Submissions by Coffee_Cat (Lacie Marie)

I lay there darkness covering me
And I feel them
The bugs
They writhe and slither
Eating me alive
Savoring my bitter blood
Dizzy, I try to save myself
But I cant get up; I'm trapped
My almost lifeless body grows pallid
while the maggots devour my flesh
and I start to rot and decay
Does anyone notice
No.....
They're all too preoccupied with their own problems
Waiting for sweet death I lay motionless, paralyzed
I pray for the end of this perpetual nightmare
Finally I screech "HELP!!!"
But then...

I can't breathe anymore
The air around me is suffocating me
It's impossible to escape
I'm slowly losing the battle for my life
I don't want to deal with this constant pain
I was making so much progress
I was actually happy
I tried so hard and I lost
I can't tell anyone because they'll be disappointed
They'll lock me away again
That's what happens every time I reach out
I didn't choose to feel like this
So why does the pain keep coming back
I don't want to die
So why does it feel like the only out
Why does death want to trap me...

I once knew a girl her skin lovely yet ashen    
Her life seemed amazing she always had the latest fashion    
It was later I saw the cuts on her wrist    
She noticed I saw and yelled and threw fists    
I let her do so until she calmed down    
I wondered why she was so unhappy,
she was the most popular girl in town    
She began to tell me about her plight    
Of how often her parents would fight    
I listened as she cried away her misery    
And thought of how sad she was and how no one could see    
I hugged her and she...

If you don't despise me, set me free
Euthanize me
I'm nothing but miserable and ugly
I need to be sent to away so death can save me
Set me free
Into the world of infinity
Save me from my chains
Destroy all my worldly shames
Euthanize me
I'm suffering can't you see
I never asked to feel this way
Nothing is ever going to be okay
Just euthanize me