Submissions by Lothbrok (Jadie Angelik)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Dark Sway
I'd like to watch you come undone
until every strand of your flesh coils
around like a snake waiting to strike
We're all just meat onesies with a skeleton center
and I've had my fill
Why haven't I outgrown disaster and melancholy?
Still a ticking bomb with a short fuse
but so lazy I can't stay lit
If love is the way to happiness and a fulfilling life
why does it all bore me so much?
Like a kid at a oxytocin candy shop
Just to end up getting high on their own supply
My sweet demise will be everlasting peace
...
until every strand of your flesh coils
around like a snake waiting to strike
We're all just meat onesies with a skeleton center
and I've had my fill
Why haven't I outgrown disaster and melancholy?
Still a ticking bomb with a short fuse
but so lazy I can't stay lit
If love is the way to happiness and a fulfilling life
why does it all bore me so much?
Like a kid at a oxytocin candy shop
Just to end up getting high on their own supply
My sweet demise will be everlasting peace
...
#apathy
#boredom
#confusion
#dark
#despair
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Better
If I had a better mind
I could bend the little travesties.
Make amends with the Gods of everything
Gravity wouldn't feel so damn heavy
and I could finally say something happy
Not melodramatic conversation pieces
A real hopeful and respectful sentencing
where I didn't have to fake my conviction
just to make you smile
and watch you walk away with a part of me
I don't want to learn another lesson
I don't want to see the worse side of my depression
Because sometimes the medication is too much to take
remember when you said...
I could bend the little travesties.
Make amends with the Gods of everything
Gravity wouldn't feel so damn heavy
and I could finally say something happy
Not melodramatic conversation pieces
A real hopeful and respectful sentencing
where I didn't have to fake my conviction
just to make you smile
and watch you walk away with a part of me
I don't want to learn another lesson
I don't want to see the worse side of my depression
Because sometimes the medication is too much to take
remember when you said...
#happiness
#anxiety
#redemption
#disappointment
#emptiness
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Hungry
I swallowed the sun
that casted it's warm rays
on all the people I know, long ago
the hollow hole deep within me
was illuminated for moment
For all to see the good I still had
just for the abyss
to grow dark once again.
that casted it's warm rays
on all the people I know, long ago
the hollow hole deep within me
was illuminated for moment
For all to see the good I still had
just for the abyss
to grow dark once again.
#sadness
#anger
#dark
#despair
#disappointment
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Jasper
You'll hear a lot of things about me
some great,
from good people
some bad from hurt hearts
I hope you don't mind son,
Your father,
was a wanderer,
barely together with a broken heart
and a decent fellow to some
At this point still trying to find my place
and leaving destruction in my wake
You're way too young to know
and I'm happy to hold you still
I hope you never lose that smile
As I watched mine slip from every other photograph
until it's been away for awhile...
And I'd give my life...
some great,
from good people
some bad from hurt hearts
I hope you don't mind son,
Your father,
was a wanderer,
barely together with a broken heart
and a decent fellow to some
At this point still trying to find my place
and leaving destruction in my wake
You're way too young to know
and I'm happy to hold you still
I hope you never lose that smile
As I watched mine slip from every other photograph
until it's been away for awhile...
And I'd give my life...
#happiness
#love
#hope
#forgiveness
#gratitude
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Tired
You found a way to resolve yourself
but no intention to include me
you stay hands up, head down
because that's what they wanted to see
I frantically smile at the barrel
but no intention to assume it was yours
I stay hands down, head up
because we both know
I was always bound to go up in smoke
but no intention to include me
you stay hands up, head down
because that's what they wanted to see
I frantically smile at the barrel
but no intention to assume it was yours
I stay hands down, head up
because we both know
I was always bound to go up in smoke
#dark
#respect
#denial #boredom
#denial #boredom
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The Gods We Can Kill
Dagger Eyes
Staggered Breaths
Demons on standby
Crosses from a past life
Hundreds of martyrs
And their ropes tight
White as ghosts for miles
Tattered Death on their skin
Arms wide open
They still insist
Cyanide Smiles
Because we all know
That Heaven was Created by a Plagiarist
Staggered Breaths
Demons on standby
Crosses from a past life
Hundreds of martyrs
And their ropes tight
White as ghosts for miles
Tattered Death on their skin
Arms wide open
They still insist
Cyanide Smiles
Because we all know
That Heaven was Created by a Plagiarist
#anger
#anxiety
#fate
#despair
#apathy
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Came to
What has it come to?
matter of fact it's that little hop in your step
A little silly grin once her name starts being mentioned again
Little nicknames and rhyme schemes,
Fucking so cute it makes you want to puke
Rainbows
It's the
happenstance pillow talks,
once in the while the bed gets new groove
you want to outline it in chalk
for a crime
of them being your cinderblock in a mafia movie
because you're falling deep
A little nibble here and there
now you're marked like Cain
but she's not Able to hold your heavy heart ...
matter of fact it's that little hop in your step
A little silly grin once her name starts being mentioned again
Little nicknames and rhyme schemes,
Fucking so cute it makes you want to puke
Rainbows
It's the
happenstance pillow talks,
once in the while the bed gets new groove
you want to outline it in chalk
for a crime
of them being your cinderblock in a mafia movie
because you're falling deep
A little nibble here and there
now you're marked like Cain
but she's not Able to hold your heavy heart ...
#jealousy
#loneliness
#rejection
#heartbroken
#emptiness
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God Of Crows
Wire mesh splatter
Just all feathers and talons
matter of talent
painted from blood of the evidence
Heavens just a place of mind
mine's like minefield
calmer on the outside
out sized karma by age 9
fitted for a crown that wouldn't fit
now it sits wrapped around the horns
persuaded by an outside force,
of course the worse has better nails
For the Devil's in the details
and when I try to kneel
my feet fail
Slipping on an outdated concept
and causing offense and pandemonium
I'm as phony as they come
Just all feathers and talons
matter of talent
painted from blood of the evidence
Heavens just a place of mind
mine's like minefield
calmer on the outside
out sized karma by age 9
fitted for a crown that wouldn't fit
now it sits wrapped around the horns
persuaded by an outside force,
of course the worse has better nails
For the Devil's in the details
and when I try to kneel
my feet fail
Slipping on an outdated concept
and causing offense and pandemonium
I'm as phony as they come
#despair
#apathy
#boredom
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Wallow
Everyone wants me to pick up where I left off
but,
I don't think I have anything to say anymore
I'm unamused,
fuming at the mediocre musings I conjure
I'm sorry what do you want from me?
another Altars? another Winter's Breath?
Wherever I begin just feels like nothing but the same
I ramble and tame my tongue, I fearlessly write my thoughts
just to cower at perceived consequence,
It's not the danger that worries me,
I just don't have the energy to explain anything.
And that thought of having to endure a passing person's narrative ...
but,
I don't think I have anything to say anymore
I'm unamused,
fuming at the mediocre musings I conjure
I'm sorry what do you want from me?
another Altars? another Winter's Breath?
Wherever I begin just feels like nothing but the same
I ramble and tame my tongue, I fearlessly write my thoughts
just to cower at perceived consequence,
It's not the danger that worries me,
I just don't have the energy to explain anything.
And that thought of having to endure a passing person's narrative ...
#anger
#anxiety
#dark
#boredom
#bittersweet
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No one reads this anyways
People are like suns
glowing up and burning out
I want to swallow it all
and feel how deep my emptiness goes
I had a dream one night
woke up and found it while awake
in my enemies fever dreams
I cut people out like coupons
and edit them in my head to fit
into conversations we never had
but wish we did
I want to bend myself backwards sometimes
because I'm sick of hindsight being so late.
I want to see the knife coming
before the stinging truth
glowing up and burning out
I want to swallow it all
and feel how deep my emptiness goes
I had a dream one night
woke up and found it while awake
in my enemies fever dreams
I cut people out like coupons
and edit them in my head to fit
into conversations we never had
but wish we did
I want to bend myself backwards sometimes
because I'm sick of hindsight being so late.
I want to see the knife coming
before the stinging truth
#anger
#anxiety
#boredom #bittersweet
#boredom #bittersweet
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Death Signed
The day started like any other
Just awaiting death to accept an invitation
We’ve all given with forged signatures
Floating a little more south than usual
My state of mind is like a rickety bridge
I like to burn it at both sides
standing center in the eclipse
Impending cataclysmic abysses
don’t frighten me as fast
As feeling empty in a room so full
I feel I won’t be missed, maybe that’s the point
I don’t want a single memory to hold hostage your happy thoughts
When it took the present to taint the past
I burrow deep with...
Just awaiting death to accept an invitation
We’ve all given with forged signatures
Floating a little more south than usual
My state of mind is like a rickety bridge
I like to burn it at both sides
standing center in the eclipse
Impending cataclysmic abysses
don’t frighten me as fast
As feeling empty in a room so full
I feel I won’t be missed, maybe that’s the point
I don’t want a single memory to hold hostage your happy thoughts
When it took the present to taint the past
I burrow deep with...
#anger
#despair
#apathy
#boredom
#bittersweet
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The Devil Himself
His ability to play the role so well,
Like he never laid the script upon the shelf
the mannerisms of royalty and class
his wine glass smoking from the heat
should've been a reason to guess
That....
They accidentally hired the Devil to play himself
His words carried weight,
I saw the audience floating from seat to extremist
it was beautiful destruction of common sense
perverse were the words but perfect stood his form
That gilded smile...
is what took the world by storm...
Like he never laid the script upon the shelf
the mannerisms of royalty and class
his wine glass smoking from the heat
should've been a reason to guess
That....
They accidentally hired the Devil to play himself
His words carried weight,
I saw the audience floating from seat to extremist
it was beautiful destruction of common sense
perverse were the words but perfect stood his form
That gilded smile...
is what took the world by storm...
#devil
#fate
#hell
#apocalypse
#redemption
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