Submissions by Grae (Bryan Gray)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Poetry is my therapy.
SELF POEM
Published
14th Nov 2024 3:57am
14th Nov 2024 3:57am
the mountain
sometimes
i am on the mountain
other times i see it from a distance
it never looks the same
but i always feel the same way about it
an uneasiness
an impending feeling
tonight it's a towering spire
like a piece of shrapnel in the earth
the feeling is there
everything is
i suppose
when i die
it will be like a breath
i did not realize i was holding in
i am on the mountain
other times i see it from a distance
it never looks the same
but i always feel the same way about it
an uneasiness
an impending feeling
tonight it's a towering spire
like a piece of shrapnel in the earth
the feeling is there
everything is
i suppose
when i die
it will be like a breath
i did not realize i was holding in
#anxiety
#dreams
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DARK POEM
Published
30th Aug 2024 9:15pm
30th Aug 2024 9:15pm
the maul
the maul understood the man
the dark putrid space inside him
where empathy was supposed to be
there was death there
dreams of bosch
saturn devouring his son
mother violence
like a tide of red ghosts lapping at toes
saying more than words ever could
the maul knew dark things
how it could sate an urge for ill will
how it could make quick work ...
the dark putrid space inside him
where empathy was supposed to be
there was death there
dreams of bosch
saturn devouring his son
mother violence
like a tide of red ghosts lapping at toes
saying more than words ever could
the maul knew dark things
how it could sate an urge for ill will
how it could make quick work ...
#dark
#death
#evil #MentalHealth
#evil #MentalHealth
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DRUGS POEM
Published
27th Aug 2024 3:22am
27th Aug 2024 3:22am
the last ambulance
end of eyes
and of a dusk drawl
civil twilight for hair
sodium rain
when a day is done
destroyer in vein
watching the same car crash
over and over
and although you are still here
you teach me how to mourn your passing
one ambulance
at a time
and of a dusk drawl
civil twilight for hair
sodium rain
when a day is done
destroyer in vein
watching the same car crash
over and over
and although you are still here
you teach me how to mourn your passing
one ambulance
at a time
#addiction
#alcohol
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4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
29th Nov 2023 4:53am
29th Nov 2023 4:53am
happiness
i can hear the roll-up door at the back of the truck
bouncing up and down
people are honking
i forgot to latch it shut again
i don't care
i hate this job
i'm wondering
if a .380 against my temple would kill me
or just hurt like hell
there's a homeless guy on the corner
beating a lamppost with a tent pole
and with an expression
somewhere between mental illness
and happiness
maybe it's both
could i be happy?
i deal with my...
bouncing up and down
people are honking
i forgot to latch it shut again
i don't care
i hate this job
i'm wondering
if a .380 against my temple would kill me
or just hurt like hell
there's a homeless guy on the corner
beating a lamppost with a tent pole
and with an expression
somewhere between mental illness
and happiness
maybe it's both
could i be happy?
i deal with my...
#depression
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7 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
3rd Apr 2023 2:53pm
3rd Apr 2023 2:53pm
forever ghost
unsung world bathed in accelerant
unsaid eyes there
unworlds
forever ghost
drabbed in hospital room glow
and starless sky
a tiny war inside
give a magnesium spark
in a dream
there was a bustling coffee house
oval grey promise
where you looked like everyone
you tasted like everything
unsaid eyes there
unworlds
forever ghost
drabbed in hospital room glow
and starless sky
a tiny war inside
give a magnesium spark
in a dream
there was a bustling coffee house
oval grey promise
where you looked like everyone
you tasted like everything
#love
#obsession
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LOVE POEM
Published
7th Mar 2023 6:03pm
7th Mar 2023 6:03pm
it was made to be deleted
the image on my phone screen is her smiling
hardly real though
more a part of the internet
than a actual woman messaging me 'good morning'
she doesn't know it
but she doesnt want me
i'm a listless remainder
feeling an inability to connect
a longing like a dull pain in the pit of my belly
she doesn't know
that i never planned to meet anyone here
or that the one profile i'd hope to catch a ghost glimpse of
doesn't...
hardly real though
more a part of the internet
than a actual woman messaging me 'good morning'
she doesn't know it
but she doesnt want me
i'm a listless remainder
feeling an inability to connect
a longing like a dull pain in the pit of my belly
she doesn't know
that i never planned to meet anyone here
or that the one profile i'd hope to catch a ghost glimpse of
doesn't...
#dating
#love
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
27th Jan 2023 5:31am
27th Jan 2023 5:31am
immortality
maybe in another life
we might have lived forever
some infinity gene
having mutated inside us
stunting the aging process
no degradation
forever young
i think of all the ambulances that have wailed
up and down the main street
with their ear piercing regularity
tolling someone's distress
someone's expiration maybe
a lifetime
just isn't enough
it is a strange thing now
to hear the sirens sounding from the avenue
knowing they are for you
we might have lived forever
some infinity gene
having mutated inside us
stunting the aging process
no degradation
forever young
i think of all the ambulances that have wailed
up and down the main street
with their ear piercing regularity
tolling someone's distress
someone's expiration maybe
a lifetime
just isn't enough
it is a strange thing now
to hear the sirens sounding from the avenue
knowing they are for you
#aging
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LOVE POEM
Published
14th Jan 2023 8:36pm
14th Jan 2023 8:36pm
rubicon gone
i daydream about you
it's all that i do now
always some serendipitous scene
you're in distress
and i always come to your aid
we always fall in love
there was a moment when i knew you
when we looked at each other
that i might have said more
i might have smiled
but i did nothing
i could not cross that boundary
i couldn't tell you how i felt
and now you're gone
living your life somewhere in this city
and i live right here
...
it's all that i do now
always some serendipitous scene
you're in distress
and i always come to your aid
we always fall in love
there was a moment when i knew you
when we looked at each other
that i might have said more
i might have smiled
but i did nothing
i could not cross that boundary
i couldn't tell you how i felt
and now you're gone
living your life somewhere in this city
and i live right here
...
#regret
#sadness
#love
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LOVE POEM
Published
5th Jan 2023 6:05pm
5th Jan 2023 6:05pm
false you
you had eyes like a homecoming
that i find myself
living in the wake of
i never got to know you really
so my brain filled in the gaps
untruth sutures
a fiction mixed with snippets of you
i know what your favorite color is
what your friends are like
how you take your coffee
but i know none of these things
and i know that i am wrong
to find comfort in you
my real world swaying listlessly
to a nocturn in crescendo
you don't exist
i find...
that i find myself
living in the wake of
i never got to know you really
so my brain filled in the gaps
untruth sutures
a fiction mixed with snippets of you
i know what your favorite color is
what your friends are like
how you take your coffee
but i know none of these things
and i know that i am wrong
to find comfort in you
my real world swaying listlessly
to a nocturn in crescendo
you don't exist
i find...
#dreams
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9 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
12th Nov 2022 8:33am
12th Nov 2022 8:33am
bender
she had a gaze
like a love letter to the dead
funeral throat vespers in a sodium blur
wishing she could walk down the stairs,
for an iota of control
like the wayward calf subdued by hyenas,
you are still very much alive
when the liquor
tears your life apart
like a love letter to the dead
funeral throat vespers in a sodium blur
wishing she could walk down the stairs,
for an iota of control
like the wayward calf subdued by hyenas,
you are still very much alive
when the liquor
tears your life apart
#alcohol
#addiction
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SELF POEM
Published
24th Oct 2022 5:51pm
24th Oct 2022 5:51pm
south grand
it's fitting
that i should want to die right now
feeling entombed
within the concrete of this place
sublevel byway
a living grave
machine roar resounding
off the dull grey everything
cigarettes in the work truck
a couple drags would be nice
the keys nestled in the cup holder
right there with them
locked in
irritatingly,
annoyingly,
dumb-as-fuckingly
that i should want to die right now
feeling entombed
within the concrete of this place
sublevel byway
a living grave
machine roar resounding
off the dull grey everything
cigarettes in the work truck
a couple drags would be nice
the keys nestled in the cup holder
right there with them
locked in
irritatingly,
annoyingly,
dumb-as-fuckingly
#LifeStruggles
#funny
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2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
19th Sep 2022 4:17pm
19th Sep 2022 4:17pm
angel of rancor
a murder crawl
inching along the light festooned edifices
like tombstones wrapped in string lights
they say angels live here
but i'm not so sure they know what angels are
i could use a cigarette break
maybe the sweet release of death
either will do honestly
an inch of road per soul reduction
that's how this works
erosion at a glacial crawl
saties 'lent et douloureux' on a loop inside me
the angels must be rancorous things
inching along the light festooned edifices
like tombstones wrapped in string lights
they say angels live here
but i'm not so sure they know what angels are
i could use a cigarette break
maybe the sweet release of death
either will do honestly
an inch of road per soul reduction
that's how this works
erosion at a glacial crawl
saties 'lent et douloureux' on a loop inside me
the angels must be rancorous things
#city
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