Pain

I live with a question mark in my mind, in my heart and in my soul,  
Asking myself many times what went wrong,
A letter or a phone call was the least you could have done,
But you did none of them, you just left me alone,
The pain of it all is that before I could say goodbye and hold you one last time,
You faded away before the first dawn of light,
Hour’s passes bye, impatiently I get because of you not being here,
Each day that passes bye, it’s slowly is killing me away, feeling that end is near,
I waited for you many years, I lived through so many lonely seasons,
Each one that passed bye I try to figure out why you left… I couldn’t think of a reason,
I know you’re out of my life but you’re not out of my heart,
Until the end of time, the strain burden of losing you will tear me apart,
Your touch gave me warmth, your kisses took my breath away,
With you around gave me inner peace, your smile light my day,
You see you beckoning me towards you and made feel hope once more,
You made me realize that there is nothing trivial in this world,
Sometimes I think our love was just a dream because it was too good to be true,
All I have left are the flashbacks I get of me and you,
The only way I know you existed, the only way I know you were for real,
Is the never ending pain of you not being here that I feel,
To remember you, is for my heart to feel a burning ache,
I’ll endure it, because to have you it’s the only way,
I believed you when you told me to the end, I was mystify by the illusion that you gave,
I thought you meant forever but it actually meant today,
Remember when you told me to never leave you and I promised you that I will never leave,
Guest what, I haven’t left, when I said forever I meant it for eternity,
Until I see you again my soul will never rest in peace,
It won’t leave until he gets the answer of why you left me,
If you ever want to confess the truth, just visit my grave,
I’ll be in my room, covered in barbwires and all frozen to death,
How important you were to me, you will never ever know,
But know this, like I loved you then, I love you today and I’ll love you tomorrow,