Fuck Love

"you should justforget about her" My sister tells me, "Shes a skank, you were just dick to her in between tyler time."

Her words are like a heavy fist square in the solar plexus. Every time she told me how she loved me like she had never loved anyone before was a lie, I was only a distraction to her.

"You should come back, you said you dont have a warrant right? I miss you brother" she says, her words breaking my heart and bringing tears to my eyes.

"Sis if I went back they'd issue a warrant, besides I cant imagine running into Riah all the time"

"Move to Norton, thats where I'm going"

"Sis, them little towns aint no place for me"

The phone is silent, she knows I'm right.

I tell her I love her and hang up the phone with a sigh. I wish I could go back, back to believing she loved me, that the people who bought dope from me were more than customers.

The guy that life belonged to is dead, he died the day she ended their relationship. I cant even go fuck someone because everytime I try I remember the night she first said "I love you."

Fuck love. Fuck it all.