Submissions by Hannah_Binkley (Hannah Binkley)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
LOVE POEM
Published
18th Mar 2020 4:42pm
18th Mar 2020 4:42pm
Without Me
You make me sad
and happy
all at the same time
I tell myself I don't need you
but it's clear that I do
I've cried over you
all of the feelings you've caused
they all get pent up inside of me
I can't escape them
they chase me around
always sitting in the back of my mind
When I try to get over you
I get pulled right back
I'm in love with you
but I'll never admit it to your face
and it hurts to hear you talk about her
even though all I want
is for you to be happy
but I know it'll be without me
and happy
all at the same time
I tell myself I don't need you
but it's clear that I do
I've cried over you
all of the feelings you've caused
they all get pent up inside of me
I can't escape them
they chase me around
always sitting in the back of my mind
When I try to get over you
I get pulled right back
I'm in love with you
but I'll never admit it to your face
and it hurts to hear you talk about her
even though all I want
is for you to be happy
but I know it'll be without me
#honesty
#FallingInLove
#FirstLove
#crush
#obsession
414 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
18th Mar 2020 4:41pm
18th Mar 2020 4:41pm
Practice
Wrists
my wrists hurt
Fingers
my fingers feel like they're going to bleed
The strings dig into my skin
the sound pierces my ears
I've been practicing for three hours
and it feels like it's been years
but it's still not in tune
I still miss the shift
the rhythm just isn't right
You say it sounds great
but all I can hear
is the critic in my head
saying that I skipped a rest
that my bow is shaky
that every single note is flat
that I shouldn't be where I am
that I don't deserve the chance
that I'll...
my wrists hurt
Fingers
my fingers feel like they're going to bleed
The strings dig into my skin
the sound pierces my ears
I've been practicing for three hours
and it feels like it's been years
but it's still not in tune
I still miss the shift
the rhythm just isn't right
You say it sounds great
but all I can hear
is the critic in my head
saying that I skipped a rest
that my bow is shaky
that every single note is flat
that I shouldn't be where I am
that I don't deserve the chance
that I'll...
#music
#confessional
#learning
#apathy
#responsibility
295 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
18th Mar 2020 3:18am
18th Mar 2020 3:18am
Talk
Talking
it's harder than I always think it's going to be
It doesn't matter if I tell myself
all day
That I'm going to talk to you
because there's still a pretty good chance I won't
It would only take a "hello"
for you to turn to me
Only a "how are you?"
to start a conversation
but every time I want to talk
I freeze up
Suddenly, nothing comes out
because I'm too afraid
Not afraid of you
But instead of myself
that I'll say something stupid
or I'll interrupt
So I don't talk
or at least, I rarely do ...
it's harder than I always think it's going to be
It doesn't matter if I tell myself
all day
That I'm going to talk to you
because there's still a pretty good chance I won't
It would only take a "hello"
for you to turn to me
Only a "how are you?"
to start a conversation
but every time I want to talk
I freeze up
Suddenly, nothing comes out
because I'm too afraid
Not afraid of you
But instead of myself
that I'll say something stupid
or I'll interrupt
So I don't talk
or at least, I rarely do ...
#anxiety
#rejection
#crush
438 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
18th Mar 2020 3:18am
18th Mar 2020 3:18am
Out of My League
Out of my league
that's what you are
People tell me there aren't leagues
and I don't know if there are
But you
you seem like you're
a galaxy far away
from me
and where I belong
You're out of my league
and I wish you weren't
but I look at you
then at me
and all that I see
are two people
who were never meant to be
that's what you are
People tell me there aren't leagues
and I don't know if there are
But you
you seem like you're
a galaxy far away
from me
and where I belong
You're out of my league
and I wish you weren't
but I look at you
then at me
and all that I see
are two people
who were never meant to be
#romantic
#honesty
#FallingInLove
#admiration
#crush
688 reads
1 Comment
ANGER POEM
Published
15th Mar 2020 3:56pm
15th Mar 2020 3:56pm
Thank You!
Thank you!
Thank you for showing me
that my friends were right all along
and I invested way too much in you
But thank you!
Thank you for wasting my time
and making me feel like shit
while I still defended you
And thank you!
Thank you for showing me
that people change
and not always for the better
Lastly, thank you!
Thank you for showing me
that I don't need you
or the feelings from when you left me alone.
Thank you for showing me
that my friends were right all along
and I invested way too much in you
But thank you!
Thank you for wasting my time
and making me feel like shit
while I still defended you
And thank you!
Thank you for showing me
that people change
and not always for the better
Lastly, thank you!
Thank you for showing me
that I don't need you
or the feelings from when you left me alone.
#anger
#regret
#hate
#frustration
#disappointment
435 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
15th Mar 2020 3:55pm
15th Mar 2020 3:55pm
Medication
I take the meds
that make me sick to my stomach
if I forget to eat
But what does it matter
because they make me sick
when I try to eat
Everything is glazed
and dazed
I can feel my heartbeat
but I can't find my personality
I feel like a zombie
I walk the halls
dragging my feet along
feeling worse than when I first woke up
Focusing
but not on the right thing
The paper in front of me
is the second thing on my mind
but it's supposed to be the first
That's the point of the meds
though they work ...
that make me sick to my stomach
if I forget to eat
But what does it matter
because they make me sick
when I try to eat
Everything is glazed
and dazed
I can feel my heartbeat
but I can't find my personality
I feel like a zombie
I walk the halls
dragging my feet along
feeling worse than when I first woke up
Focusing
but not on the right thing
The paper in front of me
is the second thing on my mind
but it's supposed to be the first
That's the point of the meds
though they work ...
#anxiety
#regret
#confusion
#emptiness
#boredom
328 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
15th Mar 2020 1:04am
15th Mar 2020 1:04am
Your Name
Do you know my name?
Have you heard it when they call role
And when I reply, "here."
If you know my name
have you ever been happy to hear it
Has it ever sparked a little bit of joy
and have you ever been sad
when it didn't get said?
I hope you know my name
because I know your name
and your name
is everything to me
Have you heard it when they call role
And when I reply, "here."
If you know my name
have you ever been happy to hear it
Has it ever sparked a little bit of joy
and have you ever been sad
when it didn't get said?
I hope you know my name
because I know your name
and your name
is everything to me
#romantic
#honesty
#FallingInLove
#admiration
#crush
317 reads
1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
15th Mar 2020 1:03am
15th Mar 2020 1:03am
Little Girl
I don't want the cigarette
I just want the nicotine
but I've grown used to the small amounts
and suddenly it's not so hard to breathe it in
I never thought I'd let myself grow used to it
yet here I am
I'm becoming what I once despised
I'm doing the things I said I'd never do
Will I end up an addict?
Or will I be what that little girl wanted me to be?
They don't know what I've become
I'm what they never wanted
and they have no idea
I've picked up the things
they hate about themselves
but they had to see...
I just want the nicotine
but I've grown used to the small amounts
and suddenly it's not so hard to breathe it in
I never thought I'd let myself grow used to it
yet here I am
I'm becoming what I once despised
I'm doing the things I said I'd never do
Will I end up an addict?
Or will I be what that little girl wanted me to be?
They don't know what I've become
I'm what they never wanted
and they have no idea
I've picked up the things
they hate about themselves
but they had to see...
#anxiety
#family
#addiction
#MentalHealth
#disappointment
330 reads
1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
14th Mar 2020 5:25am
14th Mar 2020 5:25am
Nights Like These
It's nights like these
that I miss you the most
When I can't sleep
and I start to wish that you could see
all that has changed since you left
I've become someone new
because of you
I've coped in ways
that I am not proud of
and thought about joining you
I'm still mad
that you left me here
not all alone
but as the only hope
The only hope for our family
that's fallen apart since you left
but we both know
it was broken
long before your overdose
long before you even tried
all of those drugs you...
that I miss you the most
When I can't sleep
and I start to wish that you could see
all that has changed since you left
I've become someone new
because of you
I've coped in ways
that I am not proud of
and thought about joining you
I'm still mad
that you left me here
not all alone
but as the only hope
The only hope for our family
that's fallen apart since you left
but we both know
it was broken
long before your overdose
long before you even tried
all of those drugs you...
#depression
#brother
#family
#insomnia
#addiction
328 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
14th Mar 2020 5:24am
14th Mar 2020 5:24am
Panic Attack at the School Dance
Panic attack
at the school dance
because everything is too loud
and there are too many people
Panic attack
at the school dance
because it's been
one hell of a long day
Panic attack
at the school dance
because things
didn't go as well as I planned
Panic Attack
at the school dance
Because one of my best friends
tried to kill himself last night
and I don't know what I would do
without him
Panic Attack
at the school dance
because I thought she would come back
but she didn't
and I should...
at the school dance
because everything is too loud
and there are too many people
Panic attack
at the school dance
because it's been
one hell of a long day
Panic attack
at the school dance
because things
didn't go as well as I planned
Panic Attack
at the school dance
Because one of my best friends
tried to kill himself last night
and I don't know what I would do
without him
Panic Attack
at the school dance
because I thought she would come back
but she didn't
and I should...
#sadness
#anxiety
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#FeelingTrapped
324 reads
1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
12th Mar 2020 11:28pm
12th Mar 2020 11:28pm
Pretty Girl
Pretty girl
please don't ruin your life
with the drugs you take
to make you feel alright
And please
put the blade down
it won't make you feel better for long
because you have to solve your problems
at the root
So please
promise me you'll try to get better
I know that it's hard
but you need to think of yourself
and all the people who love you
Please
because I love you
and I can't bare the thought
of burying another friend
please don't ruin your life
with the drugs you take
to make you feel alright
And please
put the blade down
it won't make you feel better for long
because you have to solve your problems
at the root
So please
promise me you'll try to get better
I know that it's hard
but you need to think of yourself
and all the people who love you
Please
because I love you
and I can't bare the thought
of burying another friend
#depression
#SelfHarm
#drugs
#addiction
#MentalHealth
603 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
12th Mar 2020 11:19pm
12th Mar 2020 11:19pm
Self Pity
Self pitying
that's all I am
I get chances no one else gets
and I'm still disappointed
Not mad
just disappointed
Disappointed in myself
for never being good enough for what I shoot for
But "you have talent" they say
and "you got it" they say
or "you already have more than they have" they say
but nothing ever really fills the gap
of not feeling good enough
the constant need for more
Because it gets me high
when I do well
and when I don't
I know I can do better
but sometimes I give it my all
and it...
that's all I am
I get chances no one else gets
and I'm still disappointed
Not mad
just disappointed
Disappointed in myself
for never being good enough for what I shoot for
But "you have talent" they say
and "you got it" they say
or "you already have more than they have" they say
but nothing ever really fills the gap
of not feeling good enough
the constant need for more
Because it gets me high
when I do well
and when I don't
I know I can do better
but sometimes I give it my all
and it...
#sadness
#anger
#jealousy
#disappointment
#bittersweet
399 reads
0 Comments
DU Poetry : Submissions by Hannah_Binkley (Hannah Binkley)
Page:
