate instead
...
#family
#TruthOfLife
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
19th Dec 2024 7:17am
19th Dec 2024 7:17am
spiders (hold onto me)
I want to cling to you
like you're my life line
only we've both fallen overboard
and it's anyone's guess
on who will drown the other first
You asked me what I wanted
for Christmas
and I don't know how to tell you
I want kindness gift wrapped
and secured with a bow
but there aren't any feel-good vibes
left in this frigid water between us
and no other gift will ever suffice
Love, love, love, love, love
it's just a four letter word
and I'm so dead inside
I can't imbue the word
with...
like you're my life line
only we've both fallen overboard
and it's anyone's guess
on who will drown the other first
You asked me what I wanted
for Christmas
and I don't know how to tell you
I want kindness gift wrapped
and secured with a bow
but there aren't any feel-good vibes
left in this frigid water between us
and no other gift will ever suffice
Love, love, love, love, love
it's just a four letter word
and I'm so dead inside
I can't imbue the word
with...
#family
#grief
#loneliness
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LOVE POEM
Published
18th Dec 2024 11:24pm
18th Dec 2024 11:24pm
step inside my skin
Step inside my skin
run your fingers over
my loneliness
and turn it into something new
I'll pretend I'm not drowning in it
when the empty side of the bed
grows cold
We laugh so hard
we turn to puddles on the floor
and I breathe in every
gasping breath of you
between the happy tears
that remind me I'm human
that you're human
that we get to be human together
Step inside my skin
pretend you're the answer
to a question no one's asking
to a question I'll never ask
because...
run your fingers over
my loneliness
and turn it into something new
I'll pretend I'm not drowning in it
when the empty side of the bed
grows cold
We laugh so hard
we turn to puddles on the floor
and I breathe in every
gasping breath of you
between the happy tears
that remind me I'm human
that you're human
that we get to be human together
Step inside my skin
pretend you're the answer
to a question no one's asking
to a question I'll never ask
because...
#crush
#friendship
#love
#lust
#unicorns
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
18th Dec 2024 11:11pm
18th Dec 2024 11:11pm
love me, I'm not real
Add some words to a bucket
and throw them at me
I'll find something unreal in there
tell myself this narrative will stick
like this real world hallucination
isn't all in my head
I colour in the threads of history
embroider them in red
pretend we mattered
because we did
we did
we did
...
didn't we?
If I was any more whipped
I'd be in pieces on the floor
carved up in a macarbe feast
for your particular tastes
So splay me open
inspect these unseen parts of me
it's...
and throw them at me
I'll find something unreal in there
tell myself this narrative will stick
like this real world hallucination
isn't all in my head
I colour in the threads of history
embroider them in red
pretend we mattered
because we did
we did
we did
...
didn't we?
If I was any more whipped
I'd be in pieces on the floor
carved up in a macarbe feast
for your particular tastes
So splay me open
inspect these unseen parts of me
it's...
#SelfWorth
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ANGER POEM
Published
15th Dec 2024 11:25pm
15th Dec 2024 11:25pm
familial souvenirs for a past life
I want to shred your face
with my fingernails
I want you to hug me
and tell me you've always
loved me
and let all perceived sins
be forgiven
I want to forgive you
let the past float
into an ocean of new
where this blood
doesn't haunt us anymore
I want to take this pain
and shove it through your chest
and pretend like you feel
... something
I want you
to feel something
for me
that isn't blind animosity
and generational violence
I want there...
with my fingernails
I want you to hug me
and tell me you've always
loved me
and let all perceived sins
be forgiven
I want to forgive you
let the past float
into an ocean of new
where this blood
doesn't haunt us anymore
I want to take this pain
and shove it through your chest
and pretend like you feel
... something
I want you
to feel something
for me
that isn't blind animosity
and generational violence
I want there...
#anger
#betrayal
#family #heartbroken
#family #heartbroken
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DRUGS POEM
Published
15th Dec 2024 00:34am
15th Dec 2024 00:34am
a lucid haze
My bedsheets smell of
lavender and indica
silk pillowcase a cushioned ocean
for my restless mind
that floats through the dark
unseeing and unsleeping
I'm nowhere in particular
if I wait for the dawn I might see it
lavender and indica
silk pillowcase a cushioned ocean
for my restless mind
that floats through the dark
unseeing and unsleeping
I'm nowhere in particular
if I wait for the dawn I might see it
#depression
#drugs
#insomnia #marijuana
#insomnia #marijuana
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
14th Dec 2024 9:37am
14th Dec 2024 9:37am
if I'm the villain what does that make you?
Leave me with your lies
kiss the air with your one-sided stories
I won't unlove you though I wish I could
Close your eyes on this chapter
and pretend I never existed
until you need an easy villain
and you always need an easy villain
I don't know how
I've made it this far
thinking there was a shred
of good left in your bones
There's no bonds left
to hold onto
There's just you and me
and a space between
I hope you're happy
in that righteous place
I hope the dotted line...
kiss the air with your one-sided stories
I won't unlove you though I wish I could
Close your eyes on this chapter
and pretend I never existed
until you need an easy villain
and you always need an easy villain
I don't know how
I've made it this far
thinking there was a shred
of good left in your bones
There's no bonds left
to hold onto
There's just you and me
and a space between
I hope you're happy
in that righteous place
I hope the dotted line...
#betrayal
#family
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
14th Dec 2024 8:16am
14th Dec 2024 8:16am
the only solution to the mess you made is to blow everything up
1. This is our first Christmas without you
I keep thinking it's strange
I don't have to buy you snacks
this year
because what else do you buy
the man that doesn't need anything?
2. There's a division so wide
we'll never conquer it
and so far I'm the only one
thinking about this rift you cultivated
and trying to figure out
why it was easier for you
to put knives in your children's hands
and have them fight each other
for your love
rather than have enough love to give
3. I always thought my...
I keep thinking it's strange
I don't have to buy you snacks
this year
because what else do you buy
the man that doesn't need anything?
2. There's a division so wide
we'll never conquer it
and so far I'm the only one
thinking about this rift you cultivated
and trying to figure out
why it was easier for you
to put knives in your children's hands
and have them fight each other
for your love
rather than have enough love to give
3. I always thought my...
#betrayal
#family
#heartbroken
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
5th Dec 2024 00:29am
5th Dec 2024 00:29am
it's not my fault you're flammable
He says he loves me
like I'm awe inspiring
and some days the way
he looks at me
makes me want to punch myself
because I don't know how to accept
that level of adoration
and I'm sure I don't deserve it
I'm the instigator of all fights
I have a fire inside me that
once it's done burning me
it will light up anyone
unlucky enough to stand too close
maybe that's what it means
to be unlucky in love
not to be without love
but to love something that burns
Some days I wonder
if I...
like I'm awe inspiring
and some days the way
he looks at me
makes me want to punch myself
because I don't know how to accept
that level of adoration
and I'm sure I don't deserve it
I'm the instigator of all fights
I have a fire inside me that
once it's done burning me
it will light up anyone
unlucky enough to stand too close
maybe that's what it means
to be unlucky in love
not to be without love
but to love something that burns
Some days I wonder
if I...
#confessional
#conflict
#love #lover
#love #lover
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2 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
3rd Dec 2024 10:29pm
3rd Dec 2024 10:29pm
Dear diary: thoughts about family Dec '24
I don't understand a great deal about psychology, I spend a lot of time trying to manage my own, but I'm not an expert in people.
Something I've never really understood is family dynamics. It's never made sense to me, the insular nuclear unit.
I don't like secrets. Well, I like my own secrets. I don't like other people's secrets. I don't like having to play pretend for other people, so that the world looks at them as better than they really are. Notable exception is my daughter. She reminds me too much of myself.
My family is all about secrets and tradition...
Something I've never really understood is family dynamics. It's never made sense to me, the insular nuclear unit.
I don't like secrets. Well, I like my own secrets. I don't like other people's secrets. I don't like having to play pretend for other people, so that the world looks at them as better than they really are. Notable exception is my daughter. She reminds me too much of myself.
My family is all about secrets and tradition...
#family
#nonfiction
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ANGER POEM
Published
3rd Dec 2024 10:47am
3rd Dec 2024 10:47am
don't twist the knife
I won't forgive you for this
save the guilt trips
for your own personal relationships
the only thing we've ever shared
is DNA and 15 years
living under the same roof
You don't know me
and I don't know you
but I know what kind of man you are
and it's not one I'll be keeping around
for potential good times
When the dust settles on this
sliver of our lives
I don't expect to see you again
I don't know why you never
really loved me
with the same heartache
I loved you with
and...
save the guilt trips
for your own personal relationships
the only thing we've ever shared
is DNA and 15 years
living under the same roof
You don't know me
and I don't know you
but I know what kind of man you are
and it's not one I'll be keeping around
for potential good times
When the dust settles on this
sliver of our lives
I don't expect to see you again
I don't know why you never
really loved me
with the same heartache
I loved you with
and...
#betrayal
#bullying
#family
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Dec 2024 11:53pm
2nd Dec 2024 11:53pm
it feels like...
It's the dry grass crackle
under bare feet
in the middle of summer
It's lightning cracking
on an empty horizon
lighting up the world
It's the tap tap tap of rain
on an unseen window
on a gloomy day
It's the smell of rot
when the storm stays too long
and the weeds bloom as the grass dies
It's the feeling of my fingernails
worrying a scab on my arm
that I refuse to let heal
It's eyes closed against
the beauty of today because
the ugly tells me I don't deserve it
...
under bare feet
in the middle of summer
It's lightning cracking
on an empty horizon
lighting up the world
It's the tap tap tap of rain
on an unseen window
on a gloomy day
It's the smell of rot
when the storm stays too long
and the weeds bloom as the grass dies
It's the feeling of my fingernails
worrying a scab on my arm
that I refuse to let heal
It's eyes closed against
the beauty of today because
the ugly tells me I don't deserve it
...
#apathy
#depression
#grief #sadness
#grief #sadness
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