Its not ok

keep walking..
and stop chewing on your lip
do you really think your ok
as my insecurities eat on my insides
and yell through the pounding of my head
I pace back and forth
watching the sweat pour off my body
clenching and un-clenching my hands
I count trying to release the frustration
bubbling inside me
rubbing my belly to soothe the cramps
that have taken hold of me
I crouch on the floor
getting ready for round two
but know matter how much I jog
run, leap
I'm never good enough to find that simple
release
I cant smile at my reflection
because I'm afraid it will look away
the rolls on my sides
sway with every quick movement
and the muscles in my thighs
quiver and grunt with every tired stretch
looking at the clock on the wall i ignore the time
and repeat to myself this time
keep walking
and stop chewing on your lip
do you really think your...ok