Submissions by Emotional_Esther (Esther...)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
All of my poems stem out from careless experiences I've gone through.
DARK POEM
Published
30th Jun 2021 2:32am
30th Jun 2021 2:32am
Help
I think I need serious help
I'm having fits of derealization
I'm dreaming into the future
I've got a nagging thought of killing myself
Someone help
I feel like nothing is real
Everything will just go away if I die
Nothing is real to me or anyone
This life is a figment of my imagination
I'm having fits of derealization
I'm dreaming into the future
I've got a nagging thought of killing myself
Someone help
I feel like nothing is real
Everything will just go away if I die
Nothing is real to me or anyone
This life is a figment of my imagination
#anxiety
#dark
#frustration
#emptiness
#fear
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LOVE POEM
Published
5th Mar 2021 9:19pm
5th Mar 2021 9:19pm
Manipulated II
I was there at the crack of dawn
Waiting to do anything for you
I'd given up everything if you said to
I was ready to be at your call and beckoning
I gave up my purity for you
I gave up my virginity for you
I gave up my last standing sense of innocence towards my parents for you
I gave up my will to live for you
That one word that made my head spin
Made my heart throb and melt
The way you could say that one word and I'd be there doing anything
Getting on my hands and knees for you
I went from watching you graduate...
Waiting to do anything for you
I'd given up everything if you said to
I was ready to be at your call and beckoning
I gave up my purity for you
I gave up my virginity for you
I gave up my last standing sense of innocence towards my parents for you
I gave up my will to live for you
That one word that made my head spin
Made my heart throb and melt
The way you could say that one word and I'd be there doing anything
Getting on my hands and knees for you
I went from watching you graduate...
#anger
#jealousy
#secrets
#ForbiddenLove
#manipulation
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LOVE POEM
Published
5th Mar 2021 9:06pm
5th Mar 2021 9:06pm
Manipulated
I've been gone for seven months
The pains and aches I've felt tower over me
My mistake for thinking older guys will be true
Note to self: Older guys go for younger girls because they're easy to manipulate
Turns out he didn't really like me
I was just another girl in his three sided game
It's fun until you figure out the "I love you" he said to her
Turns out there were more girls under my knowledge
Turns out he never got over the first love
So here I stand alone and crushed
Figuring out he said the same thing to a girl younger than...
The pains and aches I've felt tower over me
My mistake for thinking older guys will be true
Note to self: Older guys go for younger girls because they're easy to manipulate
Turns out he didn't really like me
I was just another girl in his three sided game
It's fun until you figure out the "I love you" he said to her
Turns out there were more girls under my knowledge
Turns out he never got over the first love
So here I stand alone and crushed
Figuring out he said the same thing to a girl younger than...
#anger
#jealousy
#hate #heartbroken
#hate #heartbroken
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LOVE POEM
Published
11th Aug 2020 10:17pm
11th Aug 2020 10:17pm
I'm Not In Love
I don't know how to describe what you do to me
You make me feel so special that I forget I'm on the side
You give me butterflies that make me nauseous
I don't love you
I just happen to really really like you
Whenever I see pictures of you I get so flustered
And you when you talk I'm speechless
How can you be on my mind 24/7
I promise I'm not in love
You make me feel so high
At some point I have to come down though
I remember that we aren't together
I remember that you are older
I remember that you aren't mine to have
You make me feel so special that I forget I'm on the side
You give me butterflies that make me nauseous
I don't love you
I just happen to really really like you
Whenever I see pictures of you I get so flustered
And you when you talk I'm speechless
How can you be on my mind 24/7
I promise I'm not in love
You make me feel so high
At some point I have to come down though
I remember that we aren't together
I remember that you are older
I remember that you aren't mine to have
#love
#jealousy
#heartbroken
#FallingInLove
#crush
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SELF POEM
Published
31st Jul 2020 7:43pm
31st Jul 2020 7:43pm
In the Last Hour
In the last hour I have broke down and cried
Slumped to the floor
Hands running through my hair
Knees tucked to my chest
Balling my eyes out over what's right and wrong
In the last hour I have got out the razors I owned and felt each one
They call my name so loud
It's hard to escape when they want you badly
I ran it up and down my arm just feeling the coolness
Wanting to be hurt so bad
In the last hour I screamed at the mirror
I can't stand to look at myself so miserable
The sight makes me want to kill myself
How...
Slumped to the floor
Hands running through my hair
Knees tucked to my chest
Balling my eyes out over what's right and wrong
In the last hour I have got out the razors I owned and felt each one
They call my name so loud
It's hard to escape when they want you badly
I ran it up and down my arm just feeling the coolness
Wanting to be hurt so bad
In the last hour I screamed at the mirror
I can't stand to look at myself so miserable
The sight makes me want to kill myself
How...
#loneliness
#secrets
#suicide
#suffering
#temptation
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SELF POEM
Published
15th Jul 2020 1:55am
15th Jul 2020 1:55am
In the Moment
In the moment i feel so alone
I feel left behind by family and friends
No amount of friendliness or love could change the fact
That I am completely alone
Here I lay my life poured out onto text
The people read and relate but does it help
No. I sit here and wonder how I can get noticed
How I can receive help when I don't receive one text
In the moment I want to get away
Destroy any evidence of my life and run
Leave this little town of mine forever
Pack my bags and fly far far away
How does one feel as lonely as I do...
I feel left behind by family and friends
No amount of friendliness or love could change the fact
That I am completely alone
Here I lay my life poured out onto text
The people read and relate but does it help
No. I sit here and wonder how I can get noticed
How I can receive help when I don't receive one text
In the moment I want to get away
Destroy any evidence of my life and run
Leave this little town of mine forever
Pack my bags and fly far far away
How does one feel as lonely as I do...
#sadness
#depression
#loneliness
#despair
#emptiness
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ANGER POEM
Published
15th Jul 2020 1:41am
15th Jul 2020 1:41am
Side Girl Handbook
1) Remember that you are not the special one, no matter how special you feel.
2) You will always be sneaking around.
3) The girlfriend is the first girl. You will come second to him.
4) If he isn't getting something from the girlfriend he will come to you.
5) If you can't satisfy, he will be disappointed.
6) Don't cry if he talks about his girlfriend. You signed up for it knowing the outcome.
7) You will be in undesirable situations if you cry over being the occupier.
8) He won't think of you as a girlfriend. He will...
2) You will always be sneaking around.
3) The girlfriend is the first girl. You will come second to him.
4) If he isn't getting something from the girlfriend he will come to you.
5) If you can't satisfy, he will be disappointed.
6) Don't cry if he talks about his girlfriend. You signed up for it knowing the outcome.
7) You will be in undesirable situations if you cry over being the occupier.
8) He won't think of you as a girlfriend. He will...
#jealousy
#hate
#heartbroken
#secrets
#betrayal
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ANGER POEM
Published
13th Jul 2020 10:35pm
13th Jul 2020 10:35pm
Daddy Drinks, Daughter's Disregarded
I've been so brainwashed by the fact that dying would be better than confronting you
The thought gnawing and biting at my brain
How can I love you so much that I cry at the thought of you dying
But hate you so much that I can go unspoken for months
What is the point of loving a person who isn't in my life the way I imagined
Never come to my events but wallow in the thought of missing them
Drink on end to pass out and drive me home wasted
And the thought still comes back that I love you
How can I love one person so much but hate at the same...
The thought gnawing and biting at my brain
How can I love you so much that I cry at the thought of you dying
But hate you so much that I can go unspoken for months
What is the point of loving a person who isn't in my life the way I imagined
Never come to my events but wallow in the thought of missing them
Drink on end to pass out and drive me home wasted
And the thought still comes back that I love you
How can I love one person so much but hate at the same...
#anger
#anxiety
#hate
#alcohol
#disappointment
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DARK POEM
Published
9th Jul 2020 5:20am
9th Jul 2020 5:20am
Silenced
I should have listened when you whispered in my ear
"No one will believe you and you'll disappear"
I can't put away the fact that you touched me and got away with the act
So this is the way it is
I stay silenced and you get praised
I know you for what you really are and yet people still won't listen to my truth
You put your hands on me without my consent
I spill my story and it gets discredited by some lousy excuse of drinks
We both know I had nothing hard to drink
We both know you messed with my soda
Somehow you manged to fuck up...
"No one will believe you and you'll disappear"
I can't put away the fact that you touched me and got away with the act
So this is the way it is
I stay silenced and you get praised
I know you for what you really are and yet people still won't listen to my truth
You put your hands on me without my consent
I spill my story and it gets discredited by some lousy excuse of drinks
We both know I had nothing hard to drink
We both know you messed with my soda
Somehow you manged to fuck up...
#lies
#abuse
#frustration
#ignorance
#suffering
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SONG LYRICS
Published
8th Jul 2020 5:18pm
8th Jul 2020 5:18pm
Teacher's Pet
Caught the teacher giving his eyes to a student
Thought he pretty cute and she bit her lip back to him
Chewing on her nails and her pens while she's dreaming of him
And he's fucking in sin, you know he is
She said, "It's for all the right reasons
Baby, don't care 'bout grades
Just call me your lady
If I pass this quiz will you give me your babies?
Don't call me crazy
You love me but you won't come save me
You got a wife and kids, you see them daily
Don't know why you even need me"
Teacher's pet
If I'm so special why...
Thought he pretty cute and she bit her lip back to him
Chewing on her nails and her pens while she's dreaming of him
And he's fucking in sin, you know he is
She said, "It's for all the right reasons
Baby, don't care 'bout grades
Just call me your lady
If I pass this quiz will you give me your babies?
Don't call me crazy
You love me but you won't come save me
You got a wife and kids, you see them daily
Don't know why you even need me"
Teacher's pet
If I'm so special why...
#lyrics
#ForbiddenLove
#obsession
#manipulation
#deception
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ANGER POEM
Published
8th Jul 2020 5:07pm
8th Jul 2020 5:07pm
Lover Boy
Lover Boy I have a couple of things i need to say
I know you don't care you just wanted something risky
All I'll ever be to you is a little side show display
Just a piece of ass for you to get frisky
I am only here for you to be occupied
At least until your girlfriend dies
So why me? Was every other girl non-qualified
And now here I lay in my own surprise
I should've just left well enough alone
I should've just said no
Now I lie awake at night just staring at my phone
Waiting on a text from you to bring me out of my low
I know you don't care you just wanted something risky
All I'll ever be to you is a little side show display
Just a piece of ass for you to get frisky
I am only here for you to be occupied
At least until your girlfriend dies
So why me? Was every other girl non-qualified
And now here I lay in my own surprise
I should've just left well enough alone
I should've just said no
Now I lie awake at night just staring at my phone
Waiting on a text from you to bring me out of my low
#anger
#hate
#heartbroken
#betrayal
#disappointment
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LOVE POEM
Published
11th Jun 2020 7:03am
11th Jun 2020 7:03am
Fear of You
The feeling of rejection to leave is almost as bad as your punches
Which happened after I requested to go home
"Stay" you said
"I can make you happier" you said
If your definition of happier is painful then I reject that offer
I can't say that to your face though
For fear of what you'd do to me takes over
Do I try to leave and risk getting hurt or stay and hurt
The question bounces around just like you bounced me around
From one slap to the other like a game of volleyball
Except I was the ball
I was the one getting...
Which happened after I requested to go home
"Stay" you said
"I can make you happier" you said
If your definition of happier is painful then I reject that offer
I can't say that to your face though
For fear of what you'd do to me takes over
Do I try to leave and risk getting hurt or stay and hurt
The question bounces around just like you bounced me around
From one slap to the other like a game of volleyball
Except I was the ball
I was the one getting...
#anger
#hate
#lies #abuse
#lies #abuse
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