Submissions by HeartheBells
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write so I don't go on a murderous rampage.
What does he see
how does God see us
does he look on with pity or disgust at his creations
the Becoming of his self loathing
does his narcissism allow him to see the flaws he placed within us
how we are the true Embodiment of his shortcomings
how does God love us
does he look on with pity or disgust at his creations
the Becoming of his self loathing
does his narcissism allow him to see the flaws he placed within us
how we are the true Embodiment of his shortcomings
how does God love us
#sadness
#God
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What may happen
When you leave me I want you to take all your pretty trinkets that I'll spend too much time looking at when you're gone.
When you leave me you must take all the jokes and beautiful things I shared with you, so I don't poison myself with the memories of you
When you leave me throw away all the pens and pencils I own so I cannot create out of the grief of you
When you leave me, please leave me my books and studies so I can bury myself in someone else's stories and problems
When you leave me, open all the windows and turn off all the heat, as even...
When you leave me you must take all the jokes and beautiful things I shared with you, so I don't poison myself with the memories of you
When you leave me throw away all the pens and pencils I own so I cannot create out of the grief of you
When you leave me, please leave me my books and studies so I can bury myself in someone else's stories and problems
When you leave me, open all the windows and turn off all the heat, as even...
#loneliness
#TimeHeals
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Future Tenses
Sometimes I look forward and I feel this cavern open in my chest. The stars go out and that future of ours that seemed so bright bright bright is nothingness.
Sometimes I look forward and I see our foundations tremble and split us apart and you say we'll be alright and I want nothing more than to believe you but in the moment I see nothing more than shattered glass and the remnants of your love spilling onto the pavement. And I wonder what damned us.
But
Sometimes when I look forward I see delicate purple flowers painted on the walls above a crib. I see soft lights and...
Sometimes I look forward and I see our foundations tremble and split us apart and you say we'll be alright and I want nothing more than to believe you but in the moment I see nothing more than shattered glass and the remnants of your love spilling onto the pavement. And I wonder what damned us.
But
Sometimes when I look forward I see delicate purple flowers painted on the walls above a crib. I see soft lights and...
#LifeCycle
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love her
you love the version of her you see
the happy
creative
9 in the afternoon
version
you don't know the version you ignore
the insecure
suicidal
2 am version
you cannot know only one part of someone
and say you love the whole
the happy
creative
9 in the afternoon
version
you don't know the version you ignore
the insecure
suicidal
2 am version
you cannot know only one part of someone
and say you love the whole
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I hate/love you
Why can't you leave my head
Why can't I just have rest
You're a grade A asshole
But I love you so
I don't wanna go so just murder me
I'm sure it's better than this misery
I can't let you see
What you've done to me
I can still smell you
It's thick and true
I miss your embrace
But fuck that's not the case
And I don't wanna go
So just murder me
I'm sure it's better than what you've done to me
You're image drowns my thoughts
Like the stormy sea
I can't escape the thought
Of what you've done to me
But I can't hate/love...
Why can't I just have rest
You're a grade A asshole
But I love you so
I don't wanna go so just murder me
I'm sure it's better than this misery
I can't let you see
What you've done to me
I can still smell you
It's thick and true
I miss your embrace
But fuck that's not the case
And I don't wanna go
So just murder me
I'm sure it's better than what you've done to me
You're image drowns my thoughts
Like the stormy sea
I can't escape the thought
Of what you've done to me
But I can't hate/love...
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When the Moon breaks down
The sun will die
The ink will dry
The moon is gone
So there's no light in the night
When I wake
Oh for fucks sake
The grave yard's all abloom
With her death and his doom
The stars all mourn
The sky is torn
Away from feeling anything
But despair and mourning
So fly away
or save the day
But remember
It's not all just a dream
So who are you going to be?
The ink will dry
The moon is gone
So there's no light in the night
When I wake
Oh for fucks sake
The grave yard's all abloom
With her death and his doom
The stars all mourn
The sky is torn
Away from feeling anything
But despair and mourning
So fly away
or save the day
But remember
It's not all just a dream
So who are you going to be?
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Eons
I Remeber when I could flow
When all I had to do was touch ink to paper and a world was born
When my thoughts didn't scramble to be understood
When ink was my life force and my pen my body
So long ago now
Has it really been years
Not weeks and days since that part of me died
Fuck I miss it
When music was scary and sweet
Not just noise at the back of my mind
And when books and art was an escape
Not a prison
I used to breathe
Not choke
I remember when my body could make art with a few twirls
And when my lungs made the sweetest melody ...
When all I had to do was touch ink to paper and a world was born
When my thoughts didn't scramble to be understood
When ink was my life force and my pen my body
So long ago now
Has it really been years
Not weeks and days since that part of me died
Fuck I miss it
When music was scary and sweet
Not just noise at the back of my mind
And when books and art was an escape
Not a prison
I used to breathe
Not choke
I remember when my body could make art with a few twirls
And when my lungs made the sweetest melody ...
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f**ked
I fucked up
Again and again
I fucked up
A glimmer of light
A glimpse of hope
Then,
POOF!
Gone
Like a match in a hurricane
Again and again
I fucked up
A glimmer of light
A glimpse of hope
Then,
POOF!
Gone
Like a match in a hurricane
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Addiction
Day1
Made up my mind I'm done with this shit
Day2
I miss the slow fire in my veins
Day3
It feels like my body is slowly combusting
Day4
Withdrawal is killing me. I need heroin
Day5
How am I not dead
Day6
It's all I can do not to get more
Day7
One week without heroin. How did I make it
Day8
They say I'm looking better
Day9
I talked to my brother again
Week4
They let me see my little girl
Week9
I'm clean
Year1
I'm a whole new person
Year3
I'm still in control ...
Made up my mind I'm done with this shit
Day2
I miss the slow fire in my veins
Day3
It feels like my body is slowly combusting
Day4
Withdrawal is killing me. I need heroin
Day5
How am I not dead
Day6
It's all I can do not to get more
Day7
One week without heroin. How did I make it
Day8
They say I'm looking better
Day9
I talked to my brother again
Week4
They let me see my little girl
Week9
I'm clean
Year1
I'm a whole new person
Year3
I'm still in control ...
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Get out
Get of my dreams
Get out of my head
I can't sleep
I can't think
I'm nearly dead
Why can't you go haunt another girl
Why me?
After nearly 7 years
Your back
Not dead
Not in jail
Why the fuck am I suprised
Right when I've got my shit together
You come back to fuck me over again
You bottom feeding dick
You weren't here for me and Annie when we needed you
You weren't even at her fucking funeral
And now your back whispering your same sweetie lies
And screaming the same evil truths
Well fuck off
I'm done
Get out of my head
I can't sleep
I can't think
I'm nearly dead
Why can't you go haunt another girl
Why me?
After nearly 7 years
Your back
Not dead
Not in jail
Why the fuck am I suprised
Right when I've got my shit together
You come back to fuck me over again
You bottom feeding dick
You weren't here for me and Annie when we needed you
You weren't even at her fucking funeral
And now your back whispering your same sweetie lies
And screaming the same evil truths
Well fuck off
I'm done
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No
No.
Is that so fucking hard to understand?
It doesn't mean convince me
Or yes
It means no.
Simple English you dumbfuck
Is that so fucking hard to understand?
It doesn't mean convince me
Or yes
It means no.
Simple English you dumbfuck
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Wake Up
Life isn't beautiful
It's a swirling mass of hate and pain
So why is everyone trying to say that it is?
Are you trying to fool yourself?
Trying to fool me?
WAKE UP!
For fucks sake,
It's not working
Stop saying otherwise
It's a swirling mass of hate and pain
So why is everyone trying to say that it is?
Are you trying to fool yourself?
Trying to fool me?
WAKE UP!
For fucks sake,
It's not working
Stop saying otherwise
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