"Slow death"

This death is slow ,
When am I gonna go ?
Drugs increase the speed ,
If so
Then I should be 83 ~
I'm stuck in first gear ,
Pop the clutch and burst a tear ~
Engine dead but i'm still breathin' ,
Without a replacement what's the reason ?
Death is dragging while time is flying ,
The pain intensifies while I'm slowly dying ~
My heart aches along with my bones ,
I'm paying a price that's outta control ~
There is a void where love use to stay ,
My spirit is gone my soul went away ~
I escaped death and prolonged my fate ,
Eyes pinned to the ground guessing my due date ~
Lord do you hear me calling ?
This place is getting worse and I can't take it that I'm falling ~
My feet are sore and my brain is tired ,
Smoke after smoke my lungs are on fire ~
Tomorrow it will all be the same ,
But one day closer from escaping the rain ~
This death is slow and no one will last ,
Maybe if I was happy death would be fast ~
B.