I didn’t want to live forever
Only just as long as you
Just hold on to these words
I know, I know, set it free
I distant myself
I’ve been lying all along
I don’t want to see you happy
Rain falls like judgement
My inner beast is screaming
The citrus sun has risen
Admonish all my thoughts
The curse has been lifted
I cried...
I'd like to think you cried...
Buckets of tears...
Once again...
Here I go...
Back into hell

I was born with a soul too big for this body
with a remembrance of worlds beyond this one
many people will not understand this deep sadness
and longing for another place/time/culture
where people hold each other in the highest regard
and reverence for the unique souls that they are

In understanding someone's God essence, you
know that on some level, we are all miracles capable
of so much more than we know.

So bathe in the moonlight
dance in the mud
make love to the trees
connect to the earth
hold a hand
cry a tear

feel every grain of sand between your toes
fade into the colors of every sunset
appreciate how nature and the animals
give show us how to live
enjoy the subtle extravagances of being a human

How i see love:

Love is a heartbeat, between two people, that both protect.

Love is bein passionately kissed, wherever, and instantly gettin erect.

Love is doing something,to make ur partners day easier.

Love is mocking ur partners mannerisms, borderline teasing ya.

Love is hard. And not for the faint. You cant say i love u, until u've got ur soulmate.

But love feels different, to every single person.
Understanding a person's love, will stop them from hurting.

Until you feel loved, u can never love. If u cant love, u will never b loved.

In Harmony

Our bodies are fined tuned instruments
pulsating in rhythmic accord
to a beat of frenzied fusion
through erotic syncopation
and instrumental friction
our bodies harmonize.

My scattered nature renders me permanently confused
And i seem to have lost my way again
I dont know where I am
Or where I go from here
All I know
Is that I know nothing
Nothing at all
Least of all me
My brain feels minced
And my heart compressed
A constant discomforting feeling
Deep within my gut
Ice runs through my veins
And I struggle to breathe
Where do I go from here?
Claustrophobic and low
Temporarily blinded
Blinded by my own sheer idiocy
Why did I think
That I could face this world alone?
Hollowed out like a tree trunk
I'm a shell
Made of porcelain
Once perfect, now cracked
Thrown away
Like the rest
Of the unwanted, misfit toys
I used to be so sure
So sure of who I was
Now, I realize I'm a farce
Simply a mimic of others behavior
No substance lies beneath
The exterior
Where do i go from here?
I need to find my way
But I dont know which way to go
Or where to start
On this journey of self discovery
All I know is that
I need to move
And keep moving
Pick a starting point
And move
My scattered nature
Can fix itself
Stitch a blank slate
And start anew

The haven that we found,
Found in our solitude in others’ arms
Do you dream of hope and escape?
Why don’t you dream of hope and escape?
An echo of your faded voice, lingers inside my cryptic home
A ruse that you gave, resides in my abode
And life did stop and we did escape to an eternal darkness. . .

Deathlike silence gripped us . . . us together
I played the gamble, gamble against the death and life for you
Your echoes, the aroma, the touch, and the shivers
I lost the gamble, gamble against the death and life for you
Your laughter, the tears, and the wounds . . . lay abandoned
Like tattoos painted, painted like scars
Do you dream of togetherness and wrapped in darkness?
Why don’t you dream of togetherness and wrapped in darkness?
Four thousand nights, I waited by the sea
Four thousand rainy nights, I maddened by the sea

A lighthouse lingered in the midst of the waves
A lighthouse with your aroma, a silence of your voice
A lighthouse with your skin, a chiselled spectacle
A lighthouse with your hopes, dreams and screams
We lost the sea. . . I lost the sea. . .

Dear Lord. I need me a savior. They said you were the one so can i ask you for some favors. Dear Lord. I aint worried bout this paper. Im worried bout the depts of hell and where its gonna take us. Dear Lord. I think i need some help. I'm concerned about these others but these others only worried bout themselves. Dear Lord. I ain't worried bout these women. I'm worried bout my restin place when its all finished. Dear Lord. Will you forgive me for my sinnin. Tryna tell the world about you but it's like nobody wanna listen. Dear Lord. I wonder why'd you take him from me. I question now an days if my father even loved me. Dear Lord. Please help me to change. Everytime i need to turn to you i turn to mary jane. Dear Lord. I'm so sorry for my ways. Its like ever since my grandma passed my family lost they faith. Dear Lord. Come back into our lives. The way we're livin so sickenin but i cant act like I'm surprised. Dear Lord. Why is it everyday i feel the need to cry. When i know all i gotta do is reach out to you an you'll be right here by my side. Ohh Dear Lord. Can we try this one more time. Left shoulder, right shoulder, forehead, chest, i just wanna be ready when i die. Dear Lord...

Stone cold
Shes now your gold ain't she?
Am standing here still bold
Even i cannot understand why it had to be so

I thought it was gonna be us till forever
Now i can see its for-who-ever
Adding your name to these list of my ex-lovers
Cause i can tell you its now more than over

Stone cold
Get out!
I've got nothing else to loose or give
I feel like i already made my weave

I tried to swallow my pride
Hoping you'd make half a stride
To meet me half way on this ride
But now i have made up my mind
I have to walk without you by my side
Am out!