White water

I watch you leaving
And I'm left questionning
What is it about your whole
That is not enough ?

Have to ask everyday
Is it better any other way ?
How dare you let me
Be imploding with love ?

     I cry snow from the sky
     Oh, would I have dreamt
     The sun would hide out and wait
     I drown in white water
     Heard pain is beautiful
     Heard it's nothing to cry.

My smile is not a travesty
But I can't love wholeheartedly
When one is far, and one is near,
I never think what I should.

Can't you see through my eyes,
Can't you guess my disguise ?
In the far-off mountains
It snows in April.

           Search, think, ponder and wonder,
           Try walking on white water,
           Turn it every way that doesn't work
           The snow will fall, and you're a jerk...

Can't I honor your sacrifice
Why can't I resist my vice ?
What is it about you both
That is not enough ?

Never content, it's always the same
The same boredom, the same pain
With him I miss you,
With you I miss him !

     I cry snow from the sky
     Oh, would I have dreamt
     The sun would hide out and wait
     I drown in white water
     Heard pain is beautiful
     Heard it's nothing to cry.