Why?

I can't stand the pain
I just want to disappear... I miss him, but he's moved on much too quickly and I realized he never gave shit about me... Just like everyone else... I'm alone no one knows me for me
I learned to trust no one not even myself are you listening is there a god out there to save me from my own misery?
I act like I'm happy you know? Yeah, just cheery old me
Wrong... You don't know me I don't even know me... I'm nobody who am I
I lie I'm not perfect I'm an idiot  
Tell me  why? Why I exist, why you torture me, why I'm even alive
I miss him I wanna die without him come back to e baby I  love you I'm sorry ok why did you break my heart heart? Why do you hate me, why did you kill me... Why are you gone D?
Come back why leave me for that slut she's a bitch
Why when I love you so much it hurts
Who am I
Kill me now
Why? I love you... I'm sorry d please forgive me... Please save me from myself
Oh baby if I could only tell you how you  make me  weak how you make my legs feel like jello
Why?
All I ask of you is to leave that whore and tell me why... Why I love you?