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Sunny days so far away,i long for them in many ways.  
visions of happy were so many,lately can't seem to place any.  
my days a haze a gloom a blank,damn I can't believe how far I sank.  
my nights lay in waste like plague killing the masses leaving decay  
in its wake,emotions slowly festering away..  
I don't regret just try to forget the hate and despise in my soul it resides.  
the anger rotting in black,radiates from this deep,lost and insane there's no going back.  
days wondering how lost I've become,looking for peace from this torment my life.  
I wish things were different and me a bit stronger but negative energy hangs on a lot longer. 
it drags you it beats you and all things you dread,sometimes to live in the darkness you're better off dead.  
calming the demons my pen finds a way,as long as the ink flows they're always at bay.  
so like if you will or hate I don't mind,  
for now trapped in this darkness and no light I can find..