Suicide Letters

Dear Friends & Family,
I love myself more than you,
that is why I am going to victimize you through my cowardly,
selfish, wasteful, sad, and useless act
of self destruction.

Please make no mistake,
even under this cloud of "depression"
and hundreds of cutting poems,
I loved myself more than you.
I hope to haunt you forever,
enjoy the pics the cops take.
I will probably shit myself
from the hanging, no big deal,
I can't smell it...I'm dead.

P.S., Tell that bitch Missy, I knew she was dating Brad the needle dick.
P.S.S, This is the fucking stupidest comp I have seen on DUP, congrats Mysterio...
P.S.S.S, Your scary skeleton avatar is bitchin....you must be a badass...

Suicide

These are the thoughts of a man,
Destined for suicide.
I've been waiting a long time
in this line to ride this ride.
The descent to insanity
Is thrashing and trashing
The heart in me.
Every cut runs deep.
The caged inside feelng,
Keeps my soul's eyes bleeding,
From weeping and screaming
For release.
The rage of this beast,
Locked in this cage
With no sight of keys
Except with flesh busting at the seams,
Upon death, my soul's release..

Intricate B

Forgive me
I just can't
I can't complain
you've never failed me
you've always  been there
always showing me your love
dealing with me during the worst times
not ever questioning my stubbornness
thank you for being the best family anyone could ever have
but forgive me for letting you all go without any explanation
you provided me a life that shouldn't be wasted, but
I've struggled with who I am for months
it's not your fault and I shouldn't punish you with this
forgive me for you'll live with this for the rest of your lives
Just know that I love you all so much
Forgive me...

Through the years I fought and fought
and for what, to be torn apart?
I wish I didn't care what the world thought
But I do, the reason I'm feeling blue

Look at me, no fame or money in the bank
What would you do?
Consider yourself lucky to be alive?
Vulnerabilities on display frequently

Mystery in abundance, drenched in secrecy
How can you blame me for my misfortunes?
I didn't choose to be abandoned by everyone
I chose to leave on my own terms, lucky me

categorized as a bad boy, I'm out of control
I have no choice, I have no ambitions or boats
living life under heavy scrutiny
happiness is my enemy, drinking is my way out

What do I have to live for?
No gold rings draped around my neck
I see your face full of distaste, smile now
I'm dead! Happy times are here forevermore

Paycheck to paycheck was a privilege
I couldn't afford, so poor I lived with mi amor
The only person I'll miss even though the look
On her face is the only reason this note exists.

To Nobody.

I sit here and bleed
but i feel no shame
i have cried for help
and as always, Nobody came

No more sitting at this screen
with a million strangers at my fingertips
so many lost souls with little esteem
all sick of life under our own dictatorships

So i sit here and bleed
but i feel no shame
i have cried for help
and as always, Nobody came.