Just another day

 

I've got hidden feelings and lots to say, when I was young, I didn't believe in god, I would disrespect his name, distant from Christ, I've felt alone all my life, with no one to talk to, I never knew what to do, I was cold as ice, fitting, in a cold world, my emotions were holding me down, or was it the insecurities that caused me to frown, with no friends, I had no one to trust, I had nothing to look forward to, except for trips to the food bank each month, sleepless nights, and often no where to sleep, I would lose all hope, as I struggled to smile, and my family struggled to eat, abused at home, and abused at school, childhood traumas, now I'm too scared to take my shirt off, especially in the pool, bruised and battered, I can still hear the sirens, but to me it didn't matter, my heart was already shattered, you promised you would return, but when you turned the corner, I knew I would never see you again, I prayed every night, that god would return my best friend, lost in the depths of solitude, I took a wrong turn, and so did my attitude, haunted by screams every night, it was impossible to dream, I couldn't see, there was no sunlight, blinded by pain, While searching for change, I was mis leaded by demons calling my name, homeless and heartless, Following in the footsteps of criminal influences, the only people who showed me any interest, and these days, the word of god seems to be just a myth, struggling to find hope, in a world where nobody cares about this, I still believe in the positive, and I'm fuelled pain, I was born in the fire, but I have ice in my veins, I look into the mirror, and I am not ashamed, I am blessed to say, I have turned into the man you see today.