Goodbye

My heart bleeds
From where you left your mark
On my life.
You interrupted my childhood,
Loved me through adolescence
And nearly murdered me as an adult.
You promised that you would always love me.
You promised that you would keep me safe.
You promised you would never hurt me.
You lied.
It was Valentine’s Day.
You came home in a rage.
You said that if you couldn’t have me,
Then nobody could.
Brandishing a knife,
You ‘loved’ me.
You ‘loved’ me 27 times.
Or was that the number of times
That the knife plunged in?
I can’t remember.
I lost count after 9,
Not to mention my consciousness.
I heard the voices
Whisper in my ear.
“She might just make it”
I hear someone say
“He missed her brain”
“But she might lose her eye”
My eye?
What’s wrong with my eye?
I’ll live?
Is this true?
I try to fight it.
Try to fight against the pain.
I won’t let you win.
I don’t want to die.

Blank out.

I hear a faint beeping.

Beep.

Beep.

Beep.

I open my eyes,
But only one can see.
I want to know
What you’ve done to me.
They won’t tell me and
I can’t look.
But they tell me your caught.
And that you’ll be gone,
That you can’t hurt me anymore.
I breathe a sigh of relief
And renew my faiths and beliefs.
I told you.
I told you that you wouldn’t win.
I’m too good for you.
I am loved you see.
I don’t need you.
So Goodbye my love.
Goodbye.