Submissions by Beth14
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
7th Feb 2018 6:22am
7th Feb 2018 6:22am
Road Trip
I was terrified of the world
so I faced my fears head on
in the driver's seat.
Chased dusk through the desert,
and morning over mountains
moving them.
MAKE WAY!
For I am here.
I am here..
I made it..
I made it over my peaks
Stumble. Crashing down in a heap.
Rock bottom.
"The only place to go now is up,"
They say.
"Well I have to stand up first.
Can I get some help?
This shit hurts!"
"It's not that bad,
others have it worse."
Back in the car.
...
so I faced my fears head on
in the driver's seat.
Chased dusk through the desert,
and morning over mountains
moving them.
MAKE WAY!
For I am here.
I am here..
I made it..
I made it over my peaks
Stumble. Crashing down in a heap.
Rock bottom.
"The only place to go now is up,"
They say.
"Well I have to stand up first.
Can I get some help?
This shit hurts!"
"It's not that bad,
others have it worse."
Back in the car.
...
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DARK POEM
Published
22nd Sep 2014 3:43pm
22nd Sep 2014 3:43pm
Dead and Gone
I've been consumed
By a darkness
Greater than myself.
I've been taken
Kidnapped
Beaten
And bruised
By the evil that dwells within me.
I've learned to live with
My self-hatred
The voices
The delusions
Hallucinations
Scars
And pain.
That girl I once was
She's gone now
Forever
Swallowed by the sadness
That ripped me apart.
Yes, that girl who was me
She's been summoned to an eternity of darkness.
She's dead.
She's gone.
Never to return.
By a darkness
Greater than myself.
I've been taken
Kidnapped
Beaten
And bruised
By the evil that dwells within me.
I've learned to live with
My self-hatred
The voices
The delusions
Hallucinations
Scars
And pain.
That girl I once was
She's gone now
Forever
Swallowed by the sadness
That ripped me apart.
Yes, that girl who was me
She's been summoned to an eternity of darkness.
She's dead.
She's gone.
Never to return.
891 reads
6 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
22nd Sep 2014 4:01am
22nd Sep 2014 4:01am
Not a Poem. Just My Feelings.
I hate everything.
I hate my life.
And my family.
And my school.
And people.
And the world.
And society.
And myself.
And everything.
Every day, I contemplate killing myself.
Taking my pain away.
But I don't.
Because I don't want to hurt the people in my life.
But what's funny is
They're the reason I want to die.
They're the reason I don't want to live.
They're the reason I hate myself.
And my life.
Every morning
Hurts
Because I'm awake
And alive
And it's not what I want.
I want to fall asleep...
I hate my life.
And my family.
And my school.
And people.
And the world.
And society.
And myself.
And everything.
Every day, I contemplate killing myself.
Taking my pain away.
But I don't.
Because I don't want to hurt the people in my life.
But what's funny is
They're the reason I want to die.
They're the reason I don't want to live.
They're the reason I hate myself.
And my life.
Every morning
Hurts
Because I'm awake
And alive
And it's not what I want.
I want to fall asleep...
925 reads
5 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
26th Aug 2014 3:56pm
26th Aug 2014 3:56pm
The Hidden Emotion of Your Suicidal Baby
There's a voice in my head,
A pain in my chest.
I've lost all control,
My body needs rest.
My mind is racing,
My thoughts all the same.
I'm coming close
To the end of my game.
I want it to end,
Not the thoughts in my mind.
You should be able to tell
I just want to die.
It's nothing new, really.
You've known for a while.
You pretend you don't know.
We'll call it denial.
And I live in pain.
I live in hell.
I stick around
So you can be well.
You'll blame yourself
You'll ask why.
Why, oh why, did I want to...
A pain in my chest.
I've lost all control,
My body needs rest.
My mind is racing,
My thoughts all the same.
I'm coming close
To the end of my game.
I want it to end,
Not the thoughts in my mind.
You should be able to tell
I just want to die.
It's nothing new, really.
You've known for a while.
You pretend you don't know.
We'll call it denial.
And I live in pain.
I live in hell.
I stick around
So you can be well.
You'll blame yourself
You'll ask why.
Why, oh why, did I want to...
802 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
1st Nov 2013 1:34pm
1st Nov 2013 1:34pm
Death Is At Your Door
When no one's by your side,
And you walk the lonely road
Just know there is someone always there
Watching as you go.
He's got the sharpest knife,
And the strongest dose of pills.
I bet you've always thought of him,
But didn't realize he was near.
He watches you when you sleep,
And when you leave for school.
He's waiting for the day you break
To be there to catch you.
You'll never see his face
Or even notice when he walks
Down your street up to your house
Hey! Death is at your door.
And you walk the lonely road
Just know there is someone always there
Watching as you go.
He's got the sharpest knife,
And the strongest dose of pills.
I bet you've always thought of him,
But didn't realize he was near.
He watches you when you sleep,
And when you leave for school.
He's waiting for the day you break
To be there to catch you.
You'll never see his face
Or even notice when he walks
Down your street up to your house
Hey! Death is at your door.
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
14th May 2013 11:19pm
14th May 2013 11:19pm
Welcome To My World...
Have you ever felt... empty?
Hopeless?
Lost?
Like there's no where to turn?
Like the world is against you?
And your life is falling apart?
Welcome to my world.
Do you ever want to... die?
Hide?
Scream?
Isolate yourself from the world?
Run away, never to look back?
And forget about that past?
Welcome to my world.
Does your life consist of... hate?
Despair?
Constant arguing?
Parents who hate each other?
A broken heart?
And a broken family?
Welcome to my world...
Hopeless?
Lost?
Like there's no where to turn?
Like the world is against you?
And your life is falling apart?
Welcome to my world.
Do you ever want to... die?
Hide?
Scream?
Isolate yourself from the world?
Run away, never to look back?
And forget about that past?
Welcome to my world.
Does your life consist of... hate?
Despair?
Constant arguing?
Parents who hate each other?
A broken heart?
And a broken family?
Welcome to my world...
788 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
23rd Apr 2013 11:17pm
23rd Apr 2013 11:17pm
Fathoming the End...
Born in hate
Raised in fear
Live in darkness
Is the end near?
I see no light
I feel no love
There is no power
From the great above.
The Lord has rejected
My heart and soul
Why would He give me
A life with no goal?
He does not acknowledge
The pain I am in
Or He'd give me my death
And forgive me of sin.
Self destruct
Mutilate
Pierce and burn
Is Hell my fate?
Will I be damned
To an eternal lake
Of fire and flames
And the torture they make?
Or will He forgive
And let...
Raised in fear
Live in darkness
Is the end near?
I see no light
I feel no love
There is no power
From the great above.
The Lord has rejected
My heart and soul
Why would He give me
A life with no goal?
He does not acknowledge
The pain I am in
Or He'd give me my death
And forgive me of sin.
Self destruct
Mutilate
Pierce and burn
Is Hell my fate?
Will I be damned
To an eternal lake
Of fire and flames
And the torture they make?
Or will He forgive
And let...
663 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
9th Feb 2013 4:14am
9th Feb 2013 4:14am
The Death of the Strongest
Sitting here playing Russian Rullet
If this doesn't work, I have more bullets
I've got the chamber fully loaded
My misery just can't be sugar coated
I try to shake this pain away
So I can make it through another day
I'm putting on my fake smile
Plotting to kill myself all the while
That's it. I'm done. I've had enough
To say I'm fine would be a bluff
I put the barrel to my head
Pulling the trigger; I now am dead
If this doesn't work, I have more bullets
I've got the chamber fully loaded
My misery just can't be sugar coated
I try to shake this pain away
So I can make it through another day
I'm putting on my fake smile
Plotting to kill myself all the while
That's it. I'm done. I've had enough
To say I'm fine would be a bluff
I put the barrel to my head
Pulling the trigger; I now am dead
750 reads
4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
7th Dec 2012 4:36am
7th Dec 2012 4:36am
This is how you made me...
I feel the love.
No; It's just hate.
I see the blade
That just can't wait.
I feel the blood
That flows from my arm.
I cry the tears
That are from your harm..
No; It's just hate.
I see the blade
That just can't wait.
I feel the blood
That flows from my arm.
I cry the tears
That are from your harm..
712 reads
1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
21st Nov 2012 6:02pm
21st Nov 2012 6:02pm
For the Love of a Drug
I take pills
That I don't need
Because I think
That they'll help me.
I smoke weed
I smoke a lot
Because it doesn't
Make your brain rot.
I smoke cigarettes
To ease the pain
Of what everyone puts me through
Again and Again.
I'll snort some pills
All the time
Because I want
To get that high.
I stick needles
In my arm
Just for the drug
Not for the harm.
I do a lot
That I shouldn't do
But I'm not alone
YOU do it too!
That I don't need
Because I think
That they'll help me.
I smoke weed
I smoke a lot
Because it doesn't
Make your brain rot.
I smoke cigarettes
To ease the pain
Of what everyone puts me through
Again and Again.
I'll snort some pills
All the time
Because I want
To get that high.
I stick needles
In my arm
Just for the drug
Not for the harm.
I do a lot
That I shouldn't do
But I'm not alone
YOU do it too!
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
21st Nov 2012 5:30pm
21st Nov 2012 5:30pm
For the Homeless and the Helpless...
You're alone.
You always have been.
You have no home.
No next of kin.
People see you.
People gawk.
People pass through.
All around the block.
They spare some change.
It goes to booze.
They have no range.
Of what it's like to lose.
Everything you've had.
It's all gone.
It doesn't make sense.
For you've done no one wrong.
You're just lost.
That's all, you see.
With some help you can get back.
To where you used to be...
You always have been.
You have no home.
No next of kin.
People see you.
People gawk.
People pass through.
All around the block.
They spare some change.
It goes to booze.
They have no range.
Of what it's like to lose.
Everything you've had.
It's all gone.
It doesn't make sense.
For you've done no one wrong.
You're just lost.
That's all, you see.
With some help you can get back.
To where you used to be...
771 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
8th Oct 2012 3:14am
8th Oct 2012 3:14am
Let Us
Let us cry,
Let us mourn,
Let us hate the fact
That we were born.
Let us hate,
Let us kill,
Let us find that thing
That gives us thrill.
Let us fight,
Let us fade,
Let us have a reason
To end with a blade..
Let us mourn,
Let us hate the fact
That we were born.
Let us hate,
Let us kill,
Let us find that thing
That gives us thrill.
Let us fight,
Let us fade,
Let us have a reason
To end with a blade..
940 reads
2 Comments
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