Submissions by FindingNirvana

I detest nights like these
I can’t sleep
Each hour my mind stays awake it bleeds uncontrollably from the remembrance of the pain from that night

All i wanted was to hear your soft voice one last time
All i wanted was to tell you i loved you before the night ended
It would have made me feel more at peace

The anxiety
The unease
The numbing in my body

How did it all happen so quick?

I know it's all in my head

They're wrong
They're always wrong but they never stay shut

I felt so lost without you
...

And when I believe I'm finally free
They sneak up on me
Roaches crawling through my body
The infestation grows rapidly

What is reflected on the mirror tell me lies
Of something I use to be or what should be of me

Who am I?
What am I?
Where am I?
Why am I?

You sit there with your brown eyes gazing at me
You can't help but stare

And I can't help but rape you
From your feelings
From your pain
From everything you have within

The sound of silence screams throughout my mind
Not again ...

What have I done
The stalking truth, sickens me
What have I become

The 7 devils they circle me
As I let them take over my soul

So much animosity with myself

Rotting away
Even I sometimes believe I will never be able to leave this place

Endlessly I repent for what I have done

All I cry out for is your mercy
So unforgiven

It's truely devastating that it came to this only to finally understand my wrong doing

This wound it bleeds and bleeds
More salt now is just a tease

I know what it means now...

I've broken you
I've die repeatedly  
Aware of the suffering I've caused you
Repenting all that i have done
sorrowfully conscious I can not change what I have done
The heartbreaking pains

Such a horrid being that I am
How did you fall for a darkness like me

There is no dishonestly in the love i have for you
You brought me a happiness i never believed i could obtain

Yet even all the chaos i have cause you,
you stay there with me

The warmth of your hands caress me
and I am so deeply in need of your affection...