Painful Truth.

Humans are such weak creatures. Im just so done. Icant do it anymore. I cant take no more heart ache,  stress, pain,  hate, nothing. I hurt everyone. Im an embrassment to my family. My brother doesnt even wanna act like my brother anymore.
He cares only for his image & reputation. They fail to listen to me,  they can hear me,  they see me.. Just not listen & see how much im hurting. Im nothing like other people & i never will be. When will they understand?  & no,  this isnt some childish little drama.  I hurt just like any other person. I can never tell ANYBODY my feelings.... I thought i was passed this hugs wall that i block people out of..
Today proved sooooo much to me. I wont cry,  ill seem weak. And im not. But sometimes,  the tears just fall.
I wish i had Adam,  he was the only person who almost understood me. I wish people would just let me be. Im just utterly and completly done.
I dont know how to express how im feeling in the right words. Life is nothing but a beautiful lie. This pain is my only true friend.
But i have myself and my notebook... Thats good enough for me.
Its just killing me inside.
Well, lets see if i can make it out alive...
- Christine Marie