Submissions by Indie (Miss Indie)
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Poet Introduction
human, quirky, dark.
a boring low (a day with depression)
6:30am
I'm awake
I'm awake I'm awake I'm awake
I'm not getting out of bed
but I'm awake
8am
I get out of bed
because if I don't
I'll piss myself
8:10am
I drink a ginseng tea
in the hopes it will make
me feel awake
because my anxiety
can't handle coffee today
8:30am
I got up
when the bus was leaving
so we have to uber it
I feel guilty that I don't regret
the waste of money
11:45am
Two...
I'm awake
I'm awake I'm awake I'm awake
I'm not getting out of bed
but I'm awake
8am
I get out of bed
because if I don't
I'll piss myself
8:10am
I drink a ginseng tea
in the hopes it will make
me feel awake
because my anxiety
can't handle coffee today
8:30am
I got up
when the bus was leaving
so we have to uber it
I feel guilty that I don't regret
the waste of money
11:45am
Two...
#anxiety
#depression
#LifeStruggles #MentalHealth
#LifeStruggles #MentalHealth
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can we keep it uncomplicated?
1.
I'm not your competition
I never have been
you think you can't have
what your want
'cause you say
I do it better
I don't do it better
I just do it like me
I've never been better than you
just different
2.
I don't know what you see
that makes you hold me
in more esteem
than I deserve
I am a pain in the arse
to live with it
and I know it
but you bury my flaws
like they don't affect you
every single day
and pretend that love
is worth the...
I'm not your competition
I never have been
you think you can't have
what your want
'cause you say
I do it better
I don't do it better
I just do it like me
I've never been better than you
just different
2.
I don't know what you see
that makes you hold me
in more esteem
than I deserve
I am a pain in the arse
to live with it
and I know it
but you bury my flaws
like they don't affect you
every single day
and pretend that love
is worth the...
#friendship
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bigot
I sometimes wonder
how we coexist
when we're not on
the same page
about some really
important things
Hell, we're not even
in the same book
on the same shelf
or same section
of this library
I'm not even sure
we're in the same library
And you resent me
for closing down every conversation
that could lead to an argument
nevermind
that you find me too emotional
and can't have a conversation
with me anyway
because my intensity
makes you uncomfortable
...
how we coexist
when we're not on
the same page
about some really
important things
Hell, we're not even
in the same book
on the same shelf
or same section
of this library
I'm not even sure
we're in the same library
And you resent me
for closing down every conversation
that could lead to an argument
nevermind
that you find me too emotional
and can't have a conversation
with me anyway
because my intensity
makes you uncomfortable
...
#racism
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unheld hands
I don't know exactly
what I was looking for
but I didn't find it
in the bright lights
of the arcade
or on the menu of the
Korean restaurant
we went to
I searched for it
in the lines of your face
I looked for it
in the sparkle of your eyes
which weren't on me
tonight
We had fun
I think we fun
It's hard to find between
your chronic pain
and my depressive episode
I don't know exactly
what I was looking for
but I didn't find it
tonight
...
what I was looking for
but I didn't find it
in the bright lights
of the arcade
or on the menu of the
Korean restaurant
we went to
I searched for it
in the lines of your face
I looked for it
in the sparkle of your eyes
which weren't on me
tonight
We had fun
I think we fun
It's hard to find between
your chronic pain
and my depressive episode
I don't know exactly
what I was looking for
but I didn't find it
tonight
...
#love
#depression
#relationships
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the silence is deafening when the echos fade away
1.
I dream in echoes
and memories
that never happened
I get lost in tangents
of what could be
I live trapped
in what ifs
and if onlys
Most days
I don't know
who I am
I only know
I want to be
more than this
2.
I'm the kind of person
that apologises to a pole
if I walk into it
I say sorry like a pray
like a curse
like a lament to Gods
who don't care
whether I'm sorry
or lying
only that I broke my day...
I dream in echoes
and memories
that never happened
I get lost in tangents
of what could be
I live trapped
in what ifs
and if onlys
Most days
I don't know
who I am
I only know
I want to be
more than this
2.
I'm the kind of person
that apologises to a pole
if I walk into it
I say sorry like a pray
like a curse
like a lament to Gods
who don't care
whether I'm sorry
or lying
only that I broke my day...
#depression
#MentalHealth
#PTSD
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f**k the hustle
Don't ask me my end game
why do you think I need one?
Can I do something
just for the love of it?
without ascribing it
some monetary value?
I'm tired of the idea
that I need to hustle
that I'm just a money-making machine
in a flesh suit
all I have to do
is forget to eat
never sleep
and pretend like my kids
won't hate when they're older
cause I was too busy
chasing the cash cow
rather than spending
meaningful time with them
I lived that childhood ...
why do you think I need one?
Can I do something
just for the love of it?
without ascribing it
some monetary value?
I'm tired of the idea
that I need to hustle
that I'm just a money-making machine
in a flesh suit
all I have to do
is forget to eat
never sleep
and pretend like my kids
won't hate when they're older
cause I was too busy
chasing the cash cow
rather than spending
meaningful time with them
I lived that childhood ...
#family
#LifeAsAWriter
#memories
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lazy is the only option
Today I've been relegated
to comfy clothes
that lack all colour
pattern, sparkle or style
Pretty clothes aren't an option
when my toddler screams
every time I put something on
that he too would like to wear
nevermind that he can only
wear them like tents or capes
After having two skirts
ripped off me this morning
as I committed the crime
of daring to wear them
I gave up
and decided it was a leggings
kind of day
to comfy clothes
that lack all colour
pattern, sparkle or style
Pretty clothes aren't an option
when my toddler screams
every time I put something on
that he too would like to wear
nevermind that he can only
wear them like tents or capes
After having two skirts
ripped off me this morning
as I committed the crime
of daring to wear them
I gave up
and decided it was a leggings
kind of day
#children
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aspire
I wear a shirt that says "fearless"
and it's neither true nor ironic
it's simply what I aspire to feel
and it's neither true nor ironic
it's simply what I aspire to feel
#MentalHealth
#SelfWorth
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small sparks and a bad day
1.
My mum sends me articles
and videos with titles like
"How to overcome clutter paralysis"
and I'm not sure if she's being helpful
or trying to find me in the mirror
2.
Today I want to set the house on fire
because I'm tired of doing dishes
and getting decision fatigue
from looking at my wardrobe
as though my clothes will somehow
make me beautiful
as opposed to just making me, me
No matter how many outfits I try on
I can't make myself feel better
3.
My son has thrown...
My mum sends me articles
and videos with titles like
"How to overcome clutter paralysis"
and I'm not sure if she's being helpful
or trying to find me in the mirror
2.
Today I want to set the house on fire
because I'm tired of doing dishes
and getting decision fatigue
from looking at my wardrobe
as though my clothes will somehow
make me beautiful
as opposed to just making me, me
No matter how many outfits I try on
I can't make myself feel better
3.
My son has thrown...
#grief
#MentalHealth
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6 Comments
dreaming in melancholy fictions
#love
#grief
#relationships
#lover
#FeelingLost
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4 Comments
a not quite summers day
I hate Australian summers
and it's not even summer yet
my rental doesn't have air con
and every year I feel like I'll die
when the temperature creeps up
and the humidity rises
This morning I took my son outside
to play with the hose and water the garden
he ignored the paddling pool
to make a mud puddle
in a spot the grass no longer grows
and tore flowers from the garden bed
to "plant" in the mud
And though the heat makes me grumpy
mud puddles with my son
and watching the dog try and eat ...
and it's not even summer yet
my rental doesn't have air con
and every year I feel like I'll die
when the temperature creeps up
and the humidity rises
This morning I took my son outside
to play with the hose and water the garden
he ignored the paddling pool
to make a mud puddle
in a spot the grass no longer grows
and tore flowers from the garden bed
to "plant" in the mud
And though the heat makes me grumpy
mud puddles with my son
and watching the dog try and eat ...
#children
#family
#summer
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there's more than symbolism in a closed fist
I'm an open palm
until I'm not
and you don't recognise
the shape of my fist
or the way
I've been screaming
myself into nothingness
I've lost the voice
for conversation
and every faked smile
I wear for the outside
kills me every time
I step out into the world
I'm bleeding from wounds
you can't see
and this new landscape
scares you
Life is so much easier
when I've got open palms
and easy smiles
that fall into something worth saying
And I hate you for your...
until I'm not
and you don't recognise
the shape of my fist
or the way
I've been screaming
myself into nothingness
I've lost the voice
for conversation
and every faked smile
I wear for the outside
kills me every time
I step out into the world
I'm bleeding from wounds
you can't see
and this new landscape
scares you
Life is so much easier
when I've got open palms
and easy smiles
that fall into something worth saying
And I hate you for your...
#anger
#grief
#death
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